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Saturday, May 30, 2009

I think i'll have more to say after spending time with the Lord especially after CWBS. But I prolly wouldn't do that (referring to blogging later) cos I've got to wake up early tomorrow. In summary, today is an uber hot and humid day and it sucks to be in a place full of people without good ventilation. Referring to queuing up for CWBS. But I guess that's the only way to get into the hall with the hope of finding a good seat huh?

Travelled alot today and this week in general. spent alot on cabbing....:( Physically drained. Am I weak or is my schedule that's too packed?

Please visit the Harvest House fair after service tomorrow and sunday! Though I won't be there cos of performance. Was busy today cos of the house fair. Visit the "A" booth in conference room 1! :)

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12:42 AM

Thursday, May 28, 2009

Can't read my, can't read my, no can't read my poker face
Popopopopoker face popopoker face

Woohoo. Cool song. Love the chorus.

Facelift for my blog. Woohoo. Someone once commented that reading my blog makes him dizzy because it is all black and dull. So i hope a bit of green here makes him less dizzy. Green is the best color for the eye.

Actually I also wonder why do people talk alot when they are tired. Where do they get those extra energy from? It's a mystery to me.


WAH THIS IS SUPERRRR FUNNY. Cannot take it.


Wash your hands people! Hygiene! :D

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1:59 AM


It's been a long time since I returned to the Millennial Orchestra for practice. I'm really happy to see old faces, they made me feel so welcomed. I'm also happy to see new faces that consisted nearly half of the orchestra now. =) TMO has risen up to another level, and I'm so happy to see that!

Happy to catch up with them, though not much, cos practice = practice, not much time for conversations except @ breaks or after practice. Caught up with a really cool bassoon guy, Eunos. But too bad, he stays in Amk. HAHA. He's Malay, and I look forward to seeing TMO being a multi-ethnic, multi-religious, multi-cultural orchestra consisting of people from all walks of life that simply love to bring music to people's ears.

I know that even if TMO is not my main ministry, it will always have a place in my heart. When it grows, I'm equally happy...

Performing on Saturday services this weekend for EMERGE! Gonna be great.

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1:08 AM

Monday, May 25, 2009

I'm going to do a proper blog entry!


I thought of Xingling the moment I stepped into Iluma's steamboat restaurant with all the waitresses dressed in weird maid costumes yesterday evening. It is weird cos they are not in character though they are in the costumes. I had to control my laughter every time a "master" pops out of their mouth. HAHA. Honestly, I doubt this whole Jap anime culture thingy can take off very well in Singapore as a F&B Biz if it gets lost in translation.


Mike Connell's service was great...as always, as usual. :)


I've been catching a lot of dramas lately, namely My Queen (败犬女王), Brilliant Legacy (Korean), Princess Ja Myung (Korean) and I'm rewatching 9 Ends 2 Outs (Korean) on MIO Tv. Hehehe. I'm such a drama addict.


It's quite a funny thing...I don't think I can ever get sick of rewatching 9 Ends 2 Outs. Not that the main leads are extremely pretty and handsome. I just like the story plot a lot.



The total opposite would be Korean version of Meteor Garden - the main leads are good looking, the sets are beautiful, but I would never watch it again because the plot is too thin! Anyway, I didn't complete it. I watched halfway and gave up cos the whole rhythm was getting slower.

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4:35 PM


4th meetup today. Glad Emil could join in. HZ and Cheryl joined in after the movies. What a coincidence. Had a great time though was zoning out half of the time and tried very hard to appear fully conscious.

Concuss soon.

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1:04 AM

Sunday, May 24, 2009

I really gotta be more diligent in practising violin...sigh...

Just came back from a fun CG...I arrived there with sort of a heavy heart, being frustrated at my blurness which caused me alot of extra trips = waste $$. I forgot to bring my violin books to music lesson in the morning, so I had to refix lesson to Sunday 4pm. Cos of that, I had to return home to take my books, as well as EZlink card. I forgot to bring it out with me! So I had to toink coins for bus fare....waste of $$ since I have EZlink bus concession if I use my card.

And cos my lesson is now at Sun 4pm, once again I can't fellowship longer with my cg. I had wanted lessons to be on Saturday instead, so that my Sunday afternoons can be freed up for fellowship with the Cg. Guess I failed to do so this week - all because I was blur.

Procrastination + Absent-mindedness = Bad lifestyle management. Having too much free time and liberty isn't doing me good. There still need to be some form of control and discipline, I conclude!

Anyways. I was more perked up during our Sarpino Pizza dinner and fellowship with cg members and friends. I really enjoyed conversing with them. That made me happier as I travelled home. :)

Andddd, I bought a new Billabong bag yesterday at Isetan Scotts! Yay. At half price! Went there with the girls - Francine, shirin and Xingling after lunch with Xueen and Joanna whom left right after the meal. We ate at Raffles city Shokudo! :) OH, there are Neoprint machines in Shokudo! How cool is that. But neoprint is so totally not our age anymore...hahaha....but we still took it anyways. For good remembrance. :)

Shirin got her son a blender for food...while the rest of us bought stuff from the ladies department. Grinsss. We also went to pay Deming a visit, who was working at Isetan's G2000 Men's section. He couldn't make it for the lunch meetup cos of work.

Okiedoke. End of slack time. Was practising for the past 2 hours. Going to continue practising violin for another hour now. I hope I will make it through 1 whole hour!

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12:43 AM

Wednesday, May 20, 2009

Dr. Niko's meeting was great. God spoke a few things to me....I need to pray over it, as what Pastor Kong mentioned. Have to take home the anointing but must also pray and ask God what He wants to say to me personally.

Feeling a bit sick, sigh need to take care of myself.

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1:31 AM

Monday, May 18, 2009

This is very touching. Enough said.

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1:35 AM


PHEW. That's the word to summarize a busy weekend.

I sure had a very "exciting" time making sure everything is put together nicely for 'A' booth. Of course, I could not do it without willing people that had volunteered to stand in the gap. I had a taste of what iron sharpens iron mean. There were moments of frustration, but there are also moments of satisfaction, making all the frustration and worries worth it.

The importance of standing in the gap for works of God. Not for myself alone (sounds familiar...hmmm), but for someone who is bigger and more important than self - God.


NB: Non Mihi Solum = Not for myself alone in Latin......AJC's school motto.
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I heard of someone that just passed away in the same zone on Sunday morning. I do not know him, neither did he know me. But i've noticed him around during my SOT days. Somehow, I felt tears that fell the night before was for him. I remember interceding for his healing once when I heard about his battle with sickness.

How amazing it is...for someone that I can hardly even consider as an aquaintance. For him to strike such an impression in my mind.

You know like how some people can pass you by a few times, and you won't exactly really remember him/her. Opposed to others that pass you by just once, and there's something about that person that catches your attention. It is definitely not the outward appearance that caught my attention. It was his inner strength and character. Wistful....and silly.

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12:17 AM

Saturday, May 16, 2009

DISC personality test Click to do the test and be assessed! :)

Saw HX's blog abt DISC test, and I've always wondered what I'd be. Managed to find the site above that provides free assessment.

I'm:

1) C + S (both average = 44 each)
2) I (low = 12)
3) D (super low = 0)

Tada! Tombaleh of "DISC" is my personality. Heh heh.

C = Compliance
Indeed I'm the diplomatic, peaceable sort that is comfortable following routine. Dislike risk-taking. YET, sometimes I really hate rules as a form of restriction especially when talking about creativity. I also value freedom, as much as I'm okay with routines. Hence my score of 44, which is average range under C category. :)

S = Steadiness
Patient, calm, controlled. Deals with routine with care. Capable of dealing with tasks at hand. Like totally me huh? Hahahah....most of the time. It says high willingness to help people I consider as my friends. True true. YET I would enjoy a little stretch intellectually and physically amidst routine, just not too much. :) My score here is also 44. I'm a true blue mix of C and S!

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4:08 AM


1. I just finished practising violin...was a good 2 hours! I think I just gotten my breakthrough in learning a technique that has eluded me for all these while. Haha.

2. Cg we played "God and his nectar" game. I introduced it to the Cg...I THINK they enjoyed it! At least I enjoyed leading this game. :) I learnt it during my first Theatre Practical class, when we played 'theatre games' for the entire first lesson how cool was that?! Hahahha.

To be honest, I feel very limited in creative juices when it comes to thinking of new and interesting games....I'm not a very game-y person by nature. So I always feel challenged to lead games. But gradually, I'm getting better at it. :)

3. I'm also very happy that my guitar is getting some help....the bulge near the bridge (i think that is what u call it) was getting more and more obvious....prolly due to accumulated humidity in it. The guitar experts in Cg says that the strings will snap easily in this condition and the bridge will come off one day too. Now already can see the glue cos have gap between bridge and the face of the guitar.

Weiloong is such a dear to lug my guitar back with him to repair. He had to carry his own guitar and mine back home. Poor thing. Muahaha. He also provided the dunno what silica gel thingy, which is supposed to dehumidify my guitar.

i shld be taking back my guitar after it gets fixed. Have left it over at Weiling's house for the past few months and didn't touch it at all....

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3:17 AM

Thursday, May 14, 2009

Had an awesome time learning to dance to Francisco's "Hands Up". Would have never bothered about names and titles and songs like this if I have never taken up MTV groove.



Anyway, was a bit shocked that every time we go, we need to pay $20, though our lessons are $12 per time....their business model is a bit strange. Oh well. My friend calculated that after 5 lessons, will sort of break even but will still kena eaten up $3. But once registered, is lifetime membership...so I guess that's supposed to be a consolation.

I want to complain about mosquitoes being bloodthirsty! YEsterday night I slept without the air con on, I covered myself up with blanket from shoulders to feet and STILL the mosquito can find its way into my Tshirt and bit my left shoulder!!!! >:( so itchy until my beauty sleep is disturbed for 30minutes. In the morning, mosquito was still hanging around. Then with renewed energy after a night sleep, I finally KILLED IT. Stupid mosquito.

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12:47 AM

Wednesday, May 13, 2009

It's 4.45am now and I'm putting on aloe vera facial mask. HAHA. I'm a vainpot.

About Fanshen Video
Well, I wouldn't say that the version of Fanshen captured on the video was our best effort, but it was the only version we got it down recorded. :( so sad. Our actual performance was way better.
Catch 'em on my facebook profile page! But part 4 which is the final part, is the most exciting part of the scene! Enjoy.

About being fruitful
What is it about being fruitful? Well, I realized that a lifestyle of slacking is really not to my liking afterall. I have been living as such for the past 1 to 2 weeks. I feel like a living dead. Sleeping at dawn, waking up in mid-noon realizing half the day is gone.

Then, despite the long hours of beauty sleep, I still feel like a stoning zombie, drained out in energy. Whole day I'm simply staring at the TV and going online streaming to catch up on different dramas...by the end of the day (p.s: I don't even know how to define the "END" of the day with my kind of lifestyle now, sigh) I feel totally blonde. Airhead. Blank inside.

I've always wanted an entire day of pure slacking without feeling guilty about it. I imagined such a day as my goal throughout my exams...but having lived my dream for the past week, I am starting to dislike it more. I guess it can only be up to a period of time. Afterwhich, it is human nature to want to find work and remain fruitful.

So I realize that the cure is really a balance between work and play...since I do not have "Work" now that I'm holidaying, then I gotta FIND work. I'm simply too slack already. And since I don't intend to work-work, then I should find other types of work! Ah-ha. Thank God I have the privilege to do some ad-hoc stuff for church....it fills me in with things to do. I also have to practice playing the violin more often with more free time now. Oh, I've yet to start on my thesis though. Oops. I should by next week. =\

Thinking of taking up driving too. Makes perfect sense to do that in such a loooong 3 months holiday. Wait, make it 2.5months left by now. IN SHORT, moral of the story is...........there are many things under the heaven that I can do. The thing is to find them and be willing to stick the butt in to just do it, instead of procrastinating and slacking away my time.

Every minute in life counts....we either live it for the short term or for the long term. It's not wrong to use some of the time in our life to live for the temporal, because of its inevitability. But what matters is that our focus is ultimately on the long term AND eternal value of things. So with this, I conclude with a resolution to remain fruitful. Though it maybe fruitful in different ways, still is fruitful. :)

Gonna make sure my time is well-spent!

Going to MTV groove @ Oschool tomorrow! Yippee.

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4:46 AM

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

Live performance in Good Morning America by this beautiful lady. It is a little bit new age sounding. Love it! The recorded version is much better, cos this song is new age in nature...doesn't sound as nice unplugged. :)

She is an actress in many famous films, Phantom of the Opera was her latest and biggest step to stardom. Classic beauty!

I got to know this song when viewing a youtube video of Oschool dance...they used this song for the lyrical jazz class and I was mesmerized by the song. A pity, I think the music company took down all recorded version of the song. All I can find in youtube now are covers of "Slow Me Down", or the live performance by Emmy Rossum. :(

She wrote this song herself. SO TALENTED RIGHT??



Lyrics Emmy Rossum lyrics - Slow Me Down lyrics

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1:31 AM

Sunday, May 10, 2009

People should be given their right to make their own choices.

Something that has happened today simply reinforced this notion that I have kept.

What is the point of forcing someone? Where is wisdom in all this? Sorry, I just don't find any wisdom in doing things by force. Because I've been through it. I have been the victim in certain situation, and I have also been the 'compeller' at some point in my past. But neither cause things to work out the way I desired. From then on, I believe that whether the choice made is good or bad, it has got to be respected.

No matter how hard you try to control someone in a forceful way, your efforts will be wasted so don't even start trying.

Perhaps it would be effective towards young children, who have impressionable minds and are still dependent on adults' guidance. But as we enter into late teen and adulthood, we cannot command people to go left and right any longer.

Although it is human nature to want to control fate, people & things because we hate changes, we have got to snap out of it. Change is the only constant! This is a wise quotation worth meditating upon.

If we truly love, then we should respect. This includes respecting the space to make mistakes, and learning through wrong choices made.

Admonish only if there's a necessity. But even then, admonish only if:
1) The person actually listens to you. Otherwise you waste your saliva.
2) The person is really too overboard in something, and if you are his/her superior or leader, you have the responsibility.

#2 is more of an issue of fulfilling your responsibility towards the nature of your position, and in the context of church, obedience towards God. #1 is what most of us should do quite common-sensically.

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Having said that, I don't mean we should all go ahead making our own choices without caring about other people's opinions. That is pure egotistical and stupid. Only stupid people will not think of listening to other people's advice. Of course, it depends on WHOSE advice, WHAT the advice is about and WHEN the advice is given.

So I hope everyone will consider the prestige of being labelled as "smart" like Solomon, not stupid like dogs that return to eat their own vomit or pigs that don't even recognize the value of pearls when the pearls are in front of them. Be in Solomon's league.

Because making a choice is not an easy task, people's choices must therefore be respected. But more often than not, we find people making rash decisions. Even then, choices should be respected simply because people have the right to make mistakes.

Wisdom is universal. In all things, seek wisdom first.

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10:44 PM


I had a great time today hanging out with Michelle and BX over lunch @ Bugis Junction's Macs. There, I met my theatre studies classmate XueEn. AGAIN. This is the 3rd time I see him coincidentally over the week. This is so weird. Anyway, I was surprised that all along he didn't know that we were in the same church. It's a long story. ANyway, I was more surprised that he knew Michelle AND JJ. Well, apparently cos they were from the same SOT team in 2008! Singapore very small indeed.

After Michelle and BX left, I went to shop alone at Iluma, Bras Brasah Complex and Bugis Junction...then, I went to the library open space to plan my schedule for the next few weeks. I'm shocked at how packed I will be - not with school work obviously, since it's SCH HOLS NOW!!! YEAHYEAHYEAH. But...will be meeting up with friends, catching up on lost time.

Reason why I lingered so long in Bugis is cos I'm supposed to have dinner with Louis and Weiloong @ Bugis too! Hahaha....but, I welcomed the 2-3hours alone time in between lunch and dinner. It's so therapeutic. I love shopping and watching movie by myself. :)

We had a great time catching up, getting to know each other more. Smaller group also good...can catch up on a bit more in depth issues. Most importantly, I had fun listening to stories and sharing my own stories and laughing at those stories together. Went to eat at the famous Wanton noodles beside Icon shopping building, then dessert at Ah Chew (Ah choo!) dessert, then we got chased out right after we finished our dessert cos got many incoming customers, then we slacked at Macs (again...2nd time for me in a day) but we just sat there without buying their food cos we were too full.

Having gone through a sweet day today, I guess...I feel more hopeful that my life will be equally interesting here in Singapore for the next 2 weeks even if I don't get to go to Vietnam anymore...to me, I feel this is the last chance I can ever try to go overseas with university people. Graduating next year. Hence, I am very negative about the prospect of going overseas with the University...it's my last 3 months break already. and December isn't a very good time for me to be away from Singapore unless it's a family vacation.

But it's okay -SIGH- I have prayed about it. And I want to respect first and foremost His thoughts over my life. My flesh is telling me I'm making the stupidest decision, but I'm not going to depend on my FLESH to tell me the truth.

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1:07 AM

Saturday, May 9, 2009

Venue: Toh Guan Rd
Time: 10pm +/-
Activity: Cell group

"If I ask you to envision a car, maybe you will think of a Toyota Corolla. But you won't think so far off and become o-tah right?"

Omgoshhhhh. LAMELAMELAME. Thank God for the gift of self-control. If not I'll just keep laughing and laughing until cg ended. -.-

FB Hell's Kitchen, here I comeeeee!!!!!

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12:25 AM

Friday, May 8, 2009


I will name Audrey Hepburn as the world's most beautiful lady from history until today.
She is still so pretty when she is old...she is beautiful not only on the outside, she is also very beautiful inside.
Little do people know what she does other than acting. She not only survived war in Netherlands when the Nazis attacked, she played an active role by giving ballet performances to collect money for Dutch resistance. And because of her war-time experiences which include suffering from malnutrition, she did a lot of humanitarian work for UNICEF throughout her lifetime, and dedicated most of her later years to this cause. This discovery caused me to realize that she is the epitome of what a real woman is. Feminine, gentle, has poise, talented, courageous, compassionate.....I'm starting to idolize her! Hahahaa...
It's a pity that her love life didn't really work out well as she went through 2 divorces. That must have been a lot of heartbreaks...

Anyway, the reason why I caught up with her is cos I watched "Breakfast at Tiffany's", the super super classic film of the mid 20th century! I'm glad I did. Audrey Hepburn is an excellent actress. To act out something as though it's natural is SO difficult....but she could do it flawlessly in that film. The way her character Holly goes about the mundane - as simple as grabbing a piece of paper or turning on a water tap flows in one fluid course of action. You should understand if you watch it. :p Audrey Hepburn = POISE!

Love her to bits.


"Moonriver" by Audrey Hepburn in Breakfast in Tiffany's

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1:59 AM

Tuesday, May 5, 2009

Final decision has been made after several attempts to ask opinions from close friends...all 3 of my bestest best friend told me the same thing:

1) Pray about it
2) Seek family's opinion
3) Check latest update on the flu spread geographically

Princess also advised against heading to Vietnam. My cell group friends have shown some reticence as well.

I'm glad I did all 3 things above. I just want my close friends to know and be part of the decision making process. Their opinion matter to me.

While I was hitting the shower this afternoon, I asked God if it is a 'no'. I guess I had the answer by then. Felt the peace of God coming upon me...and then I asked God if it is a 'yes', and I don't get the same peace.

When I asked my parents, they were very nice to tell me to make my own decision, but I know from their responses that they are worried for me.

Although a 'no' from God and parents mean I have to break the bad news to my team and be the "spoil market" team member, I will have to do it. It also means incurring cost of the booked and paid flight tickets. Boohoohoo. HEARTPAIN.

But it's ok....health comes first...it is such a time as this when you are forced to prioritize and realize what is truly important to you. I have always told myself that health is first. Now is the time to apply what I believe into what I do!

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11:46 PM


The Vietnam Trip is as per normal afterall...we were given 3 choices, it was democratic.


#1 Go as per normal, but NUS will bear no responsibility whatsoever. It will not be recognized as an official trip endorsed by the school, neither will we be covered under the NUS medical insurance or given CCA points.

#2 Delay the trip by 1 week, but less people will be able to go if that happens. Also, the school holidays will begin and our program will have to change.

#3 Cancel the trip.


Most of the team members are going for #1....I also voting for #1. Afterall, much effort have been put in and if it's all going to waste then it's a mega pity.

My main concern that is still holding me back (i haven't email them to confirm my final vote, though if I vote, it would most probably be #1) is definitely personal safety amidst this H1N1 thing...but I'm more assured as today I see some emails from members raising health and safety issues...the fact that the whole team is considering this very seriously and not simply cos 'we have spent so much time on it so we should go' or 'i need a holiday and so I don't care about whatever is happening around the world'.

Ignorance is not bliss in this case...I know I'm not an expert when it comes to fighting the influenza, thus I'm more at peace when I see 1 or 2 emails seemingly coming from people that has some medical knowledge...prolly from the science faculty? Hahaha...

For one, the village is near a hospital. So far, the influenza is mainly concentrated in Europe and America. None of the Asean countries have been hit by it yet. That makes some sense, huh? But of course, we must not be complacent with regard to the influenza. Precautions must be taken.

But more than anything else, I hope that me and the team will receive God's protection...we are not spending 1 week, but 2 whole weeks there...for me, it will be 15 days. So i hope that nothing will go awry.

Actually to be honest, I'm a bit paranoid and apprehensive. It's hard not to in this kind of time leh. Hoping for the best! Will be giving my answer tonight...

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3:33 PM


This one made me tear. I favourited it. :)



This is a dance put up by the TP Modern Dance Ensemble apparently. I love the choreography...

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1:53 AM

Sunday, May 3, 2009

Bought Relient K and Jars of Clay albums @ Attributes today! So exciting! :D

Buying spree comes right after BF completion. This is bad haha...but good music is my weak point that I don't think I can ever overcome. Or perhaps, I don't want to overcome. Cos I really love music and I have the passion to support un-pirated music that are really worth my $$.

Stephan Munsey is awesome. He is so talented as an actor. I'm blessed to be able to hear his preaching. It is really drama rather than preaching. Anagogical (drama that has a spiritual message) is the word, as I've learnt from school. He reminds me of Pastor Kong of the younger days...hahaha.

Okay. Tomorrow's my last paper. I'm going to have to study overnight. For some reason these few days I tend to sleep alot. Shld drink more coffee...

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9:02 PM

Saturday, May 2, 2009

I highly recommend you to have a read at Vanness Wu's blog...i am very humbled to know that he had fasted for 21 days...something which i have only dreamt of doing thus far. He is more of a Christian than anything else (an artiste). And I feel very ministered by his blog entry.
http://www.alivenotdead.com/vannesswu/21-days--profile-599340.html

Crisis is, according to Dictionary.com, "a stage in a sequence of events at which the trend of all future events, esp. for better or for worse, is determined; turning point."

It wasn't until recently that I realized I never understood the meaning of "Crisis". The first time I was introduced to this word was knowing about the economic crisis. Asean financial crisis. Yada yada. From there, I formed the wrong idea that a crisis speaks of a situation that can only get worse from there. In short, it is a bad word because there is only one way to go with a crisis - downwards.

But I was really wrong. As with the true meaning of a "crisis", this is a point in life that everybody will face. It is inevitable. 2ndly, crisis isn't the end outcome. It is simply a liminal point, or a turning point. Situation can get better, OR worse. Crisis is simply a term to describe the state when both possibilities are possible; fate is in your own hands. You work hard to obtain the outcome that you want.

And suddenly I have a more positive outlook with the word "Crisis". Because to me, there is now a reason why I should fight against a negative outcome. Crisis doesn't mean 100% negative. It is 50% positive, 50% negative. I have that 50% chance to fight for.

So when I hear phrases like "Crisis of faith", or "Financial crisis", or "Mid-life Crisis", etc. I no longer think that I should avoid it. Instead, I view it with greater optimism, just like the way you would see a cup of water that's half-full (OR half-empty).

In sum, I believe "Crisis" is a beautiful word. It is the time when you determine your own outcome. Hence, it is the time when your inner strength is revealed to show who you really are in capacity. I pray for crisis to come into my life, but I also pray for the strength and maturity to pull me through. Most importantly, I hope that the crisis will reveal the power of God in my life.

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10:25 PM


One of the comments on Vanness Wu's latest blog entry.

In 2007, Time Magazine had an article titled Mother Teresa's Crisis of Faith. It talks about letters between Mother Teresa and her confessors and superiors over a period of 66 years. It reveals that for the last nearly half-century of her life she felt no presence of God whatsoever. She bemoaned the "dryness," "darkness," "loneliness" and "torture" she was undergoing. She said that her smile was like a mask. She had the same question like everyone, "Does God exist" and "where is God"...

However, she never abandon her faith nor works. She has shown such great faith~ It's probably also because she had great confessors and superiors. In March 1953, she wrote Périer, "Please pray specially for me that I may not spoil His work and that Our Lord may show Himself — for there is such terrible darkness within me, as if everything was dead. It has been like this more or less from the time I started 'the work.'"

Here is Périer 's reply. "God guides you, dear Mother," he answered avuncularly. "You are not so much in the dark as you think ... You have exterior facts enough to see that God blesses your work ... Feelings are not required and often may be misleading."

When our feeling fail, which I believe most of Christians will experience at least once in their life time, we have all the exterior facts that tell us there is God and He loves us. May God strengthen our faith.

I also love the author's comments at the end, "The particularly holy are no less prone than the rest of us to misjudge the workings of history — or, if you will, of God's providence. Teresa considered the perceived absence of God in her life as her most shameful secret but eventually learned that it could be seen as a gift abetting her calling. If her worries about publicizing it also turn out to be misplaced — if a book of hasty, troubled notes turns out to ease the spiritual road of thousands of fellow believers, there would be no shame in having been wrong — but happily, even wonderfully wrong — twice."

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3:34 PM

Friday, May 1, 2009

Juz finished watching DMC on mysoju.com hehe.

I think it's a very nice show about dreams...

Lessons from the movie:

1) Your dream isn't my dream. My dream also isn't your dream. It can differ in beliefs, but respect it.
2) Are you living other people's dream or what you think is the 'right' dream, or have you truly asked your heart what your dream really is?
3) Dream gives us a reason to live on.
4) When you succeed in achieving your dream, there will be people around you to cheer for you. In the pursuit of your dream, it's impt to find someone that supports you.
5) No man is an island. When you achieve your dream, sometimes you are also helping others achieving theirs. Likewise, if you decide to give up a dream halfway, think of those who will be affected by it.
6)Pursuing a dream is a JOURNEY. When you begin the journey, things do not go smoothly. Sometimes, there are obstacles along the way. But these obstacles will help you to find out what you truly want to achieve at the end of the day. You may not get what you wanted from the beginning, but you will definitely not regret the journey but instead become thankful because now you know yourself more than when you began.

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I also watched Antique Bakery, it's a Korean movie @ mysoju. I think girls will like the show. HAHA. It's the opposite of long and draggy soap opera style that Korean drama and films like to adopt. Everything looks like it is fast forwarded, just right for us to get the plot progress. Which is my style! Everytime I watch draggy parts of a Korean/Taiwan drama, I will watch by fastforwarding the video. Save time.

Secondly, I like the message of the movie. You know I like to read deep into movies' messages...so Antique Bakery is about a man who had a terrible experience of being kidnapped when he was young, he survived the ordeal but this experience impeded him from certain aspects of normal life. For example, he has an unbearable hatred for gay men or most men. He also has an unbearable hatred towards eating cakes, which is an irony that he is the owner of the bakery. Also, he suffers from intense nightmares about the kidnap but it is always blurry and he can never remember what happened. And the end of the movie shows him making the decision to forgive his kidnapper, letting him go right before his very eyes....I thought that final scene was touching.

Thirdly, I super super love the cinematography!!! The sets are brightly colored, very antique too. I think the film quality is super good or something.

But if you decide to watch Antique Bakery, you may think how come it is quite different from my description....so just to say that the show is a COMEDY. Comedy with subtle message though. :)

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