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Thursday, July 31, 2008
Nothing is impossible with God. In Straits Times today, I was extremely bewildered and amused to read a front page article about Olympic athletes and spectators in the bird nest stadium that will get a free Bible each during the Olympic season. On the first thought, i could not link Bible + Olympics together. Maybe if Australia or US does it, I can still understand. Even then i already think that it's weird. Now we are talking about China? We all know that China is a strong advocator of 无神论 (no religion aka atheism). Then why this? Somemore during the OLYMPICS which is a huge international event? I have a few reasons to offer. First explanation: China wants the world to know that they are no longer as closed up as before, although they may be a communist country in name. Now, they want to be portrayed as more welcoming to foreign influences, from as extreme as West and in this case, Christianity. Second explanation: Previously China declared itself as an atheist country because of their comparatively narrow-minded perspective towards all religions. Perhaps now they have seen that religions and, in specific for this case, Christianity teaches good and long standing values, they have come to accept that Christian values are in line with the kind of values the Chinese government would like to disseminate and inculcate into their countrymen. Yet i offer no explanation for why the Bible during the Olympics. Too imperceptible. In my humble opinion, both reasons above play a part. But above all human reasoning, I truly think that it can only be GOD. And those who God has moved through since hundreds of years ago, just to make it possible for China to be open to the gospel like this today. The article also mentioned that there are an estimate of 90million (6.8% of entire population) Christians in China today, inclusive of the 'house' churches (means use house as church meeting place, not necessarily legal) and the government approved churches. I believe that as China becomes more and more open to Christianity, more will be saved and one day China will belong to the Kingdom of God 100%. Indeed, with God nothing is impossible! Holy Spirit works in ways that we cannot think or imagine. Really. As i read the newspaper today, i believed. Labels: contemplative, revelation 11:24 PM
things to do list Buy NKJV bible (very hard to find christian bkshop around nowadays since Life bkshop closed down!!!) Tidy my room Hang out with Charmaine Pri 6 class gathering (organize with Charm) Daily devotion - R.T's ultimate guide to increase Motivational quotes stick in my room's walls Mahjong sessions with family And i'm determined to see the list grow shorter until ZERO tasks left to be done - all before school reopens. HAAAAllelujah. Labels: daily rantings 12:22 AM
Wednesday, July 30, 2008
Complain complain.... Module Bidding is giving me a lot of headache................ Labels: daily rantings 10:14 AM
accomplished sense of achievement. Hehe. Today i jogged and shopped with Weiling at Arab St + Haji Lane (It's a GREAT place!), so it's like double exercise. Felt very tired and drained after saying goodbye to WL....went to Bugis national library to read my book - the Art of Distinction. I'm 2 chapters short of finishing it! Yeahhh. I find that the last few chaps are the most useful to me. Then i came back i did mask...like finally. I've got too many at home (brought from Korea by my 4yi) i gotta try and use as many as possible. Gonna print out motivational quotes to stick on my walls. =) Labels: daily rantings 12:38 AM
Tuesday, July 29, 2008
I'm a serious procrastinator Things I haven't started on since Thursday July 17 Do Mask at home diligently Buy NKJV bible Tidy my room Weekly/Bi-weekly hang out with the youths Hang out with Charmaine Pri 6 class gathering (organize with Charm) Check if Fenglin's back from China Finish reading Robb Thompson's Art of Distinction Daily devotion - R.T's ultimate guide to increase Print out motivational quotes and stick in my room's walls EXERCISE!!!! Mahjong sessions with family AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!! I'm a big fat procrastinator. I need rehab. I'm going to exercise in the morning, take breakfast, put mask, print out my quotes and stick to my room walls. Then, on my journey to meet WL, i'm going to read the Art of Distinction. Yeahhhh. I'm gonna do it. JUST DO IT. Labels: daily rantings 12:30 AM
Monday, July 28, 2008
Laying my milestones I'm really blog flooding huh? *shake head* This is the result of having too much free time. Haiyoh. Better if school starts earlier... Okay, here's me and TSUBASA-SAN!!!  Yeah...her vocals is amazing! So honoured to take photo with her.....she's inspirational to me. So is alvaro sanchez. =) ---------------------- Actually i wanted to blog about something else which slipped my mind earlier on. But i thought it was impt for me to reflect, look back and prepare myself for the future. So i'm doing it now. It would be 3 years in church since i entered City Harvest back in the 2nd half of the year 2005. I remember YT reaching out to me for nearly 1 year. She really pressed in into my life. She challenged my convictions in the spiritual beliefs i had back then, which were either weak in foundation or wrong in concept. She challenged me to live it out, not just talk the talk but walk the walk. If i say i want to love the Lord, if i say that i have passion in serving the house of God, then i must also be faithful to attend weekly church service AND cell group meetings. I was convicted. The Holy Spirit convicted my heart strongly in the area of commitment to the church i belong to. She always bring in the Holy Spirit into our conversation and discussion about spiritual issues. Time and again, the Holy Spirit led me to believe but it was over a period of time. I would say that the whole journey to coming to know Christ as my savior and LORD was really supernatural. But little did i realize back then, that i was like a lost sheep trying to find its way to the right home. I was a sheep finding a home to be faithful and committed to. But i couldn't until i met YT and agreed to visit City Harvest. On the first visit, because i was open to the move of God (yet i wasn't open to the controversial church called City Harvest), the moment i placed my feet and took my 1st step into the Jurong West B4 auditorium, my hair stood up all over my body. The spiritual atmosphere was undeniably strong. The place IS anointed. That time, they were having the pre-service prayer meeting. This is why, i always believe in the power of pre-service prayer meetings. I will always make it a point to attend it up till now, although sometimes my flesh would fail me. =p Because i know that if the worship venue can have a strong spiritual atmosphere even before people stepping into it for service, we will be more ready to engage in the service, right from the beginning with praise. Including newcomers. And the newcomers will have a higher chance of responding to the altar call. =) So after the first few visits, i began to be integrated into N119. It is made up of people from all walks of life, all personalities, all forms of attitudes, some not necessarily good....hahaha. But i understood the fact that all of us are imperfect. I learnt to love them despite being so different. Slowly, i built up friendship with them through fellowship although there was a time i could not stay to fellowship as my parents wanted me home immediately after church to study for A levels. I then began to get involved in the Childrens Church ministry. i began reaching out actively, i began Bible Study which i always look forward to. I used to have it one-to-one with Yvonne, and i loved the way she taught me BS. Then, I made the decision to quit Children's church to focus more on Cg under the advice of Victor. It was also a God-approved decision. But that was only the beginning of difficult times to come. I had to learn to get out from my comfort zone from being a very faithful, loyal follower (which i've been good at all my life) to prepare myself to lead in future. Through Victor, i learnt what is truly leadership excellence. I really learnt a lot a lot from him. Not just leadership but also how to make myself more presentable to others, to build my inner confidence. He is a very wise discipler to me during that 1 year. I look up to him, and i always give my best to be accountable and to honour him the best i know how. Despite given the 'golden' opportunity to do more for the Cg, i struggled a lot. I struggled with self-image. Lack of security in Christ. Lack of boldness. Feeling compelled to please everyone. Lack of spiritual intimacy with God. Unresolved family issues. Double standard Christian. I felt that i was all of the above at one point in time at my lowest. It took great courage for me to decide to carry on. But i did eventually, thanks to great encouragement from Victor and JJ. =) But i also know that i wouldn't give up so easily because it is His plan for me to one day become a leader in the church for His glory. God wouldn't let me give up so easily even if i myself didn't have much faith in this vision. I was doubting it all the way. i wasn't sure if it was from God or i was just getting too passionate abt serving God. The calling was revealed just like a few months after i made the decision to be planted in City Harvest during my quiet time. Back then, i was a baby Christian, minimal biblical knowledge - only with a heart that wants to do so much more for God. After 1 year and a few months, Victor challenged me to register for SOT in the year 2007. I was concerned financially and also if my parents are willing to let me attend SOT. Eventually, i did. God made a way with my parents. The 5 months in SOT was honeymoon with God, getting to know Him more in the Word and also in the Spirit. From SOT onwards, I could feel myself growing steadily in the Lord in maturity. And in year 2008, i achieved my first breakthrough. I resolved the unresolved issues in my heart towards my family. I took the initiative to reconcile the relationship. I began to be more socially literate. I became bolder. I became more honest and open in the way i express myself to others. To me, it is big breakthru. And of course, along the way i picked up my violin once again to use my God-given talents to serve in the orchestra ministry. I had lots of fun in it. I was also given the task from time to time to "take care" of the orchestra, and to be involved in a few impt discussions with regard to the direction and purpose of the ministry. I benefited quite a bit as i was given the chance to open my eyes to the real issues and the 'adult things'. Like applying for funding, liaising with different parties for different occasions, registering to become an official society in Singapore, etc. And by then, N119 has already combined with W280. things have more or less changed. But i believe the change to be good. Cheryl is now my leader, and she's a great friend, confidante and my motivator. =) She's very wise, very mature in her thoughts. It's great to be able to tell her things and she would offer great suggestions to help me in that area. And now, coming to a point when i am called to help with the youths thingy together with AL and Vic....I feel honoured, excited and challenged. Although at times i might have been more negative than i should, i always make sure i pull myself up together. i am still holding fast to my calling and i know that every step i take, i'm getting closer to my destination. So that's the milestones i've laid over the past 3 years...looking back, it's quite a history! I know that from the day i was conceived in my mother's womb, i'm meant to do great things for God as i come into existence in this world. I've heard my mum tell me many times, how problematic her conception was especially the giving birth part. However, God appeared in her dreams while in coma to assure her and to guide her. I really believe my birth was very supernatural in a sense. Think of it as the devil trying to stop my mum from conceiving me, even at the very last moment of giving birth. So with that, i no longer want to be insecure and weak, because i'm definitely more than a conqueror. The fact that i'm living on Earth and my mum gave birth to me successfully against all odds, i think it's quite a feat. ;) Okie. So now i'm ready to sleep. Nitey. No bad dreams i hope! =) Labels: contemplative, daily rantings 1:27 AM
Sunday, July 27, 2008
Direction of God Today marked the end of the Getai show put up by the orchestra ministry. Haha. But seriously, 7th month is coming huh? =x Pretty positive responses from most, really appreciate it man. I think the piece itself easily move people with its melody and familiar tune. And plus we practise very often, refining it....i guess it did not disappoint. =) I took a picture with Tsubasa san! :D:D:D shall post it up soon. Tat Haur mentioned that it's time for me to go another level higher in my violin playing....cos the orchestra needs to continue striving for excellence. For me, i've thought of it before and i know that if i did not have so many things i need to juggle and prioritize, i would have done it long ago without hesitating. Thing is, right now i have many things in my face and i have not excelled in any one. So how should i see myself having yet another challenge thrown unto me if i can't excel in any one? Sigh. Family. Studies. Cell group. Personal church commitments (svc, pm, orchestra, cgm). Ministry(CG + CG + Orch). Reaching out. Exercise lifestyle. What I feel I must/shld do, on top of that: 1) Driving (Advanced theory + practical + sit for test) 2) Special term (locally/overseas) 3) Violin grade 8 exam 4) Pick up a CCA in school If i want to do it, i gotta cram all 4 things within my schooling years. #2 and #4 definitely lar. Cos once i step out as a debutante, that's it. Working life will be much more awful. At least that's how i see it in the case of Singapore. But of course, at the same time i also know that it can be as simple as a matter of getting the right mindset on things...such as becoming disciplined, having the spirit of excellence in everything i do, becoming more spiritual and reliant on the Holy Spirit's leadership, and more mature as a whole. Gotta pray. Where is God leading me to? I got a feeling He wouldn't answer this question of mine until the very last minute. He will want me to first knock down some walls, get myself entangled, experiment and explore around before He reveals the answer.....as always. -------------- Have been suffering from mild insomia lately...don't know why. I'm usually a very good and deep sleeper. Not just insomia lately but also bad dreams and nightmare. Sigh. Spiritual attack? Maybe. Tmr's module bidding. There it goes again....the whole cycle of troublesome-ness begins leading to the start of a brand new year in school. Labels: contemplative, daily rantings 5:08 PM
Saturday, July 26, 2008
The PEAK magazine I've taken a huge interest in reading the PEAK magazine, which my dad has free subscription of every month. I think it is by far my most favourite magazine because it is not just another magazine introducing all the high end luxury goods which attracts the materialistic bunch. Neither is its target leaning towards certain gender or lifestyle. Its focus is more on interviews with successful people and how they manage their lifestyle, their business, and their words of wisdom to readers. Which r things that i'm really curious to know. I want to be successful too, u know. =p Labels: daily rantings, information 12:03 AM
Friday, July 25, 2008
i'm flooding my blog with too many posts. I'm sorry. I know i'm flooding my blog with too many posts over the past few days. I also don't wish to cause information overload to my dearest readers....but I just got to blog it out. U know what i mean??? Sigh. Anyway. I just composed a song. It was really born out of inspiration. I just sat in front of the piano, knowing that something is about to come out of my creativity. And it did. I will post it up on my blog, maybe youtube soon. I think. Haha. I named the song "Eternity", because the song depicts the kind of life we will live when we get to Heaven. So u have a rough idea and u can expect the song to be not a pop song. Haha....maybe closer to the new age genre? *shrug* But one thing i know - i had God and eternity in mind when i composed this song. And this song is dedicated to God. Eternity I can see it all The picture of a thousand light inside And I can find the piece of purity I feel oh yes I do The Colours of the wind I open my wings to fly Your Hand in mine in eternity I cry tears of happiness it seems Your Hand in my hand through eternity Your Hand in mine in eternity In eternity In eternity.... Labels: daily rantings 12:10 AM
Thursday, July 24, 2008
CHC KL's orchestra ministry
Going to pluck out my left upper wisdom tooth tmr at dad's!!!
Labels: daily rantings, information 11:54 PM
Alvaro Sanchez!  AHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!! I took a picture with Alvaro Sanchez AND i shook his hand!!!! OMG!!!!!!!!! :O :O :O So excited. Hehehehe. Oh my oh my. I feel so honoured. He came to sit in to listen to the orchestra. I've quite surprised that he's still in Singapore! Haha. Well, he praised our orchestra that we sounded good. i think it's more of like 'it's great your glorifying God thru your music talents' rather than we really sounding good. hahaha. cos i think we didn't do too well during our soundcheck. But anyway, i'm currently still starstruck!!!!! Yup. ANyways. This week i'm SO packed. Thursday - salvation BS and cell group. Friday - Bugis with Elly. Saturday - whole day performance + family dinner @ night. Sunday - performance + fellowship/youths outreach. See, that's why i'm really in need of more confidence. In need to step UP and step OUT. Pray............... Labels: daily rantings, information 12:20 AM
Wednesday, July 23, 2008
Rise up! Rise up! Rise up! I can hear what this whole week is shouting at me. RISE UP! RISE UP! RISE UP! Rise up to the occasion. Rise up....... Put on BOLDNESS. Put off COMFORT. Put on FAITH. Put off DOUBTS. Put on PASSION. Put off LAZINESS. Put on VIGILANCE. Put off ASSUMPTIONS. Put on HUMILITY. Put off PRIDE. Labels: contemplative, daily rantings 2:46 PM
GOLDEN     NONE other than my big boy Golden, whose 2 years old birthday was 2 days ago. =) I wanted to separate out the pictures in different blog entries on different days, but heck - it's too much of a hassle really. I'll just upload this last bit and that's all i have for photos! Recently having the urge to blog. Don't know why. Btw, Delirious? has retired. It's pretty old news already, but to those who have yet to realize, they have annouced their retirement on their main website. I was devastated to know it initially, but after a while i felt that they r all flowing with God in the times and seasons so yeah.....God willing, hope to see them back on stage someday in Singapore. Labels: daily rantings, information 2:17 AM
Adults evangelistic meeting     There u go. This is what happens backstage at Artiste room 1. Taking photos of ourselves and having fun with our camera phones in the midst of the nervousness and waiting for our stage performance. Funny right? =) Samuel did not join in cos he was playing the guitar for P&W. heh heh. Labels: contemplative, daily rantings 12:57 AM
Tuesday, July 22, 2008
Faye Wong's 我愿意 Yesterday as i attended Super band, one of the judges said that '我愿意' sung by Faye Wong is a song with lyrics written by a Christian lyricist who is making this song a prayer to God. I was surprised. It was a revelation to me. Perhaps that's why Dreamfactory chose this song to perform yesterday nite. To many of us, this song is a love song. But let's go back to the original perspective to look at the lyrics once again. 思念是一种很玄的东西 如影~随形 无声又无息出没在心底 转眼~吞没我在寂默里 我无力抗拒 特别是夜里 喔~想你到无法呼吸 恨不能立即 朝你狂奔去 大声的告诉你~ 愿意为你 我愿意为你 我愿意为你 忘记我姓名 就算多一秒 停留在你怀里 失去世界也不可惜 我愿意为你 我愿意为你 我愿意为你 被放逐天际 只要你真心 拿爱与我回应 什么都愿意 什么都愿意 为你 Labels: daily rantings, information 1:31 PM
scared of myself? I think that if i'm ever in a relationship, i'll be a high maintenance girl. Seriously. I will pity the guy's pockets. Maybe not if he is rich. But then again, i will not stoop so low as to spend the guy's money all the time. The ability and willingness to pay off my own bills is a sign of balanced independence. Just a thought. By the way, i also bought myself Reebok track shoes at Stadium Takashimaya this afternoon after the facial. Of course it's to force me to exercise but....I'm really starting to be scared of myself. Ailing's right....it's scary that i'm able to walk into a shop and silently and almost instantly make a purchase transaction. I barely stepped into Stadium for 10minutes, and i bought the shoes already. BUT. i made sure i bought one of the cheapest ones in there. it was $80. I mean...for me, i feel it's not so much of being in a moment of impulse. It's really something i've been wanting to get all these while. I'm not those kind that will decide to buy something the moment i see it if i did not first think of buying it for quite some time. So yeah. It's either i have too many Wants, such that things i see mostly are the things that i've been wanting, or it's just inevitable that i spend this much. What else do i wanna get? NKJV bible - $40 (i owed Jiasin), new glasses - $250, camera - $400 Total - $690. Sigh. Okay, maybe i'll just wait till my 21st bday to ask my parents for the Camera or smth. New glasses and the debts i owe ppl more important..... God!!! give me wisdom and self-control in the area of finances!!! Labels: contemplative 2:58 AM
Monday, July 21, 2008
What i did today I haven't been uploading my handphone photos since day 1 cos i procrastinated. Haha. I'm doing it now cos i've to send via email the photos taken with the string quartet to Charmaine, so might as well upload all my pics. So here is: Ennahtur's masterpiece part 1  This is the art piece i did in the middle of mugging for exams. Heh heh. Nice right?  This is none other than Linda's wedding! Wonderful place, pretty couple.  This is the vintage car i see quite a few times outside my workplace. Seems to have many chio cars parked along the road side at my workplace. Found one lamborgini before. Wonder why. Not scared people steal meh?  This is my penpal's pretty baby! My pen friend is from Italy, she's 1 year younger than me but she's already a mum. Haha. Indeed the concept of penpal is amazing....it connects 2 persons with different culture at different part of the world together. She's so different from me, i'm the boring type but she's the happening type....but she doesn't think that juz cos my lifestyle is not so happening that she doesn't want to befriend me. =) This is Ailing's Tan Tock Seng staff tag. She's a social worker there. =) So i wore it for fun. Heh heh. My dream when i was much younger was to become a social worker too. But i guess that it didn't work out in the end. Hahaha. Okie doke. Enough of pictures. Now let's have the WORDS. Today was quite well spent, first i slept like a pig until 1.30pm, had lunch then went to Orchard for my facial appointment at SkinLab @ Wheelock place. I got the promotion from SimplyHer magazine, supposed to be getting the Free Exfoliation Facial Mask treatment as advertised, but when i called them they says that it's actually for first 200 customers only. i pointed out that it was not stated on the advertisement at all, and they admitted. Instead, they offered me a $38 promotional package for a facial treatment plus shoulder massage, eyebrow trimming, etc. I can't remember how many different things they applied on my face already. But all for $38, i thought it was pretty attractive for that price, so i booked an appointment and went for my first ever facial treatment!!!! =) Well, i loved the service overall. Very friendly and helpful on their part upon knowing that i was a first timer. They encouraged me to ask them any questions, which i did. Haha. And...i signed up for another facial appointment, which is a monthly thing. =) They gave a 1+1 package for me, so it's having 2x treatments for the price of 1. My pocket is crying for mercy. Honestly, i'm not sure if what i did was right....to spend so much on the face? On the other hand, if spending can allow me to discipline myself to a healthy skincare regiment (which i am very lazy to do all these while....even the basic toning and moisturizing), then why not? But.....but....sigh. I'll take a step at a time and make sure i don't starve my pockets. Anyway, in the evening i headed to MediaCorp to support DREAMFACTORY!!!! Yeah. My conductor, his wife and his brother are in the band....hope they will go far in the competition. I went down alone and came home before the results show cos i don't want to reach home too late. Watching the results show on Tv now....grrr.......nervous. The bands this week are strong competitors. Hope DF will be able to get thru to the next round and jiayou! (I'm color coding cos the words are just lumped together...can't separate. Lazy to edit html also. Heh.) DREAMFACTORY GOT IN!!!!! PHEW. CLOSE SHAVE MAN. Dreamfactory must become better and better! Don't give fans heart attack....haiyoh. Labels: daily rantings 10:54 PM
Sunday, July 20, 2008
Limbo...... In a state of limbo once again. Now i'm quite tired physically but i don't feel that i'm ready to sleep. I want to do things that i couldn't in the past because i had to work. But thing is, i don't know what i really want to do. Sigh.....so i'm just at a loss, staring at my laptop and thinking hard. Anyway since i'm already here, might as well do some updates on my blog right? Right. Today during svc, me and AL went to sit with the youths. Who are they? They are Victor's adult cg's children. probably sec 2 or 3 only. Have been hanging out with them pretty regularly recently, and today one of the friend came and responded to altar call! ptl. But i'm really not satisfied. i know that AL's not satisfied either. And Victor is surely not satisfied. hahaha. For me, i'm just happy that there's this challenge put before me. I want to grow stronger thru this. To me, it's not just about winning the youths over. It's also about winning their parents over, at least enough trust in AL and myself to place their children under our so-called "care". On a really excited note, i got myself Sari 31:31 and Sidney Mohede's Better Days at only $15 each!!!!! PTL man. Although i was not able to make it to attributes sale, i'm still able to find a seller who sold me these CDs imported from Indo, that's why it's cheaper. Might even be cheaper than the sale. =D I feel so smart. Muahahaha. Btw, Sari's album is NOT available in Singapore. Alright....that's all for now. Mum's making a ruckus downstairs.....what's with her? Sigh. Labels: daily rantings 10:47 PM
Saturday, July 19, 2008
I love today!!! I'm so in love with todayyyy. Fridayyy. Besides TGIF, firstly it's my last day at work which marks the end of my 2 months and 1 week long internship @ Tiong Aik. Secondly, the performance went well this evening at the adult evangelistic mtg! =) So proud of Samuel, Aileen, Charmaine and myself as it's our maiden attempt at a string quartet performance. Haha. It went well because we PRAYED. we prayed on Wednesday after orchestra prac and this evening just before we were to perform. Prayer really helps la....God's peace is unsurpassable. Of course, i'm also very glad to have attended the evangelistic meeting. It was an eyeopener for me as to how the Pst YK zone run things in church. It was also because i've to help out backstage as an usher. Heehee. Saw cheryl who was the BV for the evening with thick thick stage makeup, and also met a very....quirky BV who seems to know quite a few people i know in w280. Tsk. Don't want to see him around. :O Hahaha no la he's actually a nice person. I'm just being mean. Actually quite sad at 530pm this evening. cos last day at work. afterall i've worked for 2months and 1 week....grown attached to the company people in one way or another. But everyone's busy with their own things at 530pm (most hardly leave on the dot but i had to, cos of the performance) so my colleague managed to say 'all the best', shake hand then rushed off to do her own stuff. Haha....but it's ok, i understand that their busy and the ppl there are not very expressive when it comes to sincere talk. Laughing and joking around, very easy. That's why the environment is pretty good. But when it comes to the level of sincere talk, very little. Plus my supervisor and supervisor's boss not around, so i couldn't really say a formal goodbye to them. But they did treat me to Fish & Co. lunch last friday, cos last fri was supposed to be my last day but eventually extended. So i'm a happy man. Heh heh heh. K la, tiong aik has a good working environment (as in the people are nice and helpful). Physical environment not very ideal cos of the location and also i think 40% of my colleagues smoke. -_-" So i've been suffering from passive smoke for 2 whole months. And 1 week. But i've grown to feel comfortable with the physical environment, it's quite far from the hustle and bustle of cityhall and raffles place. I like serenity. Haha. As for the degree of impact i've made to their lives, i should say hardly. Some of them only know that i'm a Christian and i'm attending City harvest. That's all. Honestly, it's hard to shine for Jesus in the workplace. First, must go past the obstacle of potential conflicts with certain colleagues. Yes, we spend much time together working. but because of personality difference or difference in ways of communication, sometimes i feel offended and sometimes she feels offended. So yeah. In this kind of situation, not very ideal to bring God into the picture when our relationship is still rocky. Haha the ultimate is, i took 2 months to understand how my colleague think and work. By the end of 2 months, my internship is now over and i've left the company. What's the point?? Tsk. Ok. Thou shalt not dwell upon the past. Thou shalt leave all things into thine God's hands. Tomorrow is always better and brighter!!! YIPEEEEE!!! FREEDOM!!!! Labels: daily rantings 12:43 AM
Thursday, July 17, 2008
What i'm going to do Do Mask at home diligently Facial appointment Buy track shoes Preorder Hillsongs latest CD + $12.90 Ultimate Worship CD Buy NKJV bible Buy a pair of pumps Buy student concession Tidy my room Hang out with Weiling + see camera Weekly/Bi-weekly hang out with the youths Hang out with Charmaine Pri 6 class gathering (organize with Charm) Hang out with Ming Jie Check if Fenglin's back from China Start studying Advance theory driving Finish reading Robb Thompson's Art of Distinction Daily devotion - R.T's ultimate guide to increase Print out motivational quotes and stick in my room's walls EXERCISE!!!! Weekly home visitation Orchestra practice Leaders' mtg CEll group Service Prayer meetings Mahjong sessions with family Practice guitar!!! FIR concert!! All of the above - is what i'm going to do after my last day tomorrow. YIPPEEEE. Labels: daily rantings 8:55 PM
Contemplative.... THINK ABOUT WHAT YOU ARE THINKING. In a contemplative mood these few days. Not sure if it spells good or bad? =P Right now, I'm thinking about what i've been thinking. Were they the right thoughts? Wrong thoughts? Or stupid thoughts? This is what i've learnt from reading Joyce Meyer's books. THINK about what u are thinking. How many of us do that? Not many i suppose. It helps me to understand myself more. It helps to forewarn me even before i step into something unwise. Or, if i have already done something wrong, i know where i gone wrong even before people telling me where i've failed. I always believe...that individual's maturity is proven through his initiative to self-improve. I felt that i've matured and grown wiser over the years because of this principle i've learnt from Joyce Meyer. Of course, there are definitely times i get lazy. Couldn't be bothered to evaluate my thoughts or my ways....cos it is much easier for people to tell me when i've gone wrong than walk the extra mile which takes effort. But as much as possible, i try. and am still trying. =) Labels: contemplative 12:19 AM
Wednesday, July 16, 2008
i feel efficient. Phewwww. Finally taking a breather from rushing my work....i feel efficient. =) Just wanna blog it out. Heh. Relax is shiok. Labels: daily rantings 4:38 PM
Tired. Pretty tired. 1am just settled down, ready for some quiet time to myself and God. Should be rehearsing with the other 3 string players for this friday's adult evangelistic meeting daily thruout this week...have been doing so on monday and today....tmr after orchestra prac we're gonna prac a bit, then thurs and then finally fri is the real deal. But on the bright side, i get to know my fellow ministry friends better, and it's so amazing to be able to call a mum my friend! hahaha. It's something i'd never have the honor of doing if i'm not involved in church, i think. I'd still be a cooped up kid hanging in the air somewhere... anyway, it's great....must definitely pray for a smooth performance, no stage fright, 100% focus on producing beautiful music. =) Orchestra's having a performance on the 26-27th weekend, so do watch out for it. =) Motto: Today's excellence is tomorrow's mediocrity. Labels: contemplative, daily rantings 1:07 AM
Sunday, July 13, 2008
weekend gotta get new running shoes. all my 3 old pairs have to throw already. can imagine how much i ran in the past. have to throw cos the soles has worn off or came out liao. huge difference compare to my lifestyle now. *shake head* Exercising really trains mental endurance, not just for the sake of keeping fit. This is a good value that can be brought to my studies or my work. To endure the pain in order to gain. I believe that was why i succeeded during secondary school O levels. but for now, it's pocket pain. All the things necessary for me spoilt one after another. First was my shoes. Second watch. Third bra. Btw bras are super duper expensive. On promotion, it is one for $25. Imagine without great singapore sale. tsktsk. And now track shoes. Double tsktsk. I just got my pay last friday. Going to see my account depleted once again. Haiyoh......but thank God they made me work for one more week - my last day was supposed to be last fri but they needed help due to tight tender submission dates. So i shld be earning an extra $100 or so. Yay. Altho initially i was very sian that i cannot end work on last fri, i'm trying to look at the bright side of things. Okiedoke. More updates soon. Labels: daily rantings 7:49 PM
Thursday, July 10, 2008
Yoga Lin this is Yoga Lin - 林宥嘉 =) love his voice and expression. The illustration of the story can be felt really deeply thru the way he sings the lyrics. He might not have super power vocals, but his singing is filled with expression. he earned my respect, together with Jam Hsiao and Aska Yang. They are all from 超级星光大道。。。taiwan's scarily famous singing competition. Anyone who gets himself/herself into the top5 will have opportunities to cut albums. See the diff between local competitions and Taiwan's? O.o i watched the MV 3 times before understanding the whole thing. *shakes head* cheem. Labels: daily rantings, information 11:38 PM
Wednesday, July 9, 2008
Lots of updates Bought Jam Hsiao (萧敬腾）'s debut album. Was impressed by his singing prowess and the emotions he put into the song. Really precocious for a guy his age. He is 20 this year. Oh yeah he will be the guest artiste for FIR's concert this 8th August 2008 @ 8pm. =) Btw it's the same day the opening of Olympics. Hahaha. Bought myself a $5 watch, i like it pretty much. All my $5 watches are damaged. Either the strap detached from the watch, the secure strap break, or the watch mechanism no longer work or it's simply out of battery. Yeah. Thank God for my dad who fixes my watch. He's very thrifty so yar....he wouldn't see a $5 watch go into the dustbin if it still has a glimpse of hope. =) Actually i've got many things i wana 'pen' down on my blog. So let's go through them one by one. On Sat, after Linda's wedding in the afternoon, went for a music charity concert with my family for this social service organization called ALife. Some of the highlights are Eunice Olsen on the piano and her cousin on the electric guitar, Gold 90.5fm DJ brian richmond being the Emcee for the night. He's awfully humorous. Not sure if u guys heard of ALife before, it's a social organization to counsel women who are thinking of aborting their child or have gone thru abortion especially in the area of premarital pregnancy and sexuality issues in general. It has since expanded its services to marriage counselling too. Was very touched by the impact ALife has made to the lives of others. I teared during the presentation halfway through the concert. This organization is based on Christian values, because the founders are Catholics. In fact they are my godparents. Dr Peter Chew was the person who helped to deliver me when i was a baby. Few would know my birth story - i almost died in my mum's womb due to lack of oxygen but it was my godpa who saved both my mum and myself as he detected the averse situation just in time. After that, they became my godparents when i was officially baptized in a Catholic church when i was still in primary school. Even till today, Dr Chew still help women who are not well to do go thru delivery for free. It's amazing how dedicated and humble he is despite being a very renowned & well to do doctor in Singapore. Both he and his wife have done so much for society. They really show the world God's love through what they have. which are given by God. Cos of that, i felt very inspired. It's just so in line with what i've learnt from church, specifically Pst Tan's message on social enterprise. It doesn't take a sermon to motivate us to do something meaningful for society. I mean...i doubt my godparents actually did what they did because of a sermon preached in church. All it takes is just a heart burdened for people in our society. Yup...that's that. What's next for me? Many many things. City Sinfonia performance on 19-20July wkend for 4 services. Must 跑台 already. Like Getai right. And also the adult evangelistic meeting....gotta perform a piece with Samuel Kwan. Sigh...honestly, i don't feel confident facing the crowd cos this is almost like a solo performance to me. It's a different feeling with the whole orchestra on stage, u know what i mean? So really gotta rise up above all my fears and unconfidence. I accepted this challenge in the first place cos i want to step out of my comfort zone. I want to grow bolder. So i hope to rise up to personal expectations and also others' expectations. Afterall, this is a formal and very serious evangelistic outreach. I can only appear with my best. Which means - tons of intensive practice!!! Spirit of excellence. God, not my strength but Yours. Labels: daily rantings 12:33 AM
Monday, July 7, 2008
Ben and Linda's wedding Last Sat, went to attend Linda's wedding at the Singapore Art Museum. Innovative choice of venue, i must say! Here are a few photos to share with you.  This is THE wedding car. Cool man.
Here's a pic - VIC and YK group photo. Can see me anot? The one in blue. At the left. Linda so pretty that day....obviously lar, cos she's the bride. But she doesn't look like herself! The power of makeup. Really. Actually i don't really know her for a long time at all, but i'm still honoured to be able to witness her wedding ceremony. The buffet lunch was good! Hahaha. Nevertheless, we serve in the same zone and zone leader....she's going away with her husband to Australia for 5 years.....i know the zone will miss her.... Labels: daily rantings 11:27 PM
enjoying my new website =) Suddenly i felt stupid going through so much trouble. But heck, what's been done is done. And i don't think there's any significance in regretting taking the trouble. In the first place, if i've found a nick sensible enough that can carry me thru my whole lifetime i wouldn't be thinking of changing things. But then again, it is precisely because i could not at that point in time. And this is not going anywhere so i shall just stop here and stop thinking too much. Have been having a lot of thoughts after the weekend. Pardon me if i've flooded my blog too much and end up causing information overload to you. Labels: daily rantings 11:10 PM
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