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Thursday, April 30, 2009

YES! I completed my BF today. Muahaha. 45minutes before the clock strikes 12 and become 1st of May. So proud of myself.

Actually with wiser spending and better discipline I could have finished it much earlier....so I have to learn to control more for the next BF.

Today after exams was watching "the Machine" DVD with the rest of my groupmates....something super embarrassing happened...it was really quiet in the room and I farted loudly! TWICE!

HAHAHAHAHAH! You know when something embarassing like that happens, you should really just laugh it off cos you cannot deny the fact that you farted. But I'm glad the people whom I revealed my disgusting side to are the peeps I'm really comfortable with being all zany. :) I love them! Anyway, noisy farts doesn't smell. The silent ones are the killer.

Fart fart fart. Yeah indeed...I haven't shown alot of peeps my disgusting side yet. Wahahhah. I always burp loudly after my meals at home too. And alot of other unglam things happen within the 4 walls of my home. Anyway I don't do them intentionally. Juz that if it ever happens out of my control, it would have to be with people I am comfortable with, or just with myself.

Anyhow, why are we embarrassed of doing something that is so natural? If we never fart and never burp, we will probably die of stomach or intestine burst or intoxication due to poisonous gases not passed out of our bodies. See, it is sociological once again. Norms that are socially constructed to view people doing things like these as deviant, labelling and stigmatizing them. Oh well.

After that, I went to Bugis National Library to continue mugging for Monday's paper. Needed a change of environment you see. It was conducive! And also because for dinner, I was supposed to meet Maoshun, Michelle, and Bing Xun @ TCC restaurant.

We has a good catch-up session over a very expensive but delicious dinner! Louis is working there and we went there to say hi and see him. Hahahah. Well, I was impressed with the food and service and ambience! I thought TCC is just another Starbucks or Coffeebean...but it turns out to serve pretty good food, not just coffee! Albeit pricier menu. I'll go back there again some time. When I have more money. LOL.

Am in the comfort of home now...feeling so much more relaxed. :)

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11:26 PM


woohoo 4th paper is OVER.

Something amazing about NUS exams is that you will never really know whether you've done well or not. Not a tiny inkling. It leaves you with this ambiguity that cause you to feel insecure all the way until you receive the results.

So I shan't even think about it cos I will never be able to guess how I will fare.

That aside, I'm super happy that my faculty module exams are all over! My last paper is Theatre Studies this coming monday afternoon.

Btw, I was late for exams today due to the massive jam from home until AYE. My dad drove another route but still there was some jam....which is really frustrating cos ERP isn't doing its work well! Argh. Anyway, thank God the paper started 10 minutes late...I came in just in time. I guess my lecturer was nice enough to wait due to the rain or maybe he knew about the massive jam. Whatever it is, God is good! :)

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11:34 AM

Wednesday, April 29, 2009

1. I hate my course
2. I've tried to like it, but I still hate it after all these years
3. No matter what, I still continue to force myself to give my best even if I hate it.
4. If I had a second chance, I would never choose to do my course.

I'm so looking forward to tomorrow, cos my TS groupmates are going to study together for our final exam. That's something I look forward to. But I'm hating the 12 hours from now till tmr 9am, when I'm going to take my exam on Facilities planning and Design. a course within my faculty....sigh. I hate it.

What do you do when you have tried your very best to change your mindset about something, but in the end you still fail? Can i be allowed to say that I really hate what I'm doing without feeling guilty about being honest about my own feelings.

It's ok....1 more year and I'm done with NUS.

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8:27 PM

Monday, April 27, 2009

Actually it feels good to clear 2 papers on the first day. But it will feel even better if I have ample time to revise such that I feel 100% prepared for both papers. Haha....but that has never happened since the day I stepped into uni life...uni life is so different. Or maybe I simply didn't work hard enough. Or maybe....*****

No point yada yadaing about the same old thing so I'll just replace those stuff with asterisks.

I'm having a 9am paper tomorrow so I am staying in the library overnight to mug. Maybe I'll see Wonder Woman tonight? Hahaha how I wish! If really got weird stuff tonight, I promise to videocamera it.

Brought alot of barangs to school today all because of 1 open book test and tomorrow morning's test is also open book. Heavy can. My shoulder going to break soon!

Taking time out to rest now...it's probaby a 3 hour nap later, then quick dinner, drink coffee, then mug through the night.

Raise your pom poms for me.

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5:13 PM

Sunday, April 26, 2009

Wonder Girls "Nobody" MV

This song has grown on me...now I'm super addicted to it. It was introduced to me by Francine. At first i thought it sounded really bumpkin...but now I think it's a nice song to have in my head while studying. Haha.

This is a Korean Policeman dancing to the song...he's got all the dance steps perfectly correct. Kudos to him for trying and being so free!

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2:39 AM

Saturday, April 25, 2009

While I mug for exams, leaving you with some eye treats. Too good not to be shared!




Too bad I wasn't there mugging at 1.30am. I guess it's a good stress relief for all those students there. NUS is seriously a muggers institution. Can't help but to conform. Sigh. Such dumb surprises are welcomed.

Heard they've got an appearance from Batman too! Lol. Haven't found a Youtube video on that one though. :p


BTW, SUN is on FB too!!! Add her @ www.sun-ho.com/facebook

Spread the word around! :)

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6:47 PM

Thursday, April 23, 2009

I can't sleep. Must be the coffee and hot choc this afternoon. ARGH!

Anyway, I might as well take the chance to complete the post on Relishing, since I realized there are a few more people I should express my gratitude to other than the cast, director and stage crew.

1. Shirin's husband Heng, who came down with her on one Saturday to school to assist in our rehearsals in whatever ways he could. Oh! Btw I found out from Shirin after the Thai Express celebration that he is a primary school teacher. Heeheehee!

2. Shirin's friend, who is obviously experienced as a director of hugely successful plays, who came down and help to see our full-dress rehearsal today and give us constructive feedback. She is REALLY good, I tell you. The most important thing is she so humble in attitude and so willing to give good suggestions. Without any hidden agendas. That's amazingly rare to find. I think true theatre persons (not the wannabes) are those that are genuinely down-to-earth and humble. And to think I still don't know her name! :(

3. Ms Nora Samosir for clarity in her teaching style during our practical tutorials. She is an effective communicator. Love her! And despite her strict demeanor, beneath lies a friendly and approachable personality that makes it difficult for us to call her our 'teacher'. But once the strict demeanor is up and about, we wouldn't have any question that she is our teacher la. Hahaha.

4. Our fellow practical tutorial groupmates! Although we are broken up into 3 different groupings for this final practical exam, I am still very much appreciative of the times when we worked together for mini-practical sessions such as the Cockroach Opera and Autumn Tomyam. Not to mention mass class physical workout sessions! Practicals have been fun, fun, fun! PE lessons all the way man. Hope we can still keep in touch after exams and after the semester is over. :')

Have been gushing too much. Should moderate a bit. Hahaha. In facebook even worse. Looking at all the comments on photos, my groupmates (and myself) are obviously still living in the Communist fantasy world of Fanshen...sigh.

God is good. :)

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2:18 AM


I've allowed myself the whole of tonight to relish in our successful staging of Fanshen, Section 10 Scene 1 to 3 for our practical exam. It is coming to an end as I'm going to bed soon and a new day is coming.

MUG TIME!!!!!

After a blast at performing for practical exam today, we let our hairs down and went Thai Express for celebration. Woohoo. All photos available for viewing at Facebook.com

I cannot thank enough Francine's army friend who came down to help as lighting guy and stage crew members. Lighting is the most stressful of all, because of the different combinations of light cues even within a 15-minute scene. Although the outcome wasn't perfect, it was already more than we could ask for. Kelvin came in just for 1 rehearsal to familiarize himself with all the lightings, then today is the real thing already. We had 2 light cue mistakes, but that is considered very good already!!! If i was in his shoes, I'd probably gabbrah alot of times. That's probably why I am acting instead! Hehe.

I went home and washed my hair thoroughly. Cos my dear husband Wen-Te blew his cigarette smoke into my hair. It is part of the scene, when he is trying to disturb me and get my attention.

Thank God Nora (our practical teacher AND examiner) allowed us to light a cigarette in the LT! We were afraid it would sound the fire alarm or something, which happened the day before while rehearsing at another venue AS7. That was a false fire alarm due to fire drill. We were joking that if we're not allowed to smoke in the LT, and if we do light the cigarette, it will be de-ja vu. Wahahaha.

The second disgusting thing is Wen-Te sharing a chewing gum with his father, Yu-Lai. GROSS to the max can. But they really literally shared the gum, spit on the floor, then put back into the mouth again, and finally spat it out again.

I CAN NEVER DO THAT!!! Unless you give me 10 years to prepare myself pyschologically.

Kudos to Praveen and Deming for being so professional although it's just a level 1000 module!!

I LOVE MY PROJECT GROUPMATES. They rock.

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12:26 AM

Sunday, April 19, 2009

Going to sleep after blogging and wake up at 5am to study! Super tired today.

Had a great time eating at Roland Seafood Restaurant with VIC and YK Zone. The game was very fun! We almost won...so sad.

The food was okay only...but I had issues with the location! Why is the restaurant located at the top of the carpark? It's so funny...not very accessible except by ONE lift and stairs. hello it's at the 6th level. T_T

Omgosh I must update about laughing uncontrollaby at the live band singer's singing! before all the food arrived he was singing this rock song and he used the gruff voice technique throughout the whole song. It sounded super constipated....sorry for being so mean. but i really couldn't stop myself from laughing even till now. It was so bad that I hid in the toilet to finish laughing and until the song ended. =X

Anyway, I took a photo with WING together with Jiasin!!!!! happy. :D I really love his first and last song. His compositions are so unique. I love it.

And after that, we went to get some swensens at Parkway Parade. Was full. Wanted to take the shuttle bus to Seng Kang and back home...too bad we missed it and had to take public bus instead. Leonard, Weiling and myself slept through the entire journey! That tired!

Adios.

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10:02 PM


I had the privilege of having dinner at Terminal 2's Crystal Jade with my family and relatives due to a baby's first month. Unfortunately, I did not enjoy it because I was suffering from super alot of wind in my stomach. Kept burping non-stop and farting (silently and stealthily, smell-less) but still couldn't get rid of the wind inside my stomach! I forced down the food cos it's not nice to have too much left-overs as a guest over there.

I'm wondering - did I suffer from gastric? I've never had gastric before and I don't know how it feels like. My stomach was simply bloated with alot of hard-to-release gasses. Recently however, I realize my stomach condition is not very stable. Whenever I drink coffee, I tend to diorrhea. Prolly my body couldn't take the level of caffeine. But i learnt another lesson this morning not to drink coffee with an empty stomach. I did that today and my friend lectured me. Hahaha.

That aside, I had a blast rehearsing Fanshen! The rest of my groupmates also felt the same way. It was tiring though, especially after lunch. Our energy level deteoriated rapidly after our meal and we couldn't give our beloved director (Shirin our groupmate, who is the 27 year old mum I mentioned) the energy level she wanted. But we went through the scenes anyway, just for us to familiarize with the cues and timing and coordination of things. Which proved to be useful.

Her husband Heng came along too. He helped us alot by seeing our performance through the eyes of the audience and giving constructive ideas to help our team performance improve. I tried asking him what does he do for a living but he gave a really vague answer. Lol. And I decided not to question further cos I didn't want to appear nosey. :p He was pretty impressive in giving us ideas, so i reckoned he might also be a theatre person.

We started practice at 830am and ended at 3pm. Woohoo we are really hardworkers. We went through many rounds of rehearsals. I'm glad we did, everything grew tighter by each round. I feel more confident and secure by the time we reached the last round for the day. And now, I can't wait to perform during the exam this coming Wednesday! :D

How I wished it will be video-taped on Wed. It would be a very good memory of my days in NUS. Although this module demand high commitment in terms of time and effort, it really depends on the way one sees it. To me, I treat theatre studies practical classes as the equivalent of PE or Music lessons in secondary school. It's a sojourn from the hectic school lifestyle. :)

I feel that God has really been on our side! My team members are Deming, Praveen, Francine, Janice, Shirin and myself. We easily got manpower as lighting and stage crew when we needed them. All thanks to Francine. =) They are all so loyal to her la. All her army guy friends that just came out of army. Machiam gang right. Haha....

Also, when we need important props, they are available without needing to spend a lot of money and we could find them with relative ease. I bought the cheena gu-niang shoes for only $5, lobang by Janice who got it at Kovan food market, which is near her house!

I must say that Shirin is really good at directing. She is working part-time for Speech and Drama with primary schools. Although sometimes I feel like we are progressing too slowly, spending too much time talking about theoretical issues especially with such limited time, I realized I might have been too impatient and overlooked the importance of allowing actors to understand their roles. Most importantly, to understand the motivation behind each line that's being spoken. Otherwise, it will come out as really fake and unconvincing.

We might be the only group that chose to do this communist play. We have been asking around what the other groups are doing. All 6 of us realized none of the groups we know are doing Fanshen!! Which is good. We can stand out. Hahaha. The others are doing "Where Love Abides" by Raymond Toh, and "Fire and the Rain" by Karnad Girish. Most are doing the first one. Fanshen is a play written by David Hare, and I believe that my group is performing it very well in terms of skills and the aesthetic. :)

My character is Hsien-E as introduced previously, a teenage wife bullied by her teenage husband with a rogue father-in-law who used to be a high official. In the scene chosen by my team to perform, I am presenting my case to the officer about the abuse I suffered and most importantly, wanting to divorce my husband, Wen-Te. But in the end, I failed in my case.

If you're asking about the whole point of the play, it is to show how useless, futile and pointless the whole accusatory system of communism was. At the end of the play, having the characters go through hell and sufferings, yet nothing is changed. Everything is still back to square one. Quite silly huh? It is the playwright trying to show communism as a social tragedy. That's the main point.

I've written alot this time and in detail, cos I really enjoyed my day today though everyone complained about being so drained out after rehearsals. We've never experienced such intense draining of energy after acting! It really requires stamina....respect to all serious actors out there.

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12:20 AM

Saturday, April 18, 2009

Today at cell group, JJ talked about John 21:17.

Jn 21:17
The third time he said to him, "Simon son of John, do you love me?"
Peter was hurt because Jesus asked him the third time, "Do you love me?"
He said, "Lord, you know all things; you know that I love you."

I realized how enormous the subtext was behind Peter's 3rd response. You know like how you can be saying 1 simple sentence, but behind that sentence there is alot of things unspoken....but your friend, your bestest best friend, can understand those things that are unspoken behind your words. Peter and Jesus have got to be really connected spirit to spirit to have done that. I believe it was like this.

Lord, you know all things;
From the day I began fishing men and wholly follow you, you knew me.
You knew everything that is in my heart and mind, and you corrected me when I was in the wrong.
You knew that I have always esteemed you not just as a great teacher or a great friend.
You are Christ - just as the Holy Spirit has revealed to me.
And because you know all things, you also knew I succumbed to persecutions and sinned against you.
When your words came true - I have indeed denied you 3 times when the cock crowed 3 times - you knew it dawned upon me how foolish I am.
And even till now, I am grieving over my foolish action. You know it.
I genuinely repent and desire your forgiveness to such a grave sin.
So please Lord, forgive me. And restore me.
Because...though I have hurt you deeply, the deepest part of me truly loves you.
And you know that I do, Lord, because you know all things.
You know that I love you.

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12:41 AM

Thursday, April 16, 2009

I'm going back to school almost everyday. Sianz.

But actually it's good to go back to school, as I get more studying done over there than at home...my bed....the ultimate tempter.

Planning to study overnight tomorrow. Cos saturday has acting rehearsal and my group will be meeting at 8am! Super early...but maybe I'll not stay overnight. Cos it means i'll have to bring loads of props and costume for the full-dress rehearsal! I'll think about it again.

I really need to let it all go on stage. All the emo-ness I can feel in the character. It's pretty tough this time. The play "Fanshen" is set in a pre-Mao communist era. We chose this out of 3 plays because we thought we all had a good idea of what communism is. Only to find ourselves in an ironic situation of finding it a challenge to portray the characters as they are, cos we don't know enough about communism! Well done! -.-

But I still think it's a very fun module. I'm enjoying it although I'm complaining. Heehee. Basically my character in the play is Hsien-E, the wife who suffers from starvation, physical abuse from husband and rape from father-in-law. SIGH. You can imagine why I'm chosen - the one and only reason, cos I'm the one and only member in the group that look starved! And fragile. BUT I'M NOT. And that's the challenge for me. Hate to act as vulnerable characters.....but I guess it's time to confront that and be professional about things. Afterall, it's 20% of my final grade! I'll do anything. ANYTHING.

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11:51 PM

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

Facebook is maddening. I think it is slowing down....or maybe it's my computer. Anyway I shan't access FB for now. After blogging I have to finalize my part for the project that is giving me so much headache over the past few weeks! Thank God it's going to be over by tomorrow.

I had a great time this evening after rehearsing with my theatre studies group mates Janice and Francine. I think we had a great time together talking about KOREAN DRAMAS!!! Hahahaha. I have finally found friends that are crazy about K dramas and know as many dramas as I do. Or more! Lol. I can finally find someone that I can swoon about this hot Korean guy or that pretty Korean girl. Heh heh heh. I'm so happy! :D

Other than that I think we spent quality time together knowing each other more. I really like my group! They are all so cool.

Actually we were also commenting (okay, it was me who started this conversation topic :p) that our practical class is very diverse. We are a quirky class. We have a SNAG (sensitive new age guy), a party boy, a guy who wears really cool headgear (beanies, caps, hats), a guy who is super built and dresses sharply, 2 girls that has the knack for performing as though they came out straight from Speech and Drama classes, a girl that is super crazy over our tutorial lecturer, and many more!

OH. Got one is ultimate. After being classmates with her for so long, I didn't know that she is:
#1) 27 years old because she looks younger than me and her skin is superb
#2) she is married
#3) SHE HAS A KID!!!!!!

Mouth opens wide. A huge revelation today.

Me, Francine and Janice are considered the normal ones. Hahaha. Ok la, a bit more than normal actually. We are funny peeps. :)

I will miss all of them when the semester is over. :( Imagine a 3 months break from school! I'd love it, but I'd miss my friends too. We shld really meet up after exams. True friends are hard to find.

Oh btw, I got an A+ for one of the theatre studies assignment. Tutor said he marked leniently. I could understand why. Hurhur. But I'm still shocked. I thought I would have written out of point. Who would know that part which I thought sure out of point is the part where the tutor used as example for good analysis writing for the class. O.o Must be the grace of God....His grace has been abundant upon me this semester, my busiest semester ever. God is good!

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11:53 PM

Monday, April 13, 2009

I read Lynn's post and I'm so provoked. Thank you for the post on The International M Enterprise bank!

The International Mercantile Enterprise Bank
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Imagine there is a bank that credits your account each morning with $86,400.00.
It carries over no balance from day to day.
Every evening the bank deletes whatever part of the balance you failed to use during the day. What would you do? Draw out every cent, of course!
Each of us has such a bank. The International Mercantile Enterprise Bank.
It is commonly known as TIME. Every morning, it credits you with 86,400 seconds.
Every night it writes off, as lost, whatever of this you have failed to invest to good purpose.
It carries over no balance. It allows no overdraft. Each day it opens a new account for you.
Each night it burns the remains of the day. If you fail to use the day's deposits, the loss is yours.
There is no going back. There is no drawing against the"tomorrow".
You must live in the present on today's deposits.
Invest it so as to get from it the utmost in health, happiness, and success! The clock is running. Make the most of today.

Why was I provoked? Because I have a bad habit of procrastinating! Yes, I'm going to be more disciplined. I've failed many times, but it's not stopping me from trying to do what is good for me!

This is in line with my discipline with finances. I decided to do something about my attitude on spending.

Do you know that Yumi of By2 (younger sister) has a habit of keeping an accounts book, when she records down every single item she has spent her money on? So she knows where she has spent every single cent. And how old is she? 17! I'm provoked!

If I am compared to her now, I really cannot make it. -.-

I haven't been spending much lately because I need to fulfil BF above all else. But what happens after BF? Does that give me a reason to start spending loosely once again? I want and need to rectify my spending attitude.

A very very advantageous point about keeping an expenditure book is that....if buying too many items cause me to be frustrated because of the need to update the book religiously and laboriously, then I will be tempted to spend less frequently! Ingenius. :D

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10:21 PM

Sunday, April 12, 2009

Peace. Calm. Peace. Calm. Peace. Calm. Peace.

God, take away these negative emotions. Why am I so easily offended.

test.

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I really enjoyed The Final Solution by the Easter drama production team. I enjoyed it so much because I've studied drama this semester and through the eyes of theatre theories, it is a very successful play. :)

Everything that is played on stage has 1 common purpose - to bring ONE message across. That Christ is alive and we all have hope despite going through a hopeless situation. Whereas the past productions (this is just my opinion), there are alot of comical song & dance scenes that are no doubt good to laugh at, but they in itself has no other purpose except to entertain. It doesn't contribute to the main message, and in the process may lose the audience's focus on what they should focus upon.

I think it's great also because the play opens our eyes to the ugly side of reality, full swing we see it in the play with the character of Carmen and her dad's secretary. How many times we hope that God can just make everything seem straight, correct every wrong doing. But He doesn't just rectify everything in a whim, because we make the choice ourselves.

The message is so impactful through The Final Solution. I love it. I saw the invitation card on my Theatre Studies Lecturer desk when my group went in for consultation. No it isn't me who invited him...although after seeing that invitation card on his table, it made me wonder if I could have done that. It's amazing how far we are reaching out this Easter.

Pastor preached the same message on Friday 5.30pm service. Haha. But it's not entirely the same. Elim Chew was sitting right behind Weijie. Weijie was sitting beside me. Haha. When Pastor was talking about Elim Chew and 77th Street, the whole row of us N119 were smiling to ourselves. And when Pastor mentioned he is praying that Elim who is single will find someone soon (along that line) we were all chuckling. Hahaha. And Weijie was shocked when I told him Elim was sitting right behind him! :p

That's my Easter 2009. Loved it....it's time to work hard again! MUG.

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11:52 PM


What if......

You wake up one day realizing you are no longer the daughter of the family you've know for 20 years?

The secret past hidden from your knowledge...should have remained in darkness.

But during your 21st birthday, a mysterious box was air-freight to you. It contained momentos collected across 5 continents - A baseball cap from South Africa, perfume from France, postcards of the beautiful Alps in Switzerland and Japan's Mount Fuji, a Mexican hat, Korean yin-yang fan, and a surfboard keychain that says 'Surfers' Paradise'.

Your parents have decided to tell you the truth, in front of big brother and your very closest aunts and uncles. In a cramp but cosy apartment that you have called home for the past 21 years.

The truth is brought to light. "Whether you want to accept the truth and return to your real biological family, or decide to continue living with us - is entirely up to you. You are now master of your own fate." Proclaimed mama and papa.

A decision? To be made....by myself? Independently?

Can I...decide...to live in denial that all these didn't really happen?...

I am the decision maker now. And I rather not have to face all of these.

Allow me...to stay in this state of liminality. Limbo. Please.

. . .

Listening to my brother playing the works of Chopin on the piano.
Echoing. The beautiful sound of Chopin echoing through the entire apartment block. The water of the swimming pool below distills a certain tranquillity, cooling the hot churning of my heart.

The next day comes. Everything returns to normal, or so it seems. Has it been just a dream?
I've prayed so hard that night for it to just be a dream, a joke, or an illusion. Did God really answer my prayer?

What a gorgeous Sunday morning! 8am till 8.30am. The warmth of sunshine penetrates the cool air.
Just like any other Sunday mornings my family would spend together.
Ate toasted bread for breakfast. With butter and scrambled eggs.
On the family dinner table. Mama. Papa. Big brother. And the maid.
Discussing how similar Papa and I are, and how Mama and brother are.

Smiling.


..............


I think music really has an effect on our sleep. My brother was practising Chopin, when I took a nap at my grandma's place. I found it so difficult to pull myself out of this dream and into consciousness. Because I had to take my dinner.

But I am still thinking of my dream.

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9:36 PM

Saturday, April 11, 2009

Just wanted to share this MIDI composed during last semester for my science of music module. I thought it's a pretty cool composition...i'm proud of my own work. hahaha. the volume may be problematic throughout the song, cos when i was composing it i couldn't solve the problem. nevertheless, enjoy. :)

For those discerning ones, you will realize it is the tune of "Eternity" which I had composed on the piano a long long time ago. :)

http://www.box.net/shared/9f8gf05xim

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9:37 PM

Friday, April 10, 2009

Easter drama was great! Attended it with T3. After that had a great time of dinner fellowship with Elly, Weiling and Huizhen at Bedok food market. :)

We had: Rojak (say grace already so by faith the food is ok :p), Zui Kueh (YUM3), Egg with Oyster that look like fish eyes! Fwahaha. Love Elly's imagination. And I had my bowl of PONTIAN NOODLES!!!

We wanted to have Ban Li...I was soooo looking forward to it. Cos everytime I'm at Bedok wanting to eat that, the store doesn't open. Now that it's open, we are too full to squeeze in the Ban Li dessert! Sigh. No fate.

I shldn't have bought the rojak. Waste stomach space. But anyway, I bought it to confront my unfounded fear of 'rojak scare'...I'm sure after the food poisoning cases due to rojak at Geylang Serai, many people are "boycotting" rojak in general for fear that rojak in other places are poisoned as well.

But I think that's irrational. And I want to confront it. The aunty that delivered the plate of rojak kept saying "thank you" like 3 or 4 times when exchanging money. Lol. Maybe business have been bad ever since the food poisoning scare. =p

In my opinion, fearing makes more sense if we are talking about food in Geylang Serai area, where the incidents occurred. I'd probably refrain from eating in Geylang Serai because the food poisoning is most likely due to the bad hygiene conditions found in that place. I don't frequent there anyway. So yeap, I'd say keep away from Geylang Serai for a while until the authorities clean up the place entirely.

Anyway I'm quite glad that such an issue is raised up. The alarm should be sounded as soon as smth like that happen. Afterall, eating out in food courts and markets are the usual practice for most Singaporeans....hygiene standards must be kept up no matter what. It concerns the lives of many Singaporeans.

Okie doke. I'm feeling really satisfied after the drama and dinner. :) I'm going to watch it one more time on Sunday 10am! This time, I'm watching it with my cell group. It's gonna be fun!

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11:32 PM

Thursday, April 9, 2009

I don't feel like blogging leh. But I shall.

It's Easter! Yippee. I didn't know Good Friday is called 受难日 = day of suffering。i always thought it was called 复活节 = resurrection day. hahaha. well, at least it shows i'm an optimistic person! lol. It's like the half-full or half-empty thing.

Recently alot of funny things happen on other people or on myself. Cracks a smile on my face whenever I think of those incidents...haha....sometimes, being a bit blur can also be entertaining. =p Most importantly, having a cheerful vibe helps!

I checked out Ocean Butterflies' Music Forest Vocal Class (Shhh....) and it is $170 per month, 4 lessons. 1.5h per lesson. And the entire basic course last 7 months, group class. I've been itching to take up vocal and dance classes for a super duper long long long time. But i haven't got around it at all! I hope to do so....earliest in late July or August. As for dance, I'm going to take it up as soon as I come back from Vietnam. I hope my financial situation allows me to do that.

As I'm taking my violin exam in July (exact date still unknown), I'm thinking of either stopping for 7 months so that I can concentrate on vocal and dance classes. But I shouldn't stop violin lessons because I should do my grade 8 and finish off the entire ABRSM music syllabus. But it ain't gonna be easy! Prolly need at least 1.5years to prepare for the grade 8 exam. Sigh. DECISIONS!

Basically, I hope to do what I wanna do before I enter the workforce, for I fear lack of time to pursue my burning interests in future.

Anyway I finally exercised after 3 whole weeks! Swam about 10laps for 1 hour with T3. Was panting after my first lap. :p Jialat!

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11:17 PM

Wednesday, April 8, 2009

Collection of Books

God and the Ancient Chinese [LOANED]

God's promise to the Chinese

Making Connections that Work - A biblical guide to building and maintaining godly rnshps

Art of Distinction (Robb Thompson)

The Ultimate Reference Guide to Increase(Robb Thompson)

Anointed for Business (Ed Silvoso)

The power of simple prayer (Joyce Meyer) [LOANED]

Moving in the spirit (Phil Pringle)

Leadership Excellence (Phil Pringle) [LOANED]

Jesse, found in Heaven (Chris Pringle)

The Anointing (Benny Hinn)

Happiness is... (AR Bernard)

Becoming a contagious Christian (Bill Hybels/Mark Mittelberg) [LOANED]

The power of a Praying Woman (Stormie Omartian) [I'm currently reading this :)]

Collection of CDs

This is our God, Hillsong Live CD + DVD (2008)

Jesus Is, Hillsong London CD+DVD (2006)

United We Stand, Hillsong United CD+DVD (2006)

Pick it Up, Planetshakers CD (2006)

Roadmaps and Revelations, Parachute Band (2007)

Better Days, Sidney Mohede (2008)

Captivated, True Worshippers (2007)

For Your Glory, CCC aka C3 (CD + DVD)

Presence, CCC Live DVD (2005)

Sari 31:31 (2006) By Sari Simorangkir

Hiding Place Platinum Edition, Don Moen (2007)

Light of the City, CHC (2008)

Breakaway, CHC (2007)

Cross, CHC (2005)

He Reigns, Newsboys (2005)

Collection of Sermon mp3

Why Tongues? CD (Kong Hee)

Growing Spiritually at work CD (Kong Hee)

Jesus and the DaVinci Code CD (Mark Conner)

Driven By Eternity 6CDs (John Bevere)

Treasure in Earthen Vessel & Spiritual Disciplines 2CDs (AR Bernard)

Empowered Living CD (AR Bernard)

1. Intimacy with the Holy Spirit 2. Your redemptive value in God 3. Reputation - The revelation of your life's capital

Chasing Donkeys, Business breakthru series CD (AR Bernard)

5 Common Qualities of successful people, Business breakthru series CD (AR Bernard)

Fivefold Ministry - Pitfalls of the 5fold ministry 2CDs (Kong Hee)

Leadership Conference part I with Phil Pringle 6CDs

Leadership Conference part II with Phil Pringle 6CDs

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9:17 PM

Monday, April 6, 2009

I'm looking forward to:

1. Vietnam Trip
2. O School Dance Workshop (i've been thinking about this like crazy! Lyrical HH + Locking!)
3. Vocal Lessons
4. Developing the habit of taking lots and lots of pictures with my dusty camera!
5. Hanging out with all my girlfriends, old classmates, relatives, family!

:) :) :)

So do your best for the exams!



Album: Lu (Sixology) 陆 - Lin Jun Jie 林俊杰

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7:01 PM


I thank the Lord I'm no longer a people pleaser today. I am a God pleaser.

I no longer find myself going through chemotherapy, but through the healing hands of God, I am redeemed, cleansed from dirt and now undergoing the refining process.

But still, God gave each of us a unique personality. And therefore, I want to find out who I am.

Is it really so important to find that out? How meaningful is this search process?

Sigh. I don't know. But one thing I do know. We cannot go about life aimlessly, blur and confused. Otherwise, how is that different from taking drugs which dulls our sense of reality or being drunk with alcohol? Thus, there's a big need to be aware of where I am right here, right now. Every now and then, I self-evaluate.

I am also aware that there is too many things in life to pay attention to every single one of them. Some things don't reveal truth unless through time. And therefore, wanting to be aware of everything here and now may simply be utopical.

But still, I try. And treat those things that will only reveal truth through time as a challenge towards my ability to manage risk/unanticipated endings. And i believe it to be good and godly. For we are called to go through trials and periods of uncertainty....with the sole aim of making us stronger on the inside. I'm an avid supporter of this notion.

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1:18 PM


People around me are growing. Their sturdy growth reminds me that I must also continue to grow. My gratitude to those whom I call friends, who are there always as a form of challenge.

Things around me are changing. As we know it, change is the only constant. The volatility of circumstances reminds me never to get comfortable with what I possess. My gratitude to societal progression, which allows me to humble myself...so that I'll never think of myself as a smartass. If I do, I'm more of a dumbass....

I feel that so much of me is being shaped by people and things, apart from God. To the point that I need to ask myself from time to time - who AM i? From time to time, I realize I need to find back who I was at the beginning, piece it together with who I am now, and find a resolution in between both who I WAS and who I AM.

The resolution - or the end result - would be who I really am now. And it will be subject to changes once again, as my character goes through the refining process by God, people, and things.

I am sure I'm not alone in this. Grappling with identity of self: self-worth, self-esteem, self-image. But how do I define "beginning" in the first place? That's a tricky question I've yet to find an answer to. Perhaps it is too fluid a concept.

But to me, I still have to start somewhere. Somewhere that I can call the beginning. And I feel that it is when I was in primary school. I felt the truest to myself during my primary school years, no matter how much I look back today and think of myself as a horrible, shameful kid that didn't know how high the heavens or how deep the earth was.

In primary school, I was vulgar, violent, rough, ill-disciplined, a cheater-bug, and a liar. But I was also loyal to my close friends, trustworthy, fun-loving, bold, confident, unashamed of failure, close to my parents. Through time, I felt BOTH my strengths and weaknesses in my childhood disappear completely....and I morphed into another person altogether by the time I entered secondary school.

No doubt I was positively transformed into a girl that met social expectations of a diligent, reserved, polite kid with musical talents and athletic inclination. I seem almost perfect on the outside, albeit a little quiet and introverted. But that was typical of a traditional Chinese, I thought. My transformation makes people happy about me. I thought. And therefore, my transformation is a good thing.

Really?

I have always questioned this part of my personal history. My answer now would be Yes and No.
While it's good that I eliminate the bad parts of my character, I eliminated the good parts as well. Another way to put it is assuming a totally different identity...wanting to be Barbie in order to please people and redeem myself from being so imperfect. It's like going through chemotherapy...both the cancer and good cells get destroyed at the same time.


Sigh.

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12:36 PM


Blessed is the man who perseveres under trial, because when he has stood the test, he will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those who love him.

James 1:12 (NIV)

This quote appears in front of me each day as I sit at my desk. =) I really like this calendar I bought from Attributes in the end of 2008. Each month has a new quote that appears in front of me. And I'm constantly encouraged because of the bible verses on the calendar.

And now, i'm going to force myself into doing school work. Turning 180 degrees away from temptation of the flesh to slack!

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I'll share more when I'm ready... =)

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12:15 PM

Sunday, April 5, 2009

Recently I feel that sleeping is a waste of time...though I know it must be adequate for one's health. But the problem is...even if I try to get my full 8 hrs of sleep, which is biologically the standard of adequacy, I cannot do it. It's just impossile with my current schedule. Having established that - so what's the point of sleeping? Lack of 1 hour of sleep means need to replace it with 3hours, it has been proven, in order to restore adequate sleep. It's so utopical!

Might as well cut down on sleep to the bare minimum then, and just totally forget and give up on trying to have enough sleep. It's just not possible (or hardly possible) with the kind of urban city life we are living today. And it's expected to get worse as we progress forward. So what's the point?

Having all sorts of warped ideas now. tsktsk.

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11:58 PM

Saturday, April 4, 2009


There! Isn't it lovely!
We broke the Singapore Record of the most number of coins to build a coin house. Yay!
I really think that the VNC (Vietnamese Community) is very creative, dynamic, fun and can work well together. It has been a fun time with them so far. =)

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11:18 PM


Run towards God. Press in. It is your job, not God's.

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2:04 AM


[Random] I was bathing and there was this pool of bubbles on the water that took the shape of Singapore! Cool or what! Hahaha. I stared at it until it became out of shape. =)

I cut my hair today! I like my hairstyle. Hee.

After haircut, I peeked at Iluma. Heh. the new shopping mall beside Bugis Village. 50% of the shops yet to open. They've got a huge coffee bean at the 2nd level though. Cool. I identified TWO shops that is so my style and I'm going to pay them a visit once BF is paid off! Muahaha.
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Okay, so here I am at 1.40am, sleepy and worn out. But I had a rolling good time at CG!

I really enjoyed CGM today. We all sat in a circle on chairs. It's remarkable how we are so willing to be openly appreciative...I have never seen this before in N119. Haha. but I guess when a person truly feels the love and appreciation, he/she won't hesitate to express it in return. I believe that is what happened tonight. Hmmm. =)

I don't know what to say...except that I'm so thankful for each and every person in the CG. Maybe it's "wrong" of me, if I may put it this way for now, to not openly thank certain special people (to me) in the cell group. But to me, every single one is precious no matter whether I'm close to them or not. And for me to thank every single person is going to be quite time-consuming...I thought...so I didn't in the end. Hmmm.

But I pray, let my actions during the mundane everyday life say it all. I want to be a person of thankfulness. I want to make the effort to reciprocate every good deed towards me promptly. I want to show people that I value them.

One thing I learn is that I'm not perfect...and I'm glad to be molded by God. It's a learning journey and I want to enjoy it. =)

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1:39 AM

Friday, April 3, 2009

I'm provoked.
I need to have a more happening lifestyle!!!

I should go ahead and pursue whatever interests I have, especially if it is to do with the arts....I don't know how, since I'm feeling so tied up already. but if other people can do it, why can't I?!?!

Oh yes I can! >:))))



Recently, I've got this thought that if I could choose all over again, I'd probably choose to major in theatre studies in NUS. I think i've got the knack for it man. Totally. This module I'm taking have allowed me to say that I can be a pretty good set designer. Wahaha. And actor too.

I never knew such a major existed. Neither do I know whether it has a 'future'. So I'm stuck in a course I'm not really enjoying doing now...but it's no doubt that the job prospects would probably be better upon grad from my course...but at this stage of my life, I prefer to go with my heart rather than rationality when comes to CAREER finding. Not that rationality is bad. I just need to balance up a bit more with the 'heart' factor. I am a victim of social constructivism. This is BAD. Sigh....

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I've got a testimony to share! I got B+ for my sociology term paper. PTL MAN! I never thought I would pass that paper, don't even talk about getting a B+ for it!

God is amazing! As i've mentioned, I feel like I'm living in God's bubble over the past 2 weeks. There is protection upon my life. and I believe it doesn't just come without a reason....it has to be because God is pleased with me (thank you Jesus!). If not, why leh???

And. perhaps...I'm going to face a larger obstacle from now onwards. Prolly that's why God is assuring me of His presence, power and anointing upon my life. I got to prepare and equip myself mentally and spiritually. This is so important....not to be complacent.

Waging a war! And I'm winning with God on my side. =) Need more of Him to conquer more terrains.

With obstacles come greater breakthroughs. With greater breakthroughs come even greater obstacles. And the cycle goes on....until we are perfected in Christ Jesus.

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12:34 AM

Thursday, April 2, 2009

I'm having alot of headache over this particular module project...it's not helping that submission is in 2 weeks' time, and submission date is so near to exams.

This semester makes me realize that what i've experienced in the past semesters are peanuts. I can now laugh at the way I complain about workload in the past. This sem is simply a nightmare.

OH GOD OH GOD GOD GOD. I'm going to pray to you tomorrow morning. I promise. So pls hear me!

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12:19 AM

Wednesday, April 1, 2009



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