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Wednesday, December 31, 2008

Lately I've not been having a good sleep pattern. I've been sleeping really late but waking up in the late morning. and then i'd take a late nap from 6+ to 8+pm and have late dinner.

And i realize im having difficulties sleeping once again. And my dreams were mostly bad! Sigh. i've stopped exercising for a week due to Christmas. Must be that.

Anyways...i had a busy time catching up with Joan and Charm. Met Charm's bf, Bernard! They've been together for 11 days already and she only broke the news to us few days b4 we met. Hurhur!

If it was me in the past, I would be angry! Cos we already sort of made a pact that if any of us ever get attached, we have to inform one another first thing! Best friends mah. Hahaha. But now I learnt to take things in my stride. :) Both Joan n i are just really happy for CHarm. She made the right choice. Bernard's a guy of her wavelength (read: lame and crappy) and more imptly, he's a genuine gentleman.

Actually i discerned a long time ago... x) when they weren't attached yet. I met both of them coincidentally outside sch's central library. i sensed that that guy was interested in my good friend, and that there have been some chemistry going on between them. haha! So when she broke the news I was wondering the whole time if it was THAT guy. And i'm really happy that it was!

So yup. Joan likes him & I like him too. :)

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Ate at Din Tai Fung, Paragon today. Overrated! I've tasted better xiao long baos.

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12:53 AM

Monday, December 29, 2008

Went to send Sun off with the Cg after sunday svc. It was a crazy time! Haha. The girls were standing in front and really close to Sun, thanks to the quick witted princess and Elly who says that as long as we follow the Fanclub leader, we will definitely be in front. Muahaha!

I actually took 2 videos of how fanatic the crowd was. But i'm facing a stumbling block once again as I am shifting all my comp activities to the desktop computer. My 8 characters clash with computers or what? -_- Kidding. Anyway I so wanted to blog and post up my first Youtube videos first thing on Sunday, but looks like i can't do that until I fix the prob.

Anyway it was an awesome experience. The people were inching forward every 5 minutes. Our imaginary boundary line got closer n closer to the security guards! Many of them but more of us! But overall we are very very VERY nice and obedient Singaporean citizens. Heh heh heh.

Oh my. It's my first time chasing a star at the airport. It's quite thrilling! But the Cg bros (except Leonard) were all looking quite sian and waiting for the whole thing to end so that can go home. HAHA.

I'm so sad that I had to miss sat svc when pst Kong held an interview with Sun. Apparently every zone gets to ask a question. And there was a lot of sharing by Sun, too much for details and recounting.

But I really believe that Sun is going to get bigger and bigger in the West. I have seen that in the realm of the supernatural and I know it will come to pass and 2009 is going to be an amazing year of breakthrough for her career. :D

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11:29 PM

Thursday, December 25, 2008

After a family dinner at grandma's place, I accompanied my parents to the midnight mass at our neighborhood's Catholic church, St. Vincent De Paul.

I don't know why but this Christmas I was quite looking forward to attend that midnight mass suddenly.
It's been 1 year since that I've stepped into SVDP and the place is now so beautiful.
But more than just the physical appearance, I felt that I was finding back my first love
with God by visiting SVDP. My first love with God didn't begin when I started attending Chc.
Rather, it started during the times I was still a Catholic in SVDP.
I still remember being a quiet and lonely kid, having attempted to socialize but seemed
tt people are too excited getting to know everyone else - all except me. But because of that,
I ended up talking to God more than any of them and taking the bible classes more seriously
than most.

God became my invisible friend when no one else around me wanted to strike
a real friendship with me. God never fails to appear real even during those times.
And that was my first love with Him. Going back to SVDP reminded me of how my relationship
with God started off. And I want to always remember that part of my life. I'm so thankful.

Happy Birthday Jesus! :)

But i was quite grieved in my spirit to see people smoking the moment they step out of church.
They are neither believers nor non-believers. They are simply people that had a historical faith
and comes to church prolly once a year - during Christmas day.

That's something I'm very grieved about in churches that practise traditionalism. I loved the
entire mass because to me, I see the rationale behind every ritual done during the mass.
It is a meaningful procession, I must say. But to those who has never gone to Bible School or
studied the Bible seriously, they will never come close to knowing the true meaning of the
different processions within the mass and to be able to say they enjoy it. Then attending church
will simply be a religious duty.

I'd say that church mass today as compared to the past masses I attended is much more relatable and relevant to the congregation. Yet there are still much more rooms for
improvements. The Bible says God dislikes lukewarm Christians. Being a person who is a Sunday
Christian or worse - a "Christmas day" Christian - is Satan's trump card. Double standard living...sigh.

Disclaimer: 1) There's a big difference between tradition & traditionalism.
2) Acceptance is not approval. To love is to accept. I accept smokers, but I do not approve of their lifestyles. Especially when it's a double standard one.

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Christmas drama tmr 1230pm with my parents! After that lunch @ Baba King! YUMMY!!!!!

p.s: The Christmas drama is SOOOO funny I'm so glad I'm going to see it again! :D (went today's at JW 330pm)

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3:22 AM

Tuesday, December 23, 2008

Lately, I've been looking in the mirror to see what's beyond myself.

When I look at myself in the mirror, who do I see?
When I look at myself in the mirror, what do I become?

The person I am most fitted to become...do I define that by predictability or by passion?

Both are equally challenging.
1) To go through a predictable route with zero passion for it, versus 2) pursuing passion but with nothing to fall back on.

But one thing I know. I'm much happier pursuing passion. And it shows.

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If you are scratching your head confused over what i'm trying to say, in short YES i'm facing an identity crisis and right now, these are the things that are running through my head...


I need to talk to my parents.

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2:26 PM


I got back my results for this semester. To me, this semester result was crucial. It's either going to be a morale booster or a de-moralizer.

I didn't improve as much as I wanted to, and I'm quite disappointed because of that. But. The fact that I still improved quite substantially, I think I got to be thankful. It shows that if i put my heart to it, I can really do it. And church commitments isn't an excuse for bad results.

But then again. I realize the modules that I've done best are not my faculty core modules. Does that tell me something? Maybe...perhaps. But so what if it does? I don't have the option of turning back right? So.

MIXED feelings actually. But still thankful.

Befriend a geek.

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1:41 PM


I realize it's no longer possible for me to stay at home without the need to check my handphone,
even though I'm slacking at home the whole day and I want to isolate myself
from the world for just that one day. Hahaha.

So sorry to everyone who needs to reach me but I am uncontactable just cos i didn't remember
to check my phone often. I understand how it feels to be in the shoe of that other person.
So I decided to be nicer and check my handphone even if i'm at home from today onwards.
Even if i don't think anyone will want to reach me on that particular day, I'll still check it.

Anyway, i wasn't feeling very good the entire day.
It is like there's something which i need to do but did not do. And i don't know what was it. :p
And now, i think it is because i did not check my handphone.
When i checked it, to my horror i had a few impt smses and many missed calls. So yeah.
I must have irritated my friends and that in turn was something which bugged my 6th sense.
Hahaha.

Oh btw I've been sleeping really well lately! It's great cos I haven't been able to sleep
so soundly and deeply for more than a year i think! It must be the exercise.
On sunday, I cycled and on Friday, I swam. Hee.
All hail exercise! I'm beginning to like it more and more. It's already part of my 2009 goals! :D

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2:14 AM

Sunday, December 21, 2008

Listening to JJ Lin's Sixology now! I received it during yesterday's gift exchange. So happy!!!!
I wanted to get this album but due to $ constraint, I didn't.
And guess what? It was from Weijie. Hahaha.

He got my gift for gift exchange too! but i think not very useful for him leh...or maybe not.
Haha. Body Shop eye gel mask for the gift exchange. cos most are working adults
who need to destress at home. :)

Btw I'm trying out if paragraphing my entries will make reading easier since the words are soooo tiny!

The My Hope dinner was great because we had great friends who were so opened to our
hospitality and our sharing. :) I'm amazed at my ability to share my testimony
yesterday in fluent MANDARIN. How cool is that?

Prayer that is coupled with faith does wonder indeed. I'm so proud of myself!!!
And today, I found out something which blew off so many of our minds when we heard of it.
Hear already hair will stand that kind. LOL.

Anyway because of yesterday, today's service and cycling fellowship, i really believe in SEASON.
God is so divine, and He divinely appoints people to intersect at some point in their lives.
Amazingly, i listened to AR Bernard's "Chasing Donkeys" BBG message just yesterday,
about how we are going through the mundane in life, but at some point our life
intersects with destiny and bam - something divine happens.

Then today i truly witnessed it personally. Wow.
I used to only know what is "season" but now I'm starting to understand it.
[Warning: Wordy post ahead]

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I realize...the phases in a season is actually longer than i initially think it was.

When I praised God during Cgm testimony time for financial blessings, now looking back,
i realize the maximum harvest hasn't arrived yet. More is to come.
It is still flowing and it's even more abundantly than ever before.
I'm looking at blessings BEYOND myself. I'm looking at blessings coming into my family.
My dad, mum, brother, aunts.
It makes sense anyway cos if the family is blessed, I'm blessed too right? Hee.
And God provides even in this time when my grandma is sick and hospitalization costs are great.

And i believe God is slowly making my family members come to realize
the only way to prosper right and healthily is through working hard and righteously.
:D End time wealth transfer!

In the area of reaching out, I have been giving up way too early.
And because returns on investment one person alone is actually taking up a
longer time than is perceived/expected, I should be reaching out to
a BUNCH of people, not just one by one.
In short, expectation management darlinggg!

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And today during service, while lighting up the candles,
I was bothered by a question which I always had at the back of my mind.
If we are to be like the light on the candle, then does that mean
we are also very vulnerable? because the flame will easily be snuffed out
when the strong wind comes.

But I got my answer this morning. And that is YES-
the truth is that we are vulnerable to imperfections like the candle's flame,
flickering from side to side. Anytime there's a strong wind of temptation or distraction,
we may just be snuffed out anytime.

But there's another dimension to it that i didn't think about in the past.
And that is i'm not alone! There are thousands of people who are shining like me.
If one's flame dies out, you can turn to your neighbour and he/she will be more than
willing to help rekindle the flame of your candle. That's what Christian friends are for!
To encourage and serve each other so that we can all become light of the city,
despite our weaknesses. :D

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And today Pastor Kong mentioned about how God never wastes a talent and ability.
That really struck me deep and it's going deeper.

Pastor mentioned that a painter will never paint with the purpose to keep the painting in the storeroom.
No painter would do that because every good painting deserves the right to be admired by art lovers!

This plus AR Bernard's message on Chasing Donkeys is somehow directing me to somewhere. That's how i felt in my spirit.

Sometimes I think I'm too idealistic to dream of becoming a screen writer someday.
Yes, i've been thinking about that option. Honestly, i don't know how that is going to work out
in God's equation. I'm still praying about it. it's totally different to make it a hobby
and to make it my profession. But one thing i know is not to kill the idea straightaway
before at least reading up more on screen writing, and attempting to equip myself
with the relevant skills.

I initially thought that writing scripts is simply something that will keep myself excited
and to allow myself room for creativity in this stifled-up society. I have no thoughts of
allowing my scripts to entertain other people. Yet, after hearing Pastor's words
on the Painter analogy, i'm beginning to think if this interest for script writing is
more than what it seems?

I have actually borrowed books on screen writing from library and it's so interesting to me.
I have the sense that it is something i can actually do. And how many people can actually
say that if they do not have the creativity for it? So yeah. And the other part is craft.
Which can be acquired with diligence.

I feel like I'm in one-fifth life crisis. LOL. I realize it has been going on since i stepped into Uni. Tsktsk.

I've got so many "weird" things I wanna do!
It's terrible having passion for that kind of things cos being a good Singaporean,
I am a low risk-taker. Totally.

Oh God. Need you very much.

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8:30 PM

Friday, December 19, 2008

In the little corner of her universe, there she is -
bended and a crumpled up Furball.
A sense of contentment surges from her heart,
a feeling of wonder and amazement towards
the mysteries contained far above, far beyond.

The eyes on her head are always gazing upwards,
her hands are always wrapped around two bended knees.
She transpires and receives warmth in return;
her breath circulates within the tiny enclosed space
between herself and the wall she faces.

"What mysteries does the skies filled by the moon and stars speak of?"
"What is truly beyond that wide, translucent
planar above my head?"
Mysteries that fascinate the curious mind,
leaving one with the wildest of imagination.

Always gazing upwards, there is no Fear.
Incomparable darkness of the universe
and the terror of the empty space behind
would it be to the Light of the sky.

Serenity fills the heart. Undivided attention.
Silence.

[Copyrighted, 2008]

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2:45 AM


My laptop is dying. Really sad. Can't even work properly for 1 minute. i just quickly saved the most impt thing - the script i'm currently working at - and indeed, it hanged.

I had 2 delicious dinners yesterday and today! It was both very meaty. I usually eat more veges than meat. But with a lot of rice. But yesterday I was at Great World City eating Jack's place, i ordered the Mixed Grill! It's quite yummy, it's got a bit of everything so i don't get sick of eating just the steak. :)

And today, my bro treated us and a few of our uncles and aunt to Equinox, @ Swissotel. Dad's 60th. We got a birds eye view cos we sat at the window, but honestly i don't think that's a very big 'wow' factor cos i pass by the expressway often enough to memorize the picture of the CBD area. So yeah. I prefer to eat with the backdrop of natural scenery, which isn't available in Singapore unfortunately. But we could see the construction of IR! Which i'm more interested in, actually. Too bad our window seat is on the other "better" side, where minimal construction activities of the IR was seen.

Anyway, the food is pretty good! Service too. But my view is that their service is "you pay how much = the level of service we provide". They are all friendly and warm during the course of the meal, attending to every need with excellence. After the main course we didn't order dessert, so they stopped pouring sparkling water for us. When it's actually free flow but each person has to pay $5.50 for that *sparkling* water. Oh well.

The main course, as all "high class" restaurants are, will never fill an Asian stomach. Honestly. The portions are so TINY! I wonder why Westerners have a higher percentage of obesity if they eat such small portions. If we didn't help ourselves to more bread for a start, i bet we'd return home cooking instant noodles for supper or smth.

But having said that, i'd give the overall rating of 7/10. They allowed us to store birthday cake with them and even arranged when we wanted the cake to emerge. Unfortunately, we see the difference between the table of foreigners next to us and our table. Cos they ordered the birthday cake in-house, they had the waiters and waitresses singing the birthday song loudly for the 85year old grandma. But cos our cakes were brought in from outside, our birthday song was sang quietly and by ourselves. Lol.

well i'm just suggesting that perhaps they can consider going an extra mile to put themselves into the customer's shoe. If the aim of the restaurant is to give excellent service, then do it to the best of their abilities. Right? That means not to discriminate customers according to how much we spend in their restaurant, but rather serve with a sincere heart to want to provide best service.

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1:57 AM

Tuesday, December 16, 2008

Helped my mum and dad at work today. I felt awful nearing the end of the work day...due to lack of sufficient rest carried forward from Sunday, I felt like I'm more of a hindrance than of help.

I felt very blurry and stony from morning. I understand when mum says that being an assistant to my dad is really not easy. Gotta be alert at all times, have good memory of the patients coming in and out, whether they made payment or if their case requires a follow up. Lots of ad-hoc and admin work to do, from big things to small things, from A to Z all must be done by 1 person and that's my mum. Running a business like that is no joke. And to do that for 20 over years, it's a big wow.

What i can help is very minimal...and to prevent myself from being a hindrance at work, I really was very alert the last week. but not today. i was basically zoning out most of the time. tsktsk.

Anyways. I left at around 4+pm with Wati and Alis for home. If i were to be more of a hindrance than a help, then i rather go home. That's what i thought and what i've done.

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Had a good long phone conversation with someone this evening. It dawned upon me how much this person has changed since she came back to church. And i felt very challenged by the values she live by. Especially the part on the 3D - Details Determine Destiny. Although she didn't mention this phrase, what she has been doing is basically that. And i felt so provoked for the first time to become a 3D person like her. When knowledge becomes conviction, and conviction turns into something you live by, that's the beauty. Totally.

I must not only be less blur, but make the effort to be attentive to details. That requires MEMORY. I can't live with a goldfish memory forever. At least not without trying to even change for the better! When I see where that person is at right now, I can see how she will go on to do great things as long as she doesn't lose this conviction. And i do not want to "lose out" to her.

It's great to have someone I can talk to at length and enjoy every bit of the conversation. Honestly, i haven't had such an enjoyable conversation for a long long time. And to think i had the honor of conversing with her. I'd call it an honor, because of the many things I've learnt just over this 1 phone call. My soul has been satisfied. :D

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Okie doke. A long day tomorrow and a busy period this week and the next. CHRISTMAS IS HERE! LIKE FINALLY! Merry merry merry merry merry Christmas to all my blog readers, may you be blessed in your relationships with others and your loved ones, may you prosper in good health and finances in the NEW year 2009! May all your dreams begin to come true step by step in 2009, and please start setting GOALS FOR 2009!!!!! :o)

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1:06 AM

Sunday, December 14, 2008

So sad to see the previous blogskin die. A pity...how short is its lifespan! 

Feeling really drained out now after a long day of morning service, churchwide pm, travelling to ivan's home to recce and finally home sweet home. I think it's just me and my body's low level of limit. It really sucks to feel so feeble recently. Sometimes you're not really sick, but u just feel like your body can't take any impact. I really gotta readjust my weak constitution. Exercise more, which i've been trying to do. Also cutting down on bad habits like sleeping late and drama-ing too much. I feel blank and stupid after intense drama-ing cos the brain isn't required to work in front of the goggle box. I think dramas deal directly with the heart. While the heart gets the workout, the brain does nothing.

Had to accompany my family to play mahjong after dinner..now i finally have some time for myself. But it's not too bad, i think having too much time to myself is also not very good. HAha.

Joke of the day #1

C: I don't think I'll be recce-ing with you guys. I'll wait for you all at the first level ok?
Ivan: But my home is at the first level...
C: OK! I mean I'll wait at the void deck.

Joke of the day #2

2 grapes fell from the plate mum had in her hands, one went to the left towards my dad, one went to the right towards me. My dad and I picked the grape up and ate it simultaneously. Only to realize it has previously dropped on mum's dirty toes before dropping on the floor and rolling left and right! YUCKS! I immediately spat the grape out into the dustbin. My dad swallowed the grape though as though everything is fine.

Okay. Disgusting huh? I really wasn't in the right mind throughout the mahjong session and after. All i could think of was room...laptop...blog...bed. So yeah.

But oh well. Our body needs some bacteria still. That's a comforting fact. 

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11:07 PM

Saturday, December 13, 2008

My violin teacher is going overseas for 2 weeks so no lessons for 2 weeks! yay!!! heh heh heh. i like practising but it's good to take a break!

my whole body's aching cos of the exercise but it's not too bad. it's more motivating to have someone exercise with me. i'm looking forward to thursday again! 

i haven't got a chance to wear my fake eyelashes. I'm either too lazy or there's no occasion for the trouble. need to try it soon! 

and i've been wondering if ants ever get drowsy when they come and eat my cough syrup. 

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Lately i've been thinking and imagining a lot, building and developing a storyline that's in my head. i think i've matured a little in terms of purpose of writing scripts.

Perhaps i've been heavily influenced by the kind of dramas i watch; my storylines so far have similarities with those in the taiwan/ korean/ japanese dramas. and if you realize, most of those dramas tend towards unrealistic plots. 

Which i kind of dislike to see in my own creations, to be honest. 

I may like watching brainless romance and comedic asian dramas, but when it comes to my own ideas, i really hope that they can connect in a more relevant way to people. 

To be relevant means to reflect accurately the way of life of society. So in this current storyline that's mostly still stuck in my head (haven't concretized yet), it will be the society i'm most familiar with, and that is Singapore. 

And what's a story without a balanced dose of conflicts and social ills? I hope my work will not simply reflect like a mirror, but i want my target audience to be able to catch something and do something about it, just like Jack Neo's movies.

Hence, i've thought of this storyline that i was quite impressed with initially and expanded on it, throwing in some of Singapore's social issues. So i hope i'm not going to look at it 1 week down the road and think that it's trash! that's what happened to my past projects. hahaha. most of them, i'd say, cannot stand thru the test of time. 

I've got so much i want to talk about the storyline in my head, but i really should develop it further before sharing. i spent the afternoon writing the beginning chapter. i hope to finish the beginning chapter by tonight. i developed a rough character description for the main characters and important side characters too yesterday afternoon. it will help me tremendously in developing the plot at a later stage.

Most important lesson learnt would be that the script writer must be able to understand and know each and every characters' feelings and thoughts, in order to write a good script that is relatable to others.

I'm doing this with zero external knowledge gained in script writing. it's just something i like to do. you can say it's silly and a waste of time, but for someone who is born more of an idealist who happens to have a creative streak, i'd say it is worth it to see what this thing can become. after all, Art and Creativity are not meant to be irrelevant unlike what some ppl may think. otherwise i could have simply carried on and have completed 10+ storylines but they would all be illogical, unrealistic, irrelevant and a put off to everyone except myself. and that's meaningless ain't it.

yup. so you know what i do during my free time, other than music and drama-ing. Haha!

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6:28 PM

Thursday, December 11, 2008

wahhhahahaha......

It's the sound of me crying...not laughing. Maybe half crying half laughing.

I spent like $200 in AMK Hub today!!! That's on top of spending $300+ on my Creative Zen X-Fi yesterday. I got myself a 25 Hours watch $100+ (on discount leh!!! teeheehee), 2 coloured stockings (green my fave color & brown), 2 tops (1 is discounted from $49 to $15 lehhh!!!), and a Body Shop facial cleanser (20% off storewide lehh!!! heeheehee!!). I also got myself 2 picks but I think they are meant for classical guitars :-[ maybe i should donate to Emil and GuanJin one each since their guitar is classical.

I went to exercise today with T2. We were supposed to play tennis for 2 hours but it started to rain after 1 hour. So we got back our money for the 2nd hour (quite surprised they actually allow refund), then went to the gym instead. The tennis court is $3.50/hr while the gym is $2.50/hr and a towel is compulsory! Wow. It's the first time I actually stepped into a public gym, kind of didn't know what's going on initially.

We had alot of trouble with the locker, that required 2x 20cent coins. Then must go down to exchange for coins cos the gym counter was out of 20cent coins. -.- Then somemore I had to go down TWICE cos I didn't know how to operate the locker, so i wasted 40cents on the first try. Sigh. I think the settling down part took about 15minutes before we actually begun exercising. Oh well. So much for first experience.

Haven't downloaded songs into my mp4. It's gonna be a huge project since i've got soooooo many albums to transfer into the machine!!!

I saw Caleb's youtube video of this Korean contemporary pianist, Caleb was the "calefare" in the video and his friend is the one playing the piece on the piano. It sounded pretty moving, so i went to research on the song and composer, Yiruma.

The song is called "River flows in you". Beautiful song that is coming from Yiruma's soul.




This must be the best sounding song out of Yiruma's more popular ones in Youtube. Heard that his song "Kiss the rain" is one of the theme songs for the vampire romance film called Twilight.

Farewell Caleb as you enter the army to serve the nation. Will miss your blog posts and tags! And thanks for being absent from Cg as a result of it. Now i have to play guitar for Cg and i'm biting my nails now!!!! :(

Ok i think that's all i've got to rant about. Till then!

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11:43 PM

Wednesday, December 10, 2008

God loves His Church...

She is the Bride of Jesus
The apple of His eye
The expression of His character and glory

She is the body of Christ in this world
His hands to touch the broken
His arms to embrace the wounded
His feet to run with the Good News

Like her Bridegroom
She is often misunderstood
She is an enigma to the world

Yet through it all
She stands strong and mighty
Majestic and glorious like her Master
A beacon of hope
A tower of refuge for all

No song can fully express
The depth of love between Christ and His Church
This bond of eternal love and purpose
Will always make her
The Church of God
"The Light of the City"

-CHC Worship Team


This made me cry. I totally feel it...how is it possible that they encompass everything so well in just a few phrases! Sheesh. Read it over and over again. This is the introductory message of the latest CHC album, Light of the City.

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2:12 AM

Monday, December 8, 2008

U know what? You should try this.

Imagine someone did an injustice towards you. It can be someone who is 1 hour late for an appointment with no trace of guilt. 

Or, someone who, in the heat of the moment, spat something out and he totally doesn't know the damage he has done to your friendship. 

Or, someone who is so blur as if he threw away all his common sense and not thinking it's a serious problem at all when it HAS been a serious problem. 

Imagine you heard news of a person passing away. 

Or maybe a pet animal that you've totally adored died. 

Or a sale you've been waiting to come for a long time has been cancelled last minute without notice.


What will you do?

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What I do - 5 minutes to feel whatever I want to feel, and after that no more hard feelings.

Try it out. It works! :) It is my little effort of ensuring a healthy outlook upon life and others around me. And I can't begin to explain why a healthy outlook is so crucial cos it's going to take a much longer entry than this.

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1:42 PM

Sunday, December 7, 2008

Psalms 118: 25-28

"O Lord, I pray, send now prosperity. Blessed is he who comes in the name of the Lord! We have blessed you from the house of the Lord.

God is the Lord, and He has given us light;

Bind the sacrifice with cords to the horns of the altar.

You are my God, and I will praise You; You are my God, I will exalt You."

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Arise and build....more than just a campaign. Sacrifice breed miracles.

Indeed, we have blessed God in His house through our giving...and so, God, now send us prosperity.

Is it too arrogant a prayer to make? But it is written in Psalms 118 as a prayer to God.

Every blessing from God has been conditional. We meet God's conditions, and God will meet our conditions. We also need God's light - His wisdom in our lives to manage the incoming prosperity. Finance management. But note the past perfect tense - "He has given us light" which means light that should already be in us.

Never underestimate the importance and power of this light. It is necessary for everything in our lives. Prosperity is one part of it, but there's nine other parts in us that need God's light to guide us.

We can be prosperous, but we need integrity to match up to that prosperity which God is entrusting to us.

Bind your sacrifice tightly on the altar of God. And continue to praise and exalt the name of Jesus!

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11:36 PM




Still couldn't find any youtube videos on the content of the episode. But this is it, what KC was mentioning about during the P&W elective during Asia Conference. :)

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8:21 PM


How many times have we been a fool before the eyes of others?
Yet we still carry on.
C'est la vie.

Why?
Because the word 'fool' is subjective.
Because there is a belief in doing what we're doing.

That belief, in us, shields us from every prolonged hurt, disappointment and anger - emotional responses which we have every right to have. But we choose not to have them.

Unless: that belief isn't strong enough...reason why people given in to negative emotional responses.

hmm. I think i'm pretty right in this.

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My brother just entered my room to show me a Nintendo Wii which he won in his company's dinner just now! 1st prize! WOoooowwww! What a contrast to last year when he didn't win at all (almost everyone will win something that kind of lucky draw u know? Hahahaha!)

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But i'm just wondering (i'm back to the first topic) - out of so many times of being a fool, how many times have we been a fool really, in the eyes of others? How about in our own eyes?

I'm starting to feel that most of the time, i consider myself a fool because i see myself as such.

i need a more positive self image and perception on others. Maybe?

I have been taking cough syrup 3 times a day cos the cough worsened. It's been a long time since i had fallen into such deep, beautiful sleep. Though my dreams were no longer as sweet as they used to be. I miss those good old days.

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12:41 AM

Thursday, December 4, 2008

IS THIS COOL OR WHAT!


YOUTUBE...
SYMPHONY...
ORCHESTRA !!!!!!



Conductor Tan Dun talks about the inspiration behind the Youtube Symphony in the video below:



AND, hear Lang Lang talk about this project!

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7:45 PM

Wednesday, December 3, 2008

I love my new blogskin! Well it's not overly colorful, and the idea of the blogtext being 'written' on a notebook is awesome! Plus the use of color tabs is innovative, so you explore by clicking on the tabs.

Have been slacking at home for 2 days and it's no good. I intended to take the entire day on Monday to complete writing Christmas cards. But I am still not done with them!!! Sigh. And it's wednesday already.

My goodness i have yet to touch my violin and I'm having lesson TOMORROW!!!!!! O.O It's weird why I avoid violin now that school ended, but I love to practise it during my school term. Perhaps learning violin is simply an excuse for minor escapism from school work? Perhaps I really should've read something that appeals to my interest more in Uni? But there's no point in going that way. I'm already in year 3. I wouldn't even think of changing course even if i'm in year 2. Cos that's like really wasting time and money.

okok enough of 'what if's. As if they are constructive. *roll eyes*.

Better sleep now. My cough and throat is better though. :)

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3:31 AM

Tuesday, December 2, 2008

OMG i'm such a mountain tortoise.

I just listened to David Archuleta's hit song called Crush. I'm going to get his album if the songs all sound as nice as "Crush". I'm waiting for it to come out!!!!!! I've added the song to my playlist. :D

He IS talented. He is born to sing. Just hope he can self-compose. The song is awesome but it wasn't written by him. Otherwise, it will be perfect! I LOVE the chord progression, the vocal harmonizing, the piano intro! Oh my.....this song is 100% feel man. Lyrics flows so well with the melody.

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1:28 AM

Monday, December 1, 2008

Okay, I officially lost my voice.

Lately, I've been pondering on the topic of "conscience".

Conscience is the inner sense of what is right or wrong in one's conduct or motives, impelling one toward right action and follow the dictates of conscience. It is also the complex of ethical and moral principles that controls or inhibits the actions or thoughts of an individual. (dictionary.com)

I thought that there are 3 levels of conscience. The shallowest level is the recognition of what is morally right and wrong. In simpler terms, the ability to differentiate right from wrong.

The 2nd and 3rd level is to do with the action part, after recognizing what's right and wrong. The 2nd level is when we avoid certain actions because we recognize that it is wrong. That itself is an act contributing to general righteousness.

The 3rd level is to be able to act constructively upon the right things.

The 3rd level is difficult for most of us. Indeed, we strive to do the right things all the time so as to face our conscience and become better people. but definitely there will be times when we are tempted to compromise on our conscience.

In terms of the amount of effort needed, the pyramid of Conscience is going to be an inverted one. Level 3 seems limitless, boundless, and as high as the sky can go. That's why many will rather give up and stick to level 2 all their lives. The abiliy to recognize what's right and to avoid wrongdoings is enough to survive the realities of the world today. Right? As the world gets more and more corrupt, it seems that if you have a level 2 conscience, you are already considered a very good person!

But I think otherwise. The fact that the world is growing more corrupt shouldn't be an excuse for us to be stuck at level 2. I personally feel that many people, especially Singaporeans, have that kind of mindset. Just look after yourself, don't do illegal things can already; don't try to be smart alec as you will get yourself into more trouble; got extra money give to flag days, no money don't bother to do charitable works. Do as you're told - no more no less - just enough to make your face look good.

Sounds familiar?

It's a very sad case of an ugly Singaporean. And I don't want to be classified as one of those people.

My wish is to see more budding social entrepreneurs. Including myself. I want to help the down and out more. I want to meet needs more. I want to be part of something that I'm convicted about. I want to be a new Singaporean.

I want to be best friends with Conscience. And I'm working hard on this friendship. :)

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8:10 PM


I have the whole of tomorrow to myself at home cos I'm sick. :D There are a few things I must do by tomorrow...cannot procrastinate!

I went to check out Creative Zen X-Fi in SITEX this afternoon, and I'm so disappointed. There's no promotion or discount AT ALL. It's the same price as purchasing online. Maybe cos it's a relatively new product. Oh well. Have decided to get from someone who may help me get a 20% discount instead. YEAH!!!!!

This week I'll be really busy with meeting people. Joan's back from Melbourne! Gonna celebrate man.

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12:11 AM
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