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Monday, November 30, 2009

You know, I seriously am grateful that next semester is my LAST. I wished I had 3 years instead of 4 years of studying in university. I'm getting tired of taking exams. 8 times over the past 4 years!

I'm so gonna play Mario Kart on Wii at home, catch up on lost time with friends, somewhat indulge in drama-ing till the end of this week. And re-touch my Violin. It's been rotting inside its coffin. Haha. Btw, I'm very inspired by the 10,000 hour rule as spoken by Pst last Sunday. Tells me I gotta work harder...

I still got my dissertation draft to submit!!!! Gosh.....I'll have to plan my schedule for Dec-Jan after exams end. As for now, back to my notes! I'm so lagging in my revision due to distractions. Sigh. FOCUS!!!!

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8:38 PM

Sunday, November 29, 2009


In a time when you have many strong Christians in the entertainment industry, you have now a choice to like an artist for not just his/her talents and personality, but also his/her faith and how that has applied to his/her career in the industry. Isn't it wonderful? =)

I like the Wondergirls, and I respect them for performing "Nobody" for like a zillionth time with the same passion for their fans. They are more than professional and mature for their age! They are all younger than me by at least 2 years! Amazing.

Now everywhere in the world you get someone who would know who the WGs are, their songs, their dancesteps. Especially since their tour with Jonas Brothers for their opening act. And to think there was a time when people thought they wouldn't make it big in the far west for being so Korean and stuff.

Oh I was thinking about this too. It's pointless to say you hate this girl in WG but you love the other, coz THEY ARE IN A BAND HELLO! That tells you something right? If you really like a band or group, you will like ALL of them regardless! Tsktsk. Ok I was just saying this in my heart yesterday night haha...when I saw comments like "oh I love WG but I hate SooHee coz she is uber act cute". Like whatever. Pls grow up.

Anyway, I do have special respect for 2 persons from WG. Yes, they are Ye Eun (Yenny's her English name) and Sun Ye. =) They are both professing Christians and they are the most "Big sisters" to the rest. I love people like that who have a big heart to not just look after themselves, but constantly looking after the others too.

Sun Ye's the leader of the group and she had been through JYP Entertainment (The toilet guy in the NOBODY MV is JYP!) many years of training that needed much determination and hard work....can see from some videos in Youtube. So I respect her for gritting her teeth through and now she has gained success!

The other person is Yenny! She is the last and the latest to join WG. Yet she is the most talented (she has the most steady voice, composes her own music, dances fabulously, has a great character). I love love love her so much that I was so excited to see her on TWITTER!!! Along with the other members of course. I quickly followed her on twitter. =D


Here is Yenny talking about herself!





Here is Yenny dancing with Chansung, a member of the JYP Entertainment's another pop
group, 2PM. He's hot! The dance is super awesome!!! My fave out of the 5!!!




Here is Sun Ye, with her introduction.



Sun Ye is really humble. I like her alot. =))

That's my little introduction on WG...quite a biased one towards Yenny and Sunye. Hehe. It's not too late to discover more stuff about WG! I think they rock.

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8:46 PM

Thursday, November 26, 2009

I am actually feeling thankful on Thanksgiving Day. Hmm.

I thank God for: (A long list! Shows that I'm blessed in my past 22 yrs!)

FAMILY
1. A complete family...
2. Family members that are so supportive (morally and financially) that I develop my musical talents
3. Parents that are still paying my phone bills, Uni education, pocket money, & now cab fares when it's exam periods for me
4. A mum who fought tooth and nail to get me the best education past 22 years
5. Dad who nurtured me in experiential science when I was young - rearing caterpillars into butterflies, hatching lizard eggs, all in plastic containers - something I'll never forget, even though I don't feel fated with science anymore.
6. Dad who sat through Maths 10/10 PC Tutor, Biology, Chemistry, Physics with me and being readily available when I needed help
7. Brother who will always bless me greatly on my birthdays
8. Uncles and Aunties that are also caring for my future and well-being, and are also generous people, but stingy with themselves
9. A nice house to live in the past 15 years with many pets to accompany my growing up years. I will never forget Reagon who was put to sleep eventually due to his paralysis, Oscar who died in a car accident, my 2 chickens, a house of rabbits, hamster whose name I forgot, and Golden now who is still surviving (thank God)!

FRIENDS & LEADERS
10. My friends from Primary School - Alethia, Charmaine, Joan. And also for putting me in Pri 6BD class that we're still meeting up frequently now & always looking forward to it!
11. YT, who brought me to know Christ as THE Person, not just my savior, but my Lord
12. Sis Veron, whom I learnt to respect by seeing how much others have respect for her, and then experiencing her leadership for myself, although for a short while only - she and the cell group taught my the City Harvest Church culture from there. That was the reason I stayed on.
13. Bro Victor, who I respect alot as a wise leader and learnt most of what I believe and apply right now from him.
14. My Uni Friends - Teng Teng, Stephanie, Li Chin, Ball, etc...whom I got to know better only during my final year, but I am glad I knew them better even if it wasn't over a long time
15. WL - The only person in church who I will show the level of my crap, and who will know the words that is truly in my heart and mind...and, the only person who I can trust to understand my words & who I am 100% comfortable with when it comes to confiding.
16. VIC Leaders - for always bringing laughter in the face of challenges before us. You guys amaze me at the level of strength to take all that in with a smile on the face...I have learnt well throughout the period of being part of you, and I must say, we have all grown together. In bonds and in service. I love & respect you guys for being my standard.

CELL GROUP (Also under "FRIENDS")
17. Cell group - N119, W280....you guys are always part of my life. I wish I had been more proactive in connecting with you all especially Clement, Huizhen, Elly, Esther (both, lol). But there was always alot of balancing to do, and I guess I could have done better...WELL, time is coming soon when I can take THE load off my mind! Exams end @ Dec 2! Meet up soon...

18. The NOW Cell group - Thanks guys for running the race with me. I know I'm not the most perfect leader around, in fact I'm far from it...but you guys have stuck together with me and it has been 4 months now. I can't promise that you won't ever face a disappointment in this cell group, but I can promise that I'll put in my greatest effort and tgt with God's grace, we will see each other grow and transform. I'm not perfect either, and all of us are long time Christians with alot of room for improvement. So let's give grace to one another, even as we seek the higher calling, and most importantly....NEVER STOP LOVING GOD & LOVING OTHERS!

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Last of all, I want to thank God for being God!

1. Thank God for placing ALL THE ABOVE in my life!
2. Thank You for being more interested in my character growth than my comfort/convenience...there are SO MANY instances in my life I could quote for this...only You know all of them!
3. Thank You for being a loving father, being smarter than everyone that I may know, being more forgetful about sins that have been confessed and repented from than others around me, being the peace in my heart when I need it, and the strength in me when I needed it to overcome odds, being the guide in me when I had to depend on the gifts of the Holy Spirit!
4. Thank You for writing the Bible - formidable weapon for those who have bothered to read the user manual! Haha...
5. Thank You for being a God that actually responds.
6. Thank You for setting up the standard for morality & ethics...makes me less confused living in this screwed up world.

That isn't all, but I'm sleepy now. Maybe I'll continue sometime soon! Or not! =) Thank YOU for reading this! I hope everytime you are here to read my blog, you are blessed.

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10:44 PM


So, November 26th is thanksgiving day? Hmm.

Have been reading tweet posts and half the time people are tweeting about thanksgiving, or they were tweeting and thanking people. Well, all I can say is this is really new to me and to celebrate it on this day still feels foreign. Haha.

I'm looking forward to the end of year, because of Christmas and Cedar Homecoming (Dec 31st!)

I have been singing Christmas carols since June I think. Lol. Especially listening to Relient K's rendition of Sleigh Ride. So Christmasy! =) But it's gonna be BUSY at church....events, outreaches, appreciation in CG and Zone, etc.....and all these stretching till 1st week of Jan 2010. Phew. Effort + $$ ->Need LOTS of it.

As for the homecoming for my secondary school, I think the date is awesome - something to look forward to other than ushering in the New Year. =) Cedar is the place where God brought me through...it will always have a special place in my heart. I remember scenes of certain areas around the school. It has been etched in my memory already. Somehow I wish the newly opened building now at the same venue as where we used to study at wouldn't be too different. But I think it would be, and inevitably so. Will I be disappointed because of the change I would see at the Homecoming? Haha....

Relient K - Sleigh Ride

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12:51 PM

Tuesday, November 24, 2009

I went through an exhilarating day today....I started off the day as though I was fighting a battle with my notes and exam, which I felt I didn't do well in. But I ended the day feeling there's so much hope, so much vision, so much dream to fulfil that what it was wasn't confined by books, studies, or NUS. And I'm even more convicted in my heart there's so much more to life than just grades. Grades of course are important, but they are not as important as God, His work in MY life, and the fact that I'm living THAT out. =) It's just so exciting having God in your life. You know you're in for a big big treat, NOT trick! =)





I went for Leaders' Meeting at JW tonight, and Pst Dennis Balcombe, an angmor who can speak better Mandarin than most Singaporeans (HENCE THE TITLE OF MY POST) was preaching. I mean seriously, I don't know what's with the mentality of "Oh Western things/ppl/culture are number 1, Chinese PRCs are second class citizens". Some of us may not think like that, but the way we treat them in the little things can lead to that kind of mentality.


DON'T BE A BANANA! or Jiakantang!

Anyway back to Pst Balcombe. He showed us how early Chinese Christians got persecuted and stuff...and encouraged us to receive an impartation and believe for an opened Heaven and doorway for China. The fact is that China IS opening up to be less legalistic, which is good because innocence is NOT virtue.

I'm just very inspired by his sharing, and he kept on stressing the point of "Learn the language! Learn how to speak it!" I mean isn't that what Jim Rogers is saying too? China will be the next big thing. Mr Rogers wouldn't have migrated to Singapore if not for his belief that China will be where his future generations will be at most ideally right? I mean, Singapore is really....not the most ideal if we are talking about leveraging on superpowers.

Anyhow, I don't want to go much into details, for it is a sensitive topic to blog about...still...better to be safe than sorry. Haha. But one thing I know is that the leaders caught something tonight in our spirits....gifts of the Holy Spirit...also an impartation; a burden for the Chinese...and that made my evening today so beautiful. =)

OH, not to mention I sat in a taxi and the uncle was like "wa, your church alot of people hor?" in a tone of wonder and amazement for 2 3 times thruout the ride. And I think that was really adorable. Haha! I know he said it in that kind of way, not the sacarstic way or any other ways because body language and tone of voice tells you more than the actual words do. =) And I am good at this. So next time if you need people to discern, I offer my services! Lol. just kiddin...

All in all, today was great. I participated in the CHIP study @ NUH too. You get reimbursed S$190 for participating in the study. Go check it out now!

WWW.CHIP.SG

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11:39 PM

Monday, November 23, 2009

From the moment the video started I keep laughing till the end! OMG.......XiaoZhu is super funny can. I can never take him or his acting seriously anymore since he began hosting in 100% entertainment. Okok...back to my books after the first episode!!!

Gonna catch this series after exams! Yippee!!!

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6:27 PM

Saturday, November 21, 2009

I KNOW....it's my birthday....so, allow me to blog twice in a row! I wanna let it all out. =p


What is being secure in Christ?
It means trusting God's character hasn't change (and never will change)....when you are going through the wilderness experience.


What is 'wilderness'?

We think of this word as a desert place, no water, just a big round scorching sun following you wherever you go. When we talk about being in the wilderness metaphorically, we mean we are going through a time when the destination is nowhere in sight; you are in a state of limbo.


[Here comes the revelation part...]
But don't forget, God did provide manna (food) and water for the children of Israel - 4 million of them on an exodus to Canaan, their Promise Land.
This means God is IN the wilderness. You may not see Him, you may not feel Him....but He is silently working and providing for you behind the scene. He is silently doing His work through you and in you. In the wilderness. =)
So, smile. We have every reason to. Our God never wastes an experience.
Whatever does not destroy you will make you stronger.

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3:43 AM


Doing what is right even if it hurts. This is very important. That's how we grow and how we 'force' ourselves out of our comfort zones. Too many times, too many people are guilty of just letting things pass. Myself included. Sometimes, we choose not to do what is right because....

1) Not convenient
2) Hate confrontation
3) Stubborn/Unrepentant - "Did I do anything wrong? No leh...."
4) "What's the point of doing what is right? Will anything change? *mope mope mope*...."

But trust me, it's gonna feel good on the inside after that. Because truth in itself brings peace and comfort to the soul. That sort of peace is something we cannot buy or obtain from any other methods. =) And you will find that the whole roller coaster ride can finally end. Full stop.

Sometimes, we need to apologize when we don't feel like it.
We need to undo what we did wrong, even if it's gonna be troublesome.
We need to correct others, even if we hate to confront people.

We need to be firm, when we are tempted to compromise.
We need to be strong, when there is every right to be in self-pity and depression.
We need to be forward-looking when we feel like stagnating.
We need to be humble, when we have every right to be arrogant and complacent.
We need to CHANGE and CHALLENGE ourselves, when we feel what we have is enough, and it's good to be at status quo.

I am reminded of Psalms 15:4-5. [NKJV]

"In whose eyes a vile person is despised,
But he honors those who fear the LORD;
He who swears to his own hurt and does not change;

He who does not put out his money at usury,
Nor does he take a bribe against the innocent.
He who does these things shall never be moved."


Be an ambassador of righteousness today. You don't have to be a court judge or a lawyer in order to be that. Stand up for justice and for what is right. Simply because truth is worth that sacrifice.

It all starts from the inside - your belief and attitude towards life. And like the verse says, may it become something that 'does not change' and will 'never be moved' in your life. Yes- even if it costs you, you will not be moved. TRUTH is WORTH that cost.

It is part of God's plan of restoration in the new world to all who believe in that. We need to be a people with a righteous spirit when in the new world. Everyone is a fighter in that new place. Everyone is unafraid to do what's right.

Swear to your own hurt....you will find it worth it but not until you have actually done it. Trust me. Just do it.

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3:01 AM

Thursday, November 19, 2009

The question to ask yourself is this: When you die, what will you regret NOT doing when you're still alive, which leads to ppl not remembering you by those things? When they are attending your funeral?

Always effective, I realize! =p

When I die, I want to be presented as a person who has pursued her dreams of composing/songwriting, short stints of singing, maybe in a band (if I become famous and good at that, praise the Lord. If not, it's still a passion. That's why it is a passion!), taking a plunge into business by opening her ideal restaurant, working in her ideal career which allowed me to contribute much to society's well-being, and as for the private sphere, having raised a wonderful family with successful kids and a good husband.

So to sieve it all out, my dream is:
1) Get into marketing/advertising industry

2) Open my ______-themed restaurant (no prizes for guessing, you who knows what's my fave food!), hopefully can franchise it off by the time I retire! Yay!

3) Put my musical talents to greater use! Be a producer/songwriter.

Disclaimer: These are subject to changes enforced by the One, the God of all dreams and visions. =p

It's just when I think about how special I really am (I AM!), all the more I can't believe I'm settling for something conventional and conform with the rest. That's why I tweeted and I still have it in mind: "The roadblock is myself". And after Pst Kong's message, these few weeks of God using people and situations around me, I know that God is trying to tell me "come on, take the roadblock in your mind away!"

And that I shall do. I have already taken it away.

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7:55 PM

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

Source: http://www.original.com.sg/maksim/maksim.htm



Handsome right? Too bad he's married already. But not as if he's not married I will stand a chance. HAHAHA JUST KIDDING! =p He's married to his childhood sweetheart and has a 2 yr old daughter. How sweet!



Anyway, I'm more impressed with his piano playing than his looks, or even his "subculture" image. He's not your typical concert or hotel pianist, dressed like a penguin on stage when performing. He looks totally rockish! And that totally fits him more than the penguin.



His playing enforces that rebel attitude which kinda exudes from his dressing in the context of classical piano - we are talking about staging a sit-down, formal concert in the ESPLANADE CONCERT HALL. Yeah probably that's why the brochure had a 5 or 6 points-to-note instruction regarding "How to appreciate Maksim's classical piano performance". LOLZ. ROFLZ. ZZZ.



People know him for his pop/classical albums - think Vanessa Mae or Bond. Maksim is known for songs like Flight of the Bumble Bee. He is a very successful and famous improviser with regard to music improvising it into piano (as Flight of the Bumble Bee was - originally composed for the violin). Also, tonight he performed "New World", which is an orchestral work. My dad pointed that out! I was silently impressed with my dad. So, Maksim had transformed it into piano music. Cool!



I guess Maksim played it safe, attempting to conserve energy as he started out with less than exciting pieces (those hypnotic ones, classical and romantic periods music....yawnz....) Nothing much to wow about at the beginning. But there was a pattern unfolding and I begin to understand perhaps he is trying to keep his stamina going for him - and thus every 1 or 2 intensive finger work pieces, he will perform a slower, more relaxed piece. And that's good planning.



He was explosive during the last 2 to 3 pieces. AWESOME finger work! Astounding technique....really not easy. He sweated alot and drank alot of water. HAHA. Makes me understand and bear with the fact that his playing was not exactly keeping me awake 100% of the time. It's ok Maksim...."I forgive you"...lol.



Ratings: 4/5



Congratulations Maksim, your concert was worth the money spent. =) Must thank my aunt once again, who sponsored me and my family members the ticket! It says 'Restricted View' on the tix, but the view was great! I will want to tryout the Gallery the next time I'm in that hall! The Gallery is the back of the stage. =) I think the best view of the running fingers on the piano is at the Gallery area.



Some trivia about Maksim:


1) Croatian


2) Witnessed War in his hometown, and poor - for many years


3) Entered a national piano competition, he was so good the judges stopped the competition and announce him as the winner


4) His under the same agent (for his pop-classical albums) as BOND, the hot all-female string ensemble.



Snippet of 1 of the 3 pieces that astounded all tonight- "Hall of the Mountain King"




maksim - maksim

Do realize that tonight, he went "classic". In other words, no fancy sound effects, no drums, not band supporting his playing....just him and the grand piano on stage. Very unlike what you just heard. Same song, but greater challenge live on stage. So make a guess. He had to create the drama effect of the song using his 10 fingers, ON TOP of playing out the melody line. So I hope you can imagine him banging away on the piano most of the time, but banging the right notes 95% of the time. Harmonious discordance. Very impressive.



FLIGHT OF THE BUMBLE BEE (Which unforuntately he did not perform tonight)

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11:30 PM


For the record. I checked it myself....

Body Shop Body Butter and Vitamin E Hand &Nail Treatment is NOT Parabens Free. I have them in my house.

Shocked. But not willing to throw them away because I spent money on them....will stop getting these moisturizing and makeup products from Body Shop. Meanwhile, research for Paraben-Free products.

I still like Body Shop though. Lol.

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12:35 AM

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

No lar just want to share something. Haha.

Tip #1

Have you ever found applying a layer of lotion or moisturizer over your body is too sticky for comfort and it's a huge chore? Feel frustrated no more, for I have a secret to share with you....TADA!!!!

Get a BODY SCRUB. It is very effective I tell you. No need moisturizer/body butter....just this alone, and you can feel velvety skin after shower. TRY IT IT'S WORTH THE MONEY! After having this you can throw your body butter or lotions aside. Wasteful though. Hah.




Tip #2: Want convenience and effectiveness when it comes to pimples? Want to DESTROY and make pimples flat in 1 day?


The TEA TREE OIL is da bomb. But note - you must be able to take pain when you apply it after you burst your pimple. It's gonna be painful, coz tea tree is considered an antiseptic range. But it works like magic. The next day, you see your pimple dried up. Well, the logical thing to do if you're scared of pain is NOT to burst your pimple! Just apply.



Tip #3: Want smoother feet with effective moisturizing effect, at the same time having your feet feel COOL?
Moisturising Cotton Socks is what you need! They are so cute. I can seriously sleep in them without getting my bed dirty with the lotion (eeks if that happened!). It's "lotion proof"!
After applying some lotion (my recommendation: Peppermint range - Intensive Foot Rescue for really awful and cracked feet), wake up the next day with the lotion all absorbed into your feet, and they will feel velvety. Yay! But for me, my feet not very jialat...so I'm just using the "normal type", ie. Peppermint Cooling Foot Lotion.
Really happy coz this feet caring regime is going to save me literally hundreds of dollars at the pedicure's. I can't afford that high a luxury of a foot spa there! Very expensive! DIY better. =D

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8:03 PM

Sunday, November 15, 2009

Immediate buys...
1. Facial cleansing oil
2. Xmas gifts (after exams)
3. Foot Mask

Some crazy but valid ideas...
1. Buy precious metals?
2. Multiple bank accounts?
3. Start Insurance saving plan?

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11:49 PM


I just want to express my gratitude for such wonderful relatives who never miss a birthday celebration...they are my grandma, aunts and uncles from my maternal family. It definitely feels good to know so many people are doing it for you and that we "take turns" to feel special. Haha...that's the fun part. =) Also with the 3 lil cousins that are going to grow up even smarter and more talented than anyone else in the family! I can foresee. They sound like little biggies at times.

Well, what can I say...I have to begin the payback project once I start to work. I really want to do this because of their care and showers of love not just in terms of money, but also concern over my future, whether school or career or relationship, my health. All throughout my 22 years of life. And I want to do the same back for them...which makes me think how can I do that. I get showered now because I have many relatives. But the future will be the reverse! In the future, if I want to bless each and everyone of them, I must have that capacity. That means starting from being a good saver before even talking about becoming rich. Haha.

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11:03 PM

Saturday, November 14, 2009

I had a mini terrible day yesterday. The whole day was raining, I was carrying alot of barangs from school to CG venue and they were all heavy. The train and buses were packed, because it was after-work hours, and the traffic was atrocious. I concluded traffic would be atrocious at ANY PART OF SINGAPORE as long as it is in the after-work hours. On top of that, I had a very gracious uncle who splashed his umbrella's rainwater on me to "dry" his umbrella before boarding the bus. Not once, but TWICE.

I don't believe in the superstition behind Friday the 13th and I still don't. I did not remember it was a 13th and a Friday until I ended CGM. Believe it. If Friday the 13th is really a bad day, we would ALL have bad days in EVERY Friday the 13th. But that's not the case...so yesterday was really just one of those irritatingly challenging days that I face every once in a while. It HAS to rain and make travelling inconvenient. Sigh. But can't blame nature cos it's the monsoon season. Not as if nature will stop it just because of me.

But in the end I did get an MRT seat in the cabin. And I decided I should stop complaining and self-pitying. I think yesterday's experience in travelling really brought out the complaining attitude in me. I got to change. I am no longer simple if I become complaining inside, accusing God of certain things, blaming others...because that means I have become complicated just like the world I'm living in. And that means, I have lost the simplicity in my heart.

Blessed are the pure in heart, for they shall see God. -Mt 5:18

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2:59 PM

Friday, November 13, 2009



"I won't let the darkness in...what a journey it has been."



LEA SALONGA AT MISS SAIGON AUDITION! WATCH!!!

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2:00 AM

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

The power of encouragement part 1
(Afterthoughts hearing Brian Houston's sermon)

Encouragement is very important. We shouldn't just offer it occasionally when there's an occasion, but DAILY. That's what Pst Brian preached about in the podcast sermon I caught. And it's very true that humans thrive on encouragement. We succeed today because somebody believed that we could.

Encouragement is different from flattering....flattering is simply empty words given out for a selfish purpose. But encouragement is to build the OTHER up, and not for yourself.

Pastor Brian was very funny when he talked about "Fishing for an encouragement". Haha. I'm sure it was his personal experience and it is so true how we pathetically fish for encouragement in an environment that doesn't have this culture!

Let's be generous with our words AND action of encouragement...it is really pathetic if we all have to resort to fishing for them!

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2:48 PM

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

Charice on Oprah Winfrey Show - Oprah cried at her rendition.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P4Xd435coD4 (embedding disabled)

BIG SONG EH?? The world is noticing Charice now. She is supposed to be the special performer in Michael Jackson's "This Is It" Concert. A pity (that's an understatement) it didn't happen...

Charice performing "a Note to God" on an Italian show (I think) but the Oprah one more saat.



LYRICS

If I wrote a note to God
I would speak whats in my soul
I’d ask for all the hate to be swept away
For love to overflow

If I wrote a note to God
I’d pour my heart out on each page
I’d ask for war to end
For peace to mend this world
I’d say, I’d say, I’d say

Give us the strength to make it through
Help us find love cause love is over due
And it seems like so much is goin wrong
On this road…… we’re on

If I wrote a note to God
I’d say please help us find our way
End all the bitterness
Put some tenderness in our hearts
And I’d say, I’d say, I’d say

Give us the strength to make it through
Help us find love cause love is over due
And it looks like we haven’t got a clue
Need some help from you
Grant us the faith to carry on
Give us hope when it seems all hope is gone
Cause it seems like so much is goin wrong
On this road we’re on

No, no no no
We can’t do this on our own
So

Give us the strength to make it through
Help us find love cause love is over due
And it looks like we haven’t got a clue
Need some help from you
Grant us the faith to carry on
Give us hope when it seems all hope is gone
Cause it seems like so much is goin wrong
On this road we’re on

No, no no no
We can’t do this on our own
So, So

If I wrote a note to God


Singing "I WILL SURVIVE" AT A KOREAN VARIETY SHOW, STAR KING with a very good Korean Singer, LENA PARK!!!


DUET WITH CELINE DION! "BECAUSE YOU LOVED ME"
I'm positive I saw Lang Lang (China born world renowned pianist) who's standing beside Charice's mum!

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1:44 AM

Monday, November 9, 2009

"Leading while bleeding." -Terrie Williams, AR Bernard Show (Happiness Is... on the topic of Depression)

"Trusting God is not giving up.
You have a bigger picture and I trust Your bigger picture.
You are being wronged doesn't give you the right to BE wrong." -Louie Giglio, Passion Messages (Left Turns, Detours, and the Sovereign plan of God)

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Sermons I've downloaded so far: Louie Giglio, AR Bernard, Phil Pringle, Ulf Ekman, John Bevere, Joyce Meyer, Joel Osteen, Brian Houston.

An apple a day keeps the doctor away...A sermon a day keeps the devil away!

Not sure if that's a good analogy but you get the idea. Haha.

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11:45 PM


I agree with what Pastor Robb Thompson mentioned on Sunday service. STOP FEEDING THE POOR; INSTEAD TEACH THEM TO FEED THEMSELVES!

Isn't this the same principle as "instead of helping someone fish, teach him the skills to fish FOR LIFE?" The fishing analogy is just a nicer way of putting things, isn't it??

When we give money to the poor, we feel that we have done something good. It is humanly good, but divinely evil. AMEN!

Doesn't it all make sense now? Ah. =) In church, we should not help others to the point of spoonfeeding them. We should teach them how to feed themselves.

There are some people who choose to starve spiritually! Will they choose to starve themselves in the natural? Of course not! But that's the way I see it around me. How funny things are! *Bitter laugh*

What is true in the natural should be true in the supernatural! By skipping their spiritual meals of Bible Reading and Prayer, they end up dry, bitter against God. How to help them if they are not willing to help themselves? We can't possibly help them fulfill their spiritual committment to the Lord by reading the Bible and praying for them right? God judges fairly. Nobody can replace anybody else.

I'm glad Pastor Robb talked about this. I feel a little more relieved now being on the same line of thought as he. All these while, I have been reluctant to commit myself to "feeding the poor" per se, not because I am not willing to, but because I know it's not an effective way of running society. See...that's me. But sometimes people misunderstand and think I'm too cold-hearted.

Oh well. But I must admit, I haven't done anything to "teach people how to fish". That's why I will still feel guilty...coz if we stop feeding the poor and also NOT teach them to feed themselves, they will really end up dying. Hurhur. Hmm.

My sense of guilt is NOT because I'm not feeding the poor, but rather me not doing anything to teach them....

Need more ideas to equip the needy and commit myself to those ideas!

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4:40 PM


He deserves being named "King of Pop". But other than creativity and talent coming from the man himself, it is the marketing brain behind all these that could make him a "King" in his trade. Which shows one thing....there is no self-made millionaire, self-made guru, self-made "Kings". For every successful person, there is always PEOPLE they have stepped on to get to where they are today.





MJ's a very gentlemanly person. I think he have been very misunderstood due to the media who had tried umpteenth times to dethrone him for the sake of sensationalism. Many people couldn't get to know the true MJ as a result. He is a very good communicator I have to say! The way he communicates with his concert prep team...=)

This show is a documentary to me...as a movie plot, is nothing exciting...I'd give it 2.5/5 stars. I grew sleepy at half time (but that's coz I didn't sleep much yesterday) thinking it was at least 2 hours already, but it was only 1 hour! Hahaha.

But....as sentimental value/a tribute to MJ, I'd give it 5/5 stars because it's such a heart-wrenching feeling to see this man with SO MUCH (I really mean SO MUCH) to give and so much for us to learn from, die before realizing it & communicating it to all of us out there. Makes me wonder how many great people are like him, dying before their time....

If the concert would have been held, it would be so worth the ticket price. The 3D/4D effects are never-seen-before. REALLY.

Some things I took home with me:
1) MJ's a pro-green guy and he made it one part of his concert segment. Respect him for that.
2) MJ's a guy who keeps pushing the creative limit, exploring beyond boundaries, AND being very successful with that.
3) Some things are just SO MJ....without him, those things are simply meaningless.
4) People's dreams are realized because MJ first realized his.
Seeing dancers who have auditioned successfully cry before the footage because they are so grateful for this opportunity to be on the same stage with MJ, made me realize the need to be a dreammaker.

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10:23 AM

Sunday, November 8, 2009

It's late, I know. I'm probably only gonna catch 4 hours of sleep before I wake up for service.
T_T EYEBAGS.


I was looking at the floor map of Singapore Expo, and spotted where Hall 8, my church service is being held.
Hall 8 = City Harvest Church. Is that right?? No! Hall 8 = Singapore Expo's!

It dawned upon me one thing. We got to stop getting comfortable to the point of making Singapore Expo, which is a rented place, our spiritual home!
Let's not get comfortable with being in the wilderness. To me, Hall 8 is the land of wilderness. Let's always remember and act towards CANAAN, our future OWN BUILDING.
We don't make a hotel, which is a rented place, our home. Correct?? Neither do we make our home a hotel. Let's make our home a home and a hotel, hotel. Let's get things RIGHT!

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2:19 AM

Saturday, November 7, 2009



I thought this is a really nice sounding song. Many rave reviews and comments about THIS IS IT - the movie - is making me wanting to spend $7 to watch MJ posthumously someday soon, before the showing ends.


MJ....you have the amazing power to make people miss you even when they ain't your fans. You are the man.

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4:53 AM


Have you ever thought of this question before? What if you are not a Christian....how would you be living your life? I thought of that question quite a few times now.


If I am not a Christian today, I will probably be a wild at heart girl. To be very honest, I think I will give in to lying, cheating, putting up a false front, be very selfish. I'm a Scorpio. =p I may even enter into many relationships without having so much in my considerations (if you read my previous blog entry, you should know what I mean). I may even think that pre-marital sex is not wrong. In fact, I would base my moral values on the society TODAY. The type of culture I am in, that would be what is right.


But at the same time, certain things I may not really do it. Like pre marital sex, or committing some crime like stealing and cheating in exams. But I know that my unwillingness to do all these is NOT because I have great moral standards, but rather fear of parents' disapproval upon finding out, fear of the way other people look at me, and just fear in general.

That's why I thank God I am a Christian...I am not governed by fear, I am governed by God! I choose to stay "within the books" because God in His sovereignty shown the better life to me if I choose His way. And that is by abiding to the right moral values for the sake of righteousness but more importantly, to reflect the image of God.

Can you imagine living your life being governed by fear? Everything you believe and do, you do it because fear is ruling over you? I can't. At my limit, I know I'll definitely face a breakdown. I will want freedom, and breakthrough. I will come to a point when I ask "is there more to life than living in constant fear?"

Thank God for GOD. Even before I have to face that point, He has already rescued me. And I'm living happily in this better life for the past 4 years already. =) I'm quite sad people think Christianity is some rigid, restrictive religion that is simply full of theories.

If freedom is doing whatever you want, and freedom is happiness, then is the freedom of committing suicide going to lead you to happiness? Is freedom of inflicting hurt on others going to lead you to happiness?

What is freedom? Can I question the definition of FREEDOM in this entry. Does it really mean doing whatever you and I want? Something to think about.

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1:04 AM

Friday, November 6, 2009

Just to share what I found interesting.

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10:49 PM


I am writing this as a person who have yet experienced a full blown BGR (I did as a kid in secondary school but it was over IRC and ICQ. And I initiated the breakup after 2 or 3 months. How ____ is that??). I think this is a very important background information before reading onwards.

Relationship is something I find a dilemma. Seeing people around me one by one getting attached, I am happy to see them being lovey dovey with each other. That made me see the beautiful side of getting into a relationship. But after some time, I see some conflicts happening amongst the couples and I'm no longer sure if I really want a relationship.

I know that in a friendship, conflicts are inevitable so don't even talk about relationships. Yet I'm not so sure if I want that extra burden. Is that extra happiness brought by a BGR worth the extra burden of conflicts that comes along as a package?? That's something I'm still quite uncertain of.

There's one thing I'm very certain of, though. I thank God for people around me who become my case studies to prevent the same mistake from happening on me and my future guy. Haha!

To be honest, sometimes I really admire my friends who are attached. I believe that the power of two is stronger than one. Especially when I look at Pastor Kong and Sun, they are doing great works in the KOG like no other couples I have ever known.

I really wish that when I do get into a relationship and get married, one day I can do great works like Pastor and Sun. That will be one of the the main purpose for me getting attached and married. As a couple, we must achieve things that those that are single cannot! If not, why get attached in the first place correct? Attached or single, there would then be no difference!

As you can probably infer by now, but if you can't, let me tell you. I am really a very purpose driven person. If I don't see a rationale/purpose/goal/objective behind doing something, I will rather not do it. So....

When it comes, it will come. I know....

And I also trust that God has prepared somebody gentlemanly, godly, wise, capable, and purpose driven to be the guy in my life. But instead of putting expectations on others, I will first expect myself to change for the better, to become "the right person". I can't agree more with the blog entry I quoted from.

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2:05 AM

Wednesday, November 4, 2009

Extracted from WILLY JOE's Blog


Been having this thought of becoming the right person is more important than anything else. I get this sense that these days we tend to focus more on getting the 'right things'. "I wanna get the right job...I wanna get the right girl...bla bla..." I mean there is nothing wrong with desiring these. But we tend to neglect our becoming the right person.

We may get the right job but we are the wrong person for the job. We may get the right girl but we are the wrong person for her. I think this is something good to think about. God is in the business of molding our character. He wants us to be more like Him. I certainly believe that God wants the right kinda people in heaven! Let's be the right people for His kingdom and eternity.

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2:53 AM


Extracted from PHILEO's Blog













Picture: Image Copyright © 2009 Callie Shell. All Rights Reserved.





Was thinking: What makes people want to excel, be different, be better? What makes people want to simply live their dream?

Is it just the desire of "want"? Where does the amazing strength of motivation come from?!

How do desires spring into action? Especially when goals seem lightyears away from achieving!What momentous forces of focus does one need to forge like those of a marksman... to continuously strive for a goal, not to waver or settling for anything less?

And when we see those that strive as mentioned, shouldn't we cheer and support them. Never mind that we don't know them but what/who gives us the right to pull them down? Believe in the freedom of dreams!

Meanwhile most of us live in careful ignorance of ignoring our most personal and intimate dreams, hence settling for the obvious needs and wants of society's majority. Is it very difficult to reconcile with our own dreams and stop worrying for this and that....

Obama doing chin ups.. good motivation ;)

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2:42 AM


Today Forgave Tomorrow

I'm a fool for the millionth time
Nobody knows, no partners in crime
Too many lessons I have learnt
Fire-played and fingers burnt

Wide open the array of imperfections
Hit me hard with one intercession
The latter came to buy his clothes
To make him light on the journey's boat

Away, away, the lullaby sways
Today forgave tomorrow
Wave, wave, goodbye to this place
Soon, you're gathered and safe


We all felt lousy before. What can I say. Sometimes I feel like I'm the only one feeling that. But I know that's not true....you guys have your own "lousy moments" too. Right? =p We are all workS-in-progress.

And this song or poem or whatever you want to call it, it goes out to you all who feel lousy, stupid, and a letdown - all at the same time. It is unfinished, but my creative juices got blocked thereafter. Hahaha. I hope to remind myself and everyone else like me that "soon, you're gathered and safe".

You will be.



P.S: My emo times = creative time. So is emo-ing a good thing?

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1:39 AM

Tuesday, November 3, 2009

Yesterday night I was trying to psycho myself to get started with my module project. I did get started but not before spending alot of time doing personality tests and career test online. Haha. That's why I posted one of them up the previous entry.

I retook another test which categorized my personality as INTJ. I did this test thrice and I still got the same results. I'd be happy in the past because it shows I'm a real INTJ. You know how sometimes we do tests not by what we really are, but what we desire to be? Lol.....But now, I'm far from happy because I went to look in detail, it says INTJ people (aka Strategists) make up only 2.5% of people! And in it, only 0.5% are FEMALE! OMG.......

That's not what I need to know right now. Coz I feel the need to blend in. You know how we need to balance (BALANCE IS THE KEY TO LIFE) so when we are too set apart from others, we got to evaluate whether we should balance up by blending in a little bit and stuff like that. =\

I can't believe it. It means I'm not understood by most people in the first instance. In fact I understand why I face certain situations now. Sometimes (quite often) my brain works too fast...I must slow down....

Okay. So maybe that's why I feel I'm more guyish in my personality....

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2:00 AM

Monday, November 2, 2009


My personalDNA Report

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4:38 AM

Sunday, November 1, 2009

A good friend from church recently chatted with me, and she commented at how I always appear very "steady" in the face of people telling me their problems. Meaning how I can remain unfazed despite friends sharing their problems with me, or me getting to know certain problems about other people.

I don't have an outright answer until now. I guess it is simply in my personality to use my mind more than my heart. More guyish? Shrug.

I don't think I'm like that only in the context of hearing problems. But in general - when I hear of something shocking or totally unexpected and most of the time those things are not-so-good news - my response is "NOT to respond". Meaning, give a response to acknowledge I understand what was mentioned, then only analyzing it afterwards and then react later. This is my way of thinking before acting.

The only thing that makes me fazed and therefore more "girlish" are probably cockroaches, lizards and gross stuff. These are things that I can never get myself to think before I act. =\




SILENT ALL THESE YEARS



Silent all these years. Look forward to the day when there is no reason to be silent anymore. That is the time....when the eagle will soar high and mightily....and every other creature will know of its purpose-filled existence.

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8:47 PM


I don't like to blog about my inner feelings. I realize my mind encircles it after I blogged it out. And I get emo after that. Tsk.

Having emo periods are healthy...but prolonged emoing is not good; it just shows you are sitting on your problems, not willing to go about it. I wonder why such people exist.

Always remember: Between your IDEALS and REALITY, there are bound to be differences. Learn to manage your reponse during situations when you don't get 100% of what you are looking for. That is how you survive in this broken down and imperfect world. If you get everything you want, you must be dead (and gone to Heaven) or you rear a genie at home that grants you a million wishes for your whole lifetime.



I wonder if I am talking about myself.

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8:37 PM


My heart just squeezed together when Pastor Kong mentioned this word yesterday at Jurong West service 1. Even right now, there is a groaning which I do not know how to appease. I don't know why this feeling and burden would be so immense as Pst preached about becoming a dreamchaser. Maybe it is because I am not a dreamchaser but I long to be a dreamchaser.

Who I am hates who I've been.

If what I'm going through this 4 year is considered as my wilderness experience, then there must be something greater, better and more beautiful at the end of it.



I'm waiting.

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4:32 PM
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