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Monday, October 5, 2009
Born to Stand Out (part I) On the bus and way home. good time for some serious reflection. Named this part I because I THINK.....there will be part II. I have been thinking about being born and meant to stand out. it isn't recent discovery that there is a social irony, when we as humans like to blend in with our group or community aka. conformity. we all go thru that process, whether we like it or not. yet as humans, we want to feel unique as an individual, we want to know that we have our own value and worth unlike machines tt r manufactured with no identity in its own. For me, i face this kind of irony too. sometimes, i feel a little too different and too "special" that i dont want to come across as too outstanding. cos sometimes, we have to pay a price of being too outstanding. the price of ppl unable to comprehend why am i like this or that. its not anyone's fault bcos this is a rather logical reaction, but for the person being a little special, life can be easier if we try to bury that outstanding part of us and simply blend in. no explanations required, no need for others to spend the effort and time to get used to someone's personality. But im starting to question if this is really right. is it right to want to conform in this way, when God has called us to be salt and light (to stand out like a city on a hill tt cannot be hidden)? and is it right when God has made every person unique in weakness and strength even before we have been formed in our mother's womb? how are we going to impact our society if we want to blend in instead of standing out? There will be a point of confrontation....and im beginning to feel im at the beginning stage of it. i received a really nice card along with yummy gummies yesterday from Lynn who presented it to me after the whole Hossan Leong show. i was touched by her words. she said im someone who isnt afraid to be me even if i appear very aunty and unglam and im totally ok with that. that's true, i admit. but inside of me doubted if it was good or bad thing. haha. Honestly, im very comfortable with being unglam even when caught on camera or video. u juz have to browse thru my facebook pics to understand what im saying. but at the same time, i noe that isnt a very attractive trait to most guys nor is it a good way of presenting myself in church. tts y i really dont like to be filmed or snapped during church svc or formal sessions like prayer meetings and stuff when i tend to become more self-conscious. i mean, in the throne of God, u only have beautiful ppl right? but of course thats relative. i hope im not pactising double standards by doing this. lol. And i believe for most guys, they r first attracted by looks and then personality. so being "myself" in that sense isnt always a good thing right? lol. but i must say tt i do have times when i care to dress up but only during church at weekends, and when im going town area to meet friends. hmmmm. Ok, to just put it simply, when i care to glam up, i do glam up. but other times when im not required to glam up, you will c a super umglam aunty who goes for comfort wear cos tts practical. so u guys get the whole picture of me? maybe i shld thank God im not one-dimensional. ah! :p it might all work out if im a guy. hahahaha. Okokok. when im talking about being born to stand out, it isnt just abt the outward appearance, but also traits in the individual. so lets talk abt that. 1. my musical talents - the variety of music instruments i know how to play 2. my musical talents - inspiration for beautiful melodies and lyrics 3. my creative flair - designing ideas, conceptualizing and marketable ideas. everything except drawing :x 4. my creative flair - knowing how to match clothes and accessories and their color combi to pull off my own style (i go classy most of e time but i admit i need to venture a lil more in my personal style) 5. my contemplating nature - the love of reflecting and how it is a big part in helping me become a better person 6. love to be in my own world - i get energized from isolating myself from the fast moving things, events or mob of ppl around me. i love peacefulness and serenity. i love to notice the things that ppl often miss. (disadvantage: tend to stone too much) Labels: contemplative, revelation 11:58 AM
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