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Saturday, August 8, 2009
I want what is simple and pure. I believe in destiny. And because I believe, I want to know my next step. I only want to know my next step (or next 2 steps), that's all. I'm not greedy to know my full destiny, because I know God leads. But still. Sometimes I doubt if I have one. But that's a non-issue, coz I know we all have one in God. Just that it has been so dark to the point that I can't see His leading hand..... I flipped Harvest Times' most recent issue covering our church 20th anniversary. Looking at the old times photos of Ekklesia Ministry, I teared. So simple, so pure. How come I was not a part of it? ............... Being a part of the City Harvest Church that it is today with everything so perfect, so well equipped and blessed, seems to be so much less attractive to me somehow. Did I come to City Harvest for the lights, sounds and rock concert style service? Did I come to City Harvest to be praised and complimented on Sundays that "you praise God well today, give yourself a big hand hallelujah"? Did I come to City Harvest to feel good? Did I? I don't want all that. These are not what I want the most. What do I want? What do I want? I want more prayer meetings. I want to experience God unashamed together with my friends in church. I want us to experience the Holy Spirit's power and moving TOGETHER. I want all of us to be strong as we move forward like a mighty battlion of warriors ready to take on anything in life. I want their courage and strength to influence me to be strong and courageous. I want to have a healthy giving and taking relationship with my friends in church. I want simple. Pure. But meanwhile, I know I'm settling for something lesser than what I want. Coz I need to regulate my expectations....but then again, do I really, really need to do that? GOD. I'm glad morning prayer week is in 2 days' time. I need to be strong on the inside. Things have changed a long time ago. I need to acknowledge and understand that. I need to move on. I need to be comfortable feeling uncomfortable. Most importantly I need to be strong. A strong person will go through harsh conditions and not be worn out. Labels: contemplative 3:18 PM
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