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Friday, July 10, 2009
It's confirmed! + What's next My violin exam is confirmed to be on August 28 10.58am! Hence, August will be a super stressful month. I am someone who can't multi-task well...I need to do one thing at a time....or shld I say I haven't mastered the art of multi-tasking effectively. Being overly focused on one particular thing = fixation. So I have to juggle completing most of my dissertation in August so that I can submit by Mid-Sept my first draft, with violin lessons AND piano accompaniment lessons. I'm not sure how am I going to do this. Guess I'll have to leave it up to God to help me while I try my best.....-_- Honestly, I'm no longer thinking about getting my grade 8. I don't think I can manage it well....it's my final year in NUS, I have to really pull up my Cap, do well for my dissertation, and at the same time prepare for grade 8?? Grade 8 is like 'zomg'....I don't think I'll be able to be ready in a years' time at all! That's not the most impt thing. The thing is I also have other things to pursue....like learning how to drive, going on holiday (GRAD TRIP!!! Diedie must go!) and learning how to sing (I've been putting this on the shelf for far too long!). Sometimes I feel frustrated because I have the time, but I don't have the money. Other times, I have money but I don't have the time. Hopefully upon graduation, I can really have the time AND money, with earlier and wiser planning. I have decided that this December, I want to go for a mission trip. I hope to make it a yearly affair. June 2010 will be my grad trip (currently thinking of Australia as my best friend is still there but still depends on how the budget will work out), and after that I will learn driving and also singing. Coming to September/October 2010, will begin to find job...busy sending CVs. Doing all this but bearing in mind there's building fund too. 3 more years to go AT LEAST. To be honest, the things I want to do have often come into conflict with giving to the building fund. But thank God that all these years never once did my flesh win. It was certainly difficult but the spirit prevailed. What matters most at the end of the day? God's kingdom. Think about it. If one day we manage to get all the desires of our heart, but in the end the building is not built, God's harvest is great but our storehouse have no room to contain it - how will you feel? I will feel very regretful and guilty because the blood of all these people will be on my hands. I do not want to be responsible for people in this kind of situation. So....as much as I am frustrated about not being able to do the things I want NOW, I know it is simply not the right season. "Haven't come" is not the same as "not coming". I know I'll get to do what I love one day! Labels: contemplative, daily rantings 3:14 PM
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