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Tuesday, March 31, 2009
Falling Asleep Sigh, I'm falling asleep while doing my assignment in school. Might as well blog for today, so here I am! I tell you I'm hopeless. I heard from Jiasin that Morning PM is 6AM so i thought that I was late! I took a cab down to Kreta Ayer and reached at 5.20am. -_-" I think Jiasin meant 6PM for evening prayer meeting instead of 6am. Haha. But it was good that I took that 1 hour to plan out my daily schedule from now till exams. =) At least I have an inkling of what I'm supposed to do from now. Gotta start my mugging machine once I'm done with this TS essay assignment! Can't wait to get it over and done with! And that's prolly why I'm feeling sleepy by this time of the day....not having enough sleep yesterday. =x Shall survive on coffee! Though it's not healthy to do so. Keep the faith up Enling! Labels: daily rantings 6:49 PM
Monday, March 30, 2009
Carpe Diem Hmm. Morning prayer tomorrow till friday. Gonna gear up for the whole week for that. =) When you've been to Heaven and experienced it, you'll never want to come back to Earth. neither will you want to go down to Hades. ever. Just a thought. Haha. I feel like I've been living in this bubble of God's protection over the past few weeks. It's amazing. Just like what Pst Phil preached about - being waterproof, fireproof, weatherproof, and whatever else to the external worldly conditions. It feels like I've tasted a bit of Heaven. Everyday I know God is doing something with my 24hours. And that makes me unwilling to make it back down to Earth, when everyday it's just me living my own life, not seeing breakthroughs...feeling utterly mediocre about everything. For too long i've been lukewarm and ineffective. I'm glad it's now my kairos time and I am seizing it. Carpe diem....reminds me of my pri6 teacher who used to tell us so often to 'seize the day'. :) God's kingdom is here...there is a heaven on earth! but we decide whether we want to live according to His kingdom principles, or the world's. So we choose wisely. For me, everything points to the Kingdom living. It is undoubtedly the wisest, smartest, bestest choice of lifestyle one can ever make. I've experienced it. And now, it dreads me if one day I step out of that bubble. I don't want to go back to those times of living a mediocre, mundane life with zero breakthroughs coming my way...that place is the Sahara Desert. I never want to lay my foot back in there ever again. Labels: contemplative, daily rantings 5:29 PM
Sunday, March 29, 2009
PHIL PRINGLE WEEKEND A BLAST! When hearts of faith arise, it's impossible to walk out of the service feeling nothing. I walked into the hall expecting a touch of God through Pst Phil's preaching, and I got what I wanted. I thought that the praise and worship was great, don't you think so? It's like a whole new level altogether. Time for City Harvest to take on the challenge and rise up to another level of P&W! It shows how some people are TOO accustomed with tradition. Yes - even in a contemporary church like CHC. It can happen anywhere, so long as people can expect a certain pattern. People can grow and become too comfortable with their comfort zones. Hence anything that maybe new to them like C3's worship leading today, the spiritual atmosphere drops like crazy. Big nono. Pst Phil being Pst Phil, HE IS THE MAN. The message was awesome! And the ministry time after his preaching zapped up the spiritual atmosphere with faith. That was cool. When was the last time you worshipped God with all your heart? When was the last time...you feel like you could do anything for the sake of God? Those questions went right into my being. It is God reminding me to never forget the essence of our faith - the reason why I'm believing in Him and doing stuff for Him. And that is the work of the Cross....death of Jesus for the penalty of my sins...I will never, ever, EVER forget that. I know that from this day onwards, life is not going to be the same for me anymore. INDESCRIBABLE - CHRIS TOMLIN From the highest of heights to the depths of the sea Creation's revealing Your majesty From the colors of fall to the fragrance of spring Every creature unique in the song that it sings All exclaiming Indescribable, uncontainable, You placed the stars in the sky and You know them by name You are amazing God. All powerful, untameable, Awestruck we fall to our knees as we humbly proclaim You are amazing God Who has told every lightning bolt where it should go Or seen heavenly storehouses laden with snow Who imagined the sun and gives source to its light Yet conceals it to bring us the coolness of night None can fathom Indescribable, uncontainable, You placed the stars in the sky and You know them by name You are amazing God All powerful, untameable, Awestruck we fall to our knees as we humbly proclaim You are amazing God You are amazing God Indescribable, uncontainable, You placed the stars in the sky and You know them by name. You are amazing God Incomparable, unchangeable You see the depths of my heart and You love me the same You are amazing God You are amazing God Labels: contemplative, prayer to God 11:25 PM
Visitation: Popo @ CGH After a bout of dehydration leading to high amounts of potassium in body, which led to kidney failure, my popo ended up in Changi General Hospital once again. That was 1 week ago. But praise God! because she has been kept in prayers by all my friends and my Christian relatives and their Christian friends, God did a wonderful thing. =) And I'm able to witness that today, as I followed my aunt and parents to visit her at the hospital. A few days ago, my mum told me that grandma's condition improved significantly and it was really amazing for that to happen. Her speech is much clearer now, she is more conscious of her surrounding and people, and she is also able to communicate to us what she wants/don't want. It is a tremendous improvement considering for the past 1-2 months she was in a state of severe depression, always crying the moment she sees someone familiar. Rejecting food, no will to survive... So I really want to thank God + my friends who helped keep my grandma in prayer. Without friends and God, such improvements wouldn't even occur! I'm sure about that. Lately God has been soooo good to me. I love Him. Testimonies after testimonies. You are amazing, God! Today, my aunt asked me to pray for my grandma. First time she has ever asked me to do that! I've been envisioning for this day to come, when I can lay my hands on grandma. And i did just that this afternoon! Leading the prayer in english with my aunt and my mum....God, You are amazing. And I believe my Popo can feel the touch of God as I made that prayer. There was this sudden peace that came upon her countenance after we made the prayer. I know it's because when 2 or 3 gather to pray in unity, there is power. :) Indescribable - Chris Tomlin Labels: testimony 10:42 PM
Earth Hour! I KOed during Earth Hour. Actually no, I ate using a candle. Ahahaa. I took a longer time to finish my dinner cos I had a hard time picking out all the sotongs in my hokkien mee cos of the darkness. And after that, I laid on the sofa wanting to watch some tv but ended up sleeping until 12.20am. Woohoohoo. I am tired. Earth Hour - 8.30 to 9.30pm. Have you done your part? ;) I'm quite glad of how my family is aware of such an activity. when I reminded them, they actually said yes to switch off MOST of the lights and electrical appliances in the house. All except for one "spoil market" room - the mahjong room. My mum finally made a mahjong room out of the guest room and today is the first day she invited relatives or good friends to come and play in that room. They couldn't play without lights and they had the air-con on too. If global warming happens, it is because of THEM!!! Kidding. It's all of us really. Anyway. Had a great time of fellowship with cg at my house. We watched the 'indescribable' video about how great and indescribable our God is, through a scientific, astronomical point of view. Which was gooood. :) After that, Miao, Michelle and CY were the only ones left in my house. Miao took out a deck of cards and persuaded us to play bridge with her. Ahaha. We all name her 赌鬼！Esther the gambling ghost. Lol. U shld see her face when she is playing bridge man. She's like begging us to play it with her although we didn't know how to play at first. So she taught us and blablabla. But it was good. :) it's been a super long time since i've got a chance to sit down and have fun with friends from cell group. Should do it more often! Labels: daily rantings 12:52 AM
Friday, March 27, 2009
Something miraculous Something miraculous happened. My grandma, who was eventually hospitalised (i didn't blog about it sorrray) due to dehydration which led to a kidney failure, is well now! Thank God for all your prayers...and N119's prayers. God is a prayer answering God...! My mum was worried if it's 回光反照。Basically a phenomenon that sick people suddenly get well, which is a sign that that person is really going to pass away the next moment. Like how morbid can we get huh?! I believe this is the work of God and this is true healing. Not 回光反照. Please continue to pray for her. Thank you so much everyone. I can't believe a healing testimony has actually happened in my life. Labels: testimony 11:56 PM
Why so sotong I'm such a sotong today. Didn't bring my ezlink and wallet out to school. Only realized it at 3pm++. Supposed to go Huixuan's Cg...in the end got to attend Cheryl's fri cg instead. Sigh. Got to keep my brain in the right working conditions leh...everytime so blur really too much! Point made. I'm super excited for this weekend you know. Pst Phil is preaching I LOVE HIM TO DEATH. He's an awesome preacher and man of God. Labels: daily rantings 12:28 AM
Thursday, March 26, 2009
Theatre Studies Practical Test! I fumbled over a stupid line!!! argh. Irian Jaya Freedom Monument: You'll see plenty in time. And, like the rest of us, you'll feel frustrated from not being able to speak. We were erected to remind people of historical events. But do the people of Jakarta ever really think about the past? The poor has their stomachs to think about, and the rich, they only think about how to buy up more land at the edge of the city. Dang I can memorize and type this out entirely. so why couldn't I say the line in red properly?! Oh man. The play is called Cockroach Opera btw. It is politically agenda-ed towards the Indonesian political scene. Hence banned in Indonesia. But it's quite a fun play to act in. :D But other than that, one of the main characters in our group is ABSENT and didn't take the initiative to let us know. I thought the least she could do is to apologize for #1 telling us so last minute #2 leaving us without any room to think of plan B #3 NOT appearing for rehearsals over the past week (she has a valid reason but I/we question its validity). But nooooo. she didn't. Well yes she mentioned she's got an MC. That is like the weapon to prevent being penalized and stuff. But that's just selfish! Covering one's own butt and not caring about the rest........ Sigh. I was angry. Now i'm just disappointed. but it's okay. It's over and our group did pretty well, I think. And we are graded individually too. So yeap. Anyway, I was playing two characters (= CHALLENGING OKAY) and I had to be quick and know the right timing to switch characters. One is the Freedom Monument as mentioned, the other is the Pancoran Aerospace Monument, the monkey king (NOT Sun Wu Kong). Two of my classmates are from the same church as me! So exciting. Too bad all these while we haven't got the chance to act together. And we probably wouldn't as well, for the next practical. Actually come to think of it, lots of ppl from my tutorial group are openly Christians. Which is pretty cool. Soooo. One more practical to go and we're done! The last one is a practical examination...sounds challenging enough. I always pray before I perform. It works. =) Labels: daily rantings 2:25 PM
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
Quality Time spent Had a great time-out with princess at Yishun Library's Cafe. Although it was over a simple coffee which she treated me (awww so nice! i'm still full of gratitude even now :D), wahhaha we poured out alot of stuff to each other...we exchanged skeletons. From our respective closets. =x heh heh heh. Thanks dear for never giving up on our friendship. I'm so happy to have invested in a friend like you. A true and sincere person. You are a gem! stress stress stress. I need God's grace to tide me through. Labels: daily rantings 11:44 PM
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
Violin exam (july) I've talked to my mum. She (and dad) encouraged me to follow through till I pass my grade 8 for violin. Despite the need to carry it through my final year. next year. I voiced out my concern about getting too packed during my final yr in school, but they were supportive and wanted me to take my time to pass grade 8. Which is really nice of them. because the longer the time, the more $ spent for lessons. Another thing I really dislike is to have lessons on Sunday like i do now. End up not fellowshipping with cg after svc....just bad. Hate it. When I finally pass my grade 7 in July, I'm so going to change the timing with teacher to sometime in the weekdays instead! I had to take up his sunday slot cos the other days he isn't free. Hmm counting down i've got roughly 9 more weekly lessons till July. Which is quite few to the exam month. Might need more than 1 lesson per week soon. :\ Am also considering my thesis supervisor's advise of not doing internship during my 3 months hols in May-July. His advice is for me to use the 3 months to do a good first draft of my thesis. For a prof with experience to say that, I might just consider his advice and skip internship. Besides, I already have one in my record. In year 2. Though I didn't feel that I've learnt much, nor was it any big company that will like impress my future employers. Anyway i think it's cool to just slack at home man....having the time to myself to do a good job for my paper...concentrate on violin lessons and practising...perhaps even learning driving. Cool! Labels: daily rantings 6:20 PM
Monday, March 23, 2009
Pedicure + Fundraisng did pedicure today! neglected my toenails for too long the varnish has been totally worn out. disgusting. i'm listening to a switzerland classical radio online by streaming. so cool! :) Fundraising for One Coin, One Brick was today and my shift from 10-1.30pm. It was cool, haven't gone out there with thick skin for a long time since 1st year in NUS (flag day). Haha. Got to know a few vietnamese. It's quite interesting how some student donors are so willing to help by suggesting ideas how to fundraise more effectively. Haha. This activity made me believe that quite a large number of good samaritans are around in school. Bed is calling out to me. Eyes are closing, brain is shutting. But cannot...still got some stuff must clear. HAIZ. Labels: daily rantings 9:43 PM
Sunday, March 22, 2009
My grandma One word: Heart-wrenching. Never heard her scream and shout so much in the past. Today was the worst...10 tablespoons of food had to be forced into her mouth because she repelled food. She hasn't been eating more than 5 tablespoons each day. I was supposed to be asleep, taking my nap. But was awoke by the loud screamings from grandma. She is half paralysed, can't talk and has other complications which comes vulnerable to an individual with age. She is emotionally very depressed and I can totally understand why. She has been slogging all her life and even into old age, she is used to doing domestic work despite her bad leg. But now, none of it she can do....I think if I was her, life would be so dull and meaningless! From hero to zero. Music. Carrier of my life. I hope that if one day I'm bedridden like her, I will have music and people to accompany me so that I find something to hold on to. I begin to realize that music is such a wonderful gift from God. :) Pls pray for my grandma if you're seeing this. :) I'm really touched that my cell group is helping to intercede too...the sense that they are being there. It's great. To have people share my burden of someone I care about. Labels: daily rantings 10:45 PM
VietnamJUMP! Finally! I went through several YEP (youth expedition prog) applications and this one got through! It's similar to YEP, just that it's not under YEP (YEP = getting huge subsidies from National Arts Council!) SUCCESS. VICTORY. YAY!!! VietnamJUMP is organized by a group of Vietnamese who interviewed me few days ago. They told me that I was the first applicant and they sounded pretty impressed by my prompt application. Haha. The interview was a few days ago actually, just that I didn't mention it and I still don't think I should really announce that I'M HEADING TO VIETNAM ON MAY 10TH-24TH!!!!!!!! Ahhhhhhhhhhh!!!!! Wahahahahaha. Well, due to building fund, it was a very big concern whether I could finance my way through. That's why I intend to keep it under wraps before telling most people. But i don't think (I HOPE NOT) it's going to be a problem, since they allowed me to defer payment until after I come back to Singapore. They are so nice to allow me to do that! Of course, all these are verbal agreements. So along the way if anything changes, like suddenly there's a payment deadline, then I'd have no choice but to back out. Most important is still to first honor my covenant with God. :) Honor God & God will honor us. Unless going to Vietnam isn't part of His will for me, I'm sure He will grant this desire of my heart. :) Well, some team members are extending their stay in Vietnam to tour and sight-see. Would love to do that and go to Cambodia too! It's just next door. Sigh. When I experience a financial blessing, then maybe I'll do that... It will simply be a blessing to just visit Vietnam and do something nice there for the poor and the kids of the rural village! Anything beyond that will be a blessing from Him. I'm praying hard! FUNDRAISING ACTIVITY!  One Coin One Brick Join us on March 23, 24, 25, 26. I'll be there on March 23, Mon @ School's Central Lib/Sci Foyer! So exciting! :D Labels: daily rantings 1:59 AM
Friday, March 20, 2009
Big Aunty Big aunty came. She has gotten so big and fat. PAIN IN THE NECK!!!!!!!! She's annoying, and her sudden arrival caused me to miss cell group! I was also on my way to collect my 7 days trial at california fitness gym. I was on bus 10 and I was in rafflesplace already! She had to make me take a cab home. WASTE OF $$$. I'm like so tight already can. And I'm supposed to go school tomorrow for a briefing session but looks like I can't make it cause of HER. I know I can't avoid Big Aunty's arrival....but can she come without the c-r-a-m-p-s. p.s: It's good, on the other hand - cos I got to rest and sleep for many hours. Something i've been deprived of recently. :) Labels: daily rantings 11:09 PM
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
Embarrassed Something really embarrassing and funny happened just now during project presentation @ tutorial! My stomach GROWLED as I was breathing in! I was standing beside LC, who was presenting the very last part towards the end. Thank God she could control herself from laughing! But after the whole presentation was over, we burst out laughing together....hahahaha..thank God the presentation wasn't affected and that we could control ourselves. I think if we were in JC in those younger days, we'd have laugh on the spot like there's no tomorrow. LC: Next time eat first before presentation can? Me: But I got eat! I dunno why my stomach growl! ***volcanic eruption of laughter **** I hope my classmates weren't aware of it. But it was funny! Haha! Labels: daily rantings 6:14 PM
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
Paul Scanlon weekend Using school's computer. Have 10mins left, so i thought i'd do a quick update on Paul Scanlon weekend. :) 15 (minute) Revolution I haven't got the chance to be inconvenienced by someone yet. Maybe it's cos i've been too busy to pay attention to the things/people around me...bad bad bad...shall be more observant especially after blogging this entry! Church without Walls I really loved what Pst Paul shared, about church without walls. Too often we are cooped out within our own circle of cell group and ministry within the church...we hardly pay attention to most things outside of that circle. Over time, I realize my social circle has been limited to just cell group, ministry, school friends, old friends.... That is why I wanted to commit to a regular voluntary service. and I signed up with CHCSA to serve the needy every quarterly. That's committing 4 times of voluntary work in 1 year. Very doable! I pray that not only myself, but my fellow church friends can also be constantly reminded of the meaning behind "church without walls", a phrase that we use so often that sometimes we use it blindly...and forget how this phrase has been derived. Pst Paul's preaching last sunday really drived the point in. :) Labels: daily rantings 5:54 PM
Tuesday - Long long day Long day ahead!!! I finished my theatre studies review and my soci term paper. The term paper was horrible I think. When I go back to read my paper, it was like me writing gibberish! So hard to understand....haiz. Not putting alot of hopes into it. Anyway i'm happy that i'm done with all the submissions. 4 more presentations to go! Two this week, 2 nearing the end of semester before exams. And not to forget 2 more practical assessments for TS... Cockroach opera! What a name. Having a bad stomach especially after chicken rice for dinner...it's the oiliness i think. Gor2 bought 1 whole steamed chicken back with 4 packets of rice, not knowing that Wati had prepared chicken rice for dinner also! Eat chicken rice until burst. Tomorrow is still chicken rice for dinner. Not much updates I know. Want to blog about Paul Scanlon weekend but I'll leave it to tomorrow...:) Labels: daily rantings 3:08 AM
Monday, March 16, 2009
WLBR Meet-Up WLBR = Willy's Loyal Blog Readers. @ willyjoe.blogspot.com 2nd meet-up now! It was a funNY time... Haiz. During the meet-up, I was describing the Toa Payoh ritual murders, which was a case study my Social work project group had wanted to touch on but eventually couldn't cos the source was unreliable (wikipedia). And guess what? I couldn't fall asleep for at least an hour yesterday night! Haiyo. First time like that leh. Maybe it was the Starbucks coffee that added a dose of anxiety too. Bad choice to drink coffee at night. But i'm glad i did, i was awake till 3am to finish up my part for another project report...quite efficient...but would be more efficient if i didn't choose to go Facebook.com. always the case. Okie doke. I'm up at this hour (amazingly) to start on my sociology paper...online submission is at 6pm!!!!!!!!! i only have like 7hours to complete it. I hope i have enough time.
From left to right: Stephen, Sarah, Lynn, Miguel, Alan, Willy, Enling. p.s: I don't look skinny in this photo taken by Stephen! So happy!!!! Ahah. Labels: daily rantings 10:12 AM
Sunday, March 15, 2009
Collection: status update! Collection of Books God and the Ancient Chinese [LOANED] God's promise to the Chinese Making Connections that Work - A biblical guide to building and maintaining godly rnshps Art of Distinction (Robb Thompson) The Ultimate Reference Guide to Increase(Robb Thompson) Anointed for Business (Ed Silvoso) The power of simple prayer (Joyce Meyer) [LOANED] Moving in the spirit (Phil Pringle) Leadership Excellence (Phil Pringle) Jesse, found in Heaven (Chris Pringle) The Anointing (Benny Hinn) Happiness is... (AR Bernard) Becoming a contagious Christian (Bill Hybels/Mark Mittelberg) The power of a Praying Woman (Stormie Omartian) [I'm currently reading this :)] Collection of CDs This is our God, Hillsong Live CD + DVD (2008) Jesus Is, Hillsong London CD+DVD (2006) United We Stand, Hillsong United CD+DVD (2006) Pick it Up, Planetshakers CD (2006) Roadmaps and Revelations, Parachute Band (2007) Better Days, Sidney Mohede (2008) Captivated, True Worshippers (2007) For Your Glory, CCC aka C3 (CD + DVD) Presence, CCC Live DVD (2005) Sari 31:31 (2006) Hiding Place Platinum Edition, Don Moen (2007) Light of the City, CHC (2008) Breakaway, CHC (2007) Cross, CHC (2005) He Reigns, Newsboys (2005) Collection of Sermon mp3 Why Tongues? CD (Kong Hee) Growing Spiritually at work CD (Kong Hee) Jesus and the DaVinci Code CD (Mark Conner) Driven By Eternity 6CDs (John Bevere) Treasure in Earthen Vessel & Spiritual Disciplines 2CDs (AR Bernard) Empowered Living CD (AR Bernard) 1. Intimacy with the Holy Spirit 2. Your redemptive value in God 3. Reputation - The revelation of your life's capital Chasing Donkeys, Business breakthru series CD (AR Bernard) 5 Common Qualities of successful people, Business breakthru series CD (AR Bernard) Fivefold Ministry - Pitfalls of the 5fold ministry 2CDs (Kong Hee) Leadership Conference part I with Phil Pringle 6CDs Leadership Conference part II with Phil Pringle 6CDs Just an update. :) I've also loaned out my SOT books to my dear princess already...so no more SOT books for grabs! Labels: information 2:02 PM
Saturday, March 14, 2009
Friends = Investment? (Part III) The making of a leader is a mixture of triumph and failure, blessing and pain. It takes much longer than anticipated, costs more than we want, and takes us on a journey through far more trouble than we ever thought we could manage. - Phil Pringle (You The Leader) Jesus Himself had 12 disciples, 2 of whom - Judas and Simon Peter - had betrayed Him. Yet Jesus forgave Peter....and he eventually became a mighty apostle of God. That's my answer to myself. Labels: contemplative, revelation 9:44 PM
Friends = Investment? (Part II) I believe that over the years, especially the recent year as I step into church (note the irony), I have been taken advantage of my kindness, my trust and openness towards others. I've been misunderstood for my own way of relating to others. I've been brushed aside as someone that "doesn't understand". Things that I would never have to encounter...if I have never involved myself so greatly in church. Inviting trouble into my own life? Not really. I think i can understand why this irony exist. In a world that only looks for selfish gains, including love ("give me" attitude rather than "give others"), the very reason why people step into church and expect to be provided with those things is understandable. At least to me. The church of Jesus Christ promised its believers that it has the answers to all that is missing in their life. The church has love when the believer can't find love. The church has faith when the believer lost all faith in the things of the world. The church has truth, and does things according to godly principles...when the world work with lies and deceit to survive. Etc. etc. Personally i take it as a challenge and something that God has put me to the test. Before i stepped into church and truly get myself involved with serving people, i never befriended people that were hurting or had a less than perfect personal history. My circle of friends were among the more affluent, the intellectuals, those that tend to have less of a problem with life. Perhaps we would whine about life now and then, but it's always in a different angle than when I see a church friend struggling over certain issues, now that I know more people from different walks of life. Getting to know people from different walks of life interests me alot. And i'm glad i get to do that because of church. Yet, it comes with a price. A risk I must take. A risk which I took. Why? Because I AM the church of Jesus Christ. Just the last week alone, a few persons around me have caused my spirit to be grieved. To be seeing what I saw in the church of God, I felt it was very unbecoming of them to be so immature in their attitudes. I was disappointed, angry on the inside, and very hurt. On the other hand, I felt that ALL of these were meant for me. According to God's plan to mold me. The moment I decided to step into church 4 years ago, I have decided to be committed and discipled in the ways of Jesus...that includes loving the hard-to-love, putting trust and faith in those that don't believe in themselves. And I was reminded of every bit of these even when I couldn't get over the grieving. My spirit was willing to do the right thing, but my flesh was weak. Most of the time, people hurt others because they themselves are hurt. I thought of it that way. But still....I need time. Time heals wounds. And God Himself of course. I couldn't have bore this without His strength in my life...He is the reason why I'm going through all this. Willingly... ---------------- Sometimes I wonder - am I too fragile and lacking that toughness in me to be facing all this? I think I am quite green to such issues as I've hardly encountered them among my primary/sec/JC good friends. I always...ALWAYS...befriend someone from my heart. But if that friendship isn't mutual...I don't know. I guess I'll be very sad. But the fact that what they did was not right and therefore need to be transformed with God's love still stand...and as much as I can, I hope to do that for them. I don't know how....but I'm just praying. Labels: contemplative 5:50 PM
Friday, March 13, 2009
Friends = Investment? I'm starting to think of friendship as an investment. When investment in friends work, we add Love Units (LU) into our love bank. But if the investment in a friend fails, we subtract LU from our love bank. 1. Don't invest without being prepared for the possible risks involved. But once you invest, be prepared for the day your investment may fail you. 2. Prepare for a possible investment loss by diversification - don't put all your eggs into one basket. Have many friends, as many as possible (that you can open up to, those that you know are surely reliable). If not, your failed investment in friends may just leave you an empty shell. Feelings are more fragile than money. When we invest using our feelings, and if it fails, the effect is much worse than if money fails us. 3. Know when to let go of a bad investment. If your investment is helping you to lose money instead of gaining money, ask if that investment is still worth keeping. Is this just a momentary dip? Or you foresee that the situation will simply go from bad to worse in the long term? Likewise, ask if that friend is worth keeping. If that friend has subtracted LU in your Love Bank, is that a momentary dip? Is that dip something you can sustain using your current assets? If not, drop that investment. Or worse - Do you foresee that he/she will continue to dip your account until you become emotionally bankrupt in the long term? If yes, drop that investment in that friend IMMEDIATELY. 4. What determines whether an investment is bad/good is the timing & season of that investment opportunity. Scenario 1: That particular friend may not be a wise investment at this point in my life, cos I don't qualify to make that investment based on my current capacity. If that investment requires $1 million, and I don't have $1 million, don't try to deceive myself to think that I have that $1 million just because I want that investment badly. We can only give out of what we HAVE, not what we Don't Have. Scenario 2: This friend may not be a good investment today, but may be a good investment tomorrow. Don't be narrow-minded. It pays to give others chances to see them transform. People change. ------------ I'm not an expert in investments, stocks and business. I'm like totally far from it. But it doesn't take a rocket scientist to realize that it's true. Of how we are doing investments everyday of our lives. To invest is to TRUST. I don't just put my trust in anyone, anyhow. I have a soul. I have emotions. I need to protect myself from getting hurt too. But when I hurt, I want to be able to depend on my other eggs in the basket. I want to find myself someone whom can help in that healing process. God is my ultimate healer. And God is probably the only investment I have put into that I know will never fail. Thank God for that. Labels: contemplative, revelation 4:04 PM
Thursday, March 12, 2009
Live I wonder....why do people insist on not changing anything if they were given a chance to live all over again? Those people were those who have got ardous, painful and tormenting pasts. Why? If i am given the chance to live my life all over again, i'm sure there are many things I would like to change. But how long have I lived and how long have THEY lived? They are probably twice or triple my age. Those people's lives whom I read about in newspapers. They have lived off most of their lifespan already encountering greater obstacles in life than I did, yet they wouldn't want to change anything if they could start life all over again. Don't you think it's strange? I can't quite comprehend it fully at my current age, according to my current share of personal history. I'm still too young to truly understand why. But i think i know why. You have never truly lived, until you have lived through a battle - and won. And when you have truly lived, you will find that you wouldn't exchange this lifetime for anything else in the world. We have one life to live. Live it well. Labels: contemplative, daily rantings 9:17 PM
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
Burdened. My spirit grieves. But God. 9:59 PM
Boys Before Flower Parody (Korean F4 parody) While waiting for the English subbed version of Korean drama "Boys before flowers" to come out (it still isn't out), I encountered the parodied version by a variety show called Infinity Challenge. It is super funny and entertained me while I wait for the sub. Haha! Boys before Flowers Parody (Part 4 of 6) Labels: daily rantings, information 2:24 AM
Monday, March 9, 2009
Be Mary I don't want to be Martha anymore! Labels: daily rantings, revelation 3:14 PM
Saturday, March 7, 2009
Part II: Of the news It's a great time to blog about the local news recently. Let's recap some of the interesting, if not shocking headlines: 1) NTU student attempts murder at his prof, then commited suicide by jumping 2) NUS exchange student from the US university died after alcohol 3) Glenn Ong and Jamie Yeo separated 4) SAF Doc found dead in Melbourne 5) Latest: NTU staff found hanged Of #1 and 5: My gut feeling tells me there's more to it than meets the eye. Especially after Chun Yew's sharing yesterday during testimony time, i think it reinforces my gut feelings on this issue. Of #2: I'm quite happy with how the school has dealt with this case. I sense great effort in the school being accountable to the student body. I really like the new president because of his vision for NUS and his willingness to tell the truth - that NUS must not be complacent, but we must move on to make NUS an Asian Global university. I like that phrase. Haha. Of #3: I'm very grieved in my spirit to see Glenn and Jamie split after a 4 year marriage. They are Christians and high-profile celebrities at least in the SG context. They have an influence over the people that hear and see them, whether they like it or not. While private life is by right a separate entity from public life, but the reality is that it's never possible for both to be mutually exclusive. I think I have a lot to say about their split, especially the mass media sensationalizing their relationship, calling Glenn Ong Singapore's Brad Pitt. (read: He splitted with Jennifer Aniston and married Angelina Jolie) I don't think that is a compliment at all. I wonder how the church members in Glenn and Jamie's church will respond to this news. Perhaps not outrightly, but inwardly as in attitudes & in mindset. It's no longer possible to say that the split is just between the couple, and whatever attitudes and emotions are confined to the couple alone. I hope reality strikes them because we live in an interconnected world. That is what God wanted for us - we make up the body of Christ. No one is an island. While I don't wish to see harsh criticisms coming down on them, I also don't wish to see people thinking that "As long as you have God's grace with you, it's okay". It is an abhorrence for ANYONE to think that God's grace will cover our sins without the need to TRULY repent. That speaks of lawlessness. That is the question of how sincere/genuine you are in your repentance. Or how seriously you take God for. A wishing well? A talisman? Garlic for vampires? Labels: daily rantings 1:37 PM
Part I: Of me I've been complaining about school work lately, and inside my head is just a mess thinking about all the deadlines i'm having over the next 2 weeks. 2 mid-term tests (social work + sociology), 1 news article presentation (sociology), 2 major project presentations (social work + construction tech), 2 practical tests (theatre studies). With group project comes project MEETINGS which takes up so much of my time.With it also comes researching, which takes up even more time. What do I have remaining for myself and my own revision? Peanuts. Gosh. i'm reminding myself again. i shouldn't. Anyway, i'm blogging to say that in times like this when i feel like i am not going to get through, i realized it is just a feeling, not the truth. Everytime i think that i'm going to die under the mountain pile of TTD, i always manage to survive in the end. So how is it different this time? No difference. i realized. So yeah. It's not going to kill me. I'm not going to be the next uni student commiting suicide or attempted murder. Yesterday during Cg, we were told to write down our fears and worries. This was what I wrote: "Not doing well in school despite putting in due effort. Fearing that I'm not able to survive the next 2 weeks." Then, JJ shared 2 Chronicles 20:20-22. He told us to write down our honest responses towards whatever we've written down before. This is what I wrote: "I'm feeling pensive, but I know I gotta give it a try. God has always brought me through anyway. I know I'll still survive." I am still blogging about school work in the end! Oh well. Part II: Of the news - Coming up. Labels: daily rantings 1:23 PM
Friday, March 6, 2009
Health screening + Acting Went for free health screening in school....feeling weak now though I quickly had my brunch after the checkup. I think the after-effect is both biological and psychological. Lol. I was really scared that I'd faint on the way to Subway for my brunch. Never felt like this before. Jialat. I didn't want to blog about school cos it's the last thing I wanna talk about for this week and the next few weeks. I'm dreading to check my schedule diary cos it's messy and filled with TTD - things to do. Stress at school is going from glory to glory. But I wanted to blog about the practical test for theatre studies this coming thurs! It's both exciting and a challenge for me. Not sure how I'll live up to the test. We are supposed to act out a scene from the play, Autumn Tomyam and judged according to our acting. The big challenge is to play someone NOT my age. I'll be playing the role of Marge, a career woman in her 40s. Oh gawd. How to do that convincingly when I've yet to live to that age! Acting is more cheem than I thought. it's not just reading out the lines of the character. I AM the character. I have to think, act, talk like Marge. I AM facing the complicated situation that she is in. Oh gawd. God help. Labels: daily rantings 12:40 PM
Thursday, March 5, 2009
Sleepless Town - the Musical  This was good. Went to watch it yesterday, managed to get Cheryl to go with me. It's a compulsory musical for my theatre studies module report. Julia Abueva is the female protagonist in the play, she is 14 years old in reel and real life. And she sings awesomely! The super young version of Lea Salonga. I tried to find for a youtube video of her singing, but didn't manage to find one as good as her singing in sleepless town musical. You must hear her live...she is wooohoo. FOUND ONE! :D The musical is a comedy; it ended with a positive and moralistic message despite 60% of the characters sputtering vulgarities thruout the musical and a few having vulgar names. Haha. Full of sexual innuendoes too. But they are definitely funny. and NC-16. Catch it if you can! It's worth the money. Labels: daily rantings 9:55 PM
Very Tired I'm very tired. Labels: daily rantings 1:28 AM
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